Life Of A Hermit

2011-09-09T02:31:00.002+08:00

Hmm, how to start?
A lot of things happened over last few months of totally no blogging at all.
Yup, no time to blog.
And of course, playing games I never expected I would play again.
One main point in blogging today was cause of a manga I read.
So first thing first, why did I want to blog about this manga?
The manga is Onani Master Kurosawa.
If you bother to google it, trust me, thought the title is a bit of that sort, it still a pretty touching story.
The story setting placed in a school-life setting, main character (Kurosawa) has his secret daily activity and does not wish to seek interactions with his classmates.
In a whole series of events, he gets blackmailed and agrees to tasks requested by a classmate.
I shall not go on further but here's a bit of my thoughts of the whole manga.
The whole story revolving around what Kurosawa goes through is what I'm sure everyone would go through.
Let's say A and B had a very good chemistry between them, A likes B but before A could act on it, A learns that B is going out with C. A naturally would feel very heartbroken but would try to think it's better of this way.
I can empathize with what Kurosawa was going through but I felt what he did, did not seem to show that he really liked the person.
Maybe it's just me thinking it that way.
What I like during the manga was the confession.
I'm sure no one will do such a thing, then undergoing such treatments.
I for one really understood what Kurosawa felt, though I did not experienced any thing like bullying.
If last time before I went poly, someone told me, "Go and talk to xxxxx normally." I doubt I would be able to do such a thing.
This manga strongly give me more motivation to act on it.
Just to be frank here, since mid of last year, I realised why I keep alighting at that bus stop.
Just to meet that person and to say 3 words. No is not that 3 words that will straight come to your mind.
Another 3 words.
Have always felt saying it personally would be better but some how I don't seem to have that kind of luck.
But nevertheless, I will still try to say it personally.

Anyway, thanks to my AB friends for introducing this manga to me.
Thanks to the author who wrote such a wonderful story.
Alright that's it for today.
Gonna have a long day tomorrow.

~~~Hope for the day to come soon!~~~

2011-04-21T02:38:00.002+08:00

Start school liao. =.=
Didnt blog about any new spring season animes.
Anyway, after watching Steins Gate and hearing some nice old clannad bgm, started to think if only time travel was a reality. Haha.
Unlike what normal timetable from what I watch from like heroes which talks about parallel worlds and butterfly effect.
This time it is world line.
World line seem to be interesting, coming from the anime. Haha.
I wonder whether there is a world line where that problem never occur but from what I understand from the anime, all world lines would still lead to the same ending.
Just by a different "route".
Was just thinking whether it would be fun there.
So world lines seem to be like a tempo better place but in end, it still loses to parallel universe.
Not sure whether I blog about this before, I realised there are starting to have plenty of changes ever since graduate from sec school.
In my mind, some things just remain the way there were, always there and never gone but once open your eyes, reality just comes flooding in.
Compare it with clannad afterstory, where aiko brought tomoya to the cafe, then to the building of the new hospital.
Haha, I sound like I am in the wrong generation where everything just moves so fast.
Gonna end off since got classes in the morning.
My soul and life continues on as time goes by but my heart, is still in the past.

2011-03-31T00:58:00.002+08:00

Woah.
It's really been a long time since I last blogged.
Feb was really busy.
With the due dates of projects and the coming of tests.
Glad that it is all over.
Now is already in the middle of the holidays.
My holidays is practically inverted from my normal school days. Haha.
Morning I sleep while at night I'm awake. LOL.
Been thinking over the time I've not blog.
Thinking of changing the way I blog?
Ever since that whole phrase, been post lyrics of songs.
Now I'm thinking of including some Anime and Manga that I found interesting.
Like a bit of background summary.
So this post would have a bit.

Just 2 days ago, was watching Kimi Ni Todoke Live Drama.
Been waiting for it since it came out last year.
For those who are not sure of what this is, it is a Japanese Drama that roughly follows the actual story of the manga.
The drama is similar to Kimi Ni Todoke Season 1 (Anime).
The story starts by showing a girl named Sawako who is very easily misjudged and is unable to communicate with others well. Since young, people been calling her Sadako due to her resembles to a female ghost in "Ring". Then there was a guy who started talking to her named Kazehaya who was like the opposite of her.
Basically, this anime/show is about school life and romance.
For the Live Drama, I found it quite well done and enjoyable despite the change in the ending.
It had the important parts in the drama, like how Kazehaya started talking to Sawako, Sawako making friends with Ayane and Chizuru and the introduction of a rival.
The ending, I would consider appropriate if the manga had ended there.
Of course the drama had to go of a faster pace but I dont like the jump of where Sawako realised her feelings for Kazehaya and Kazehaya had confessed to her. Why?
During the middle stages of the drama after a rival had appeared, there was not much interaction between Kazehaya and Sawako. (Based off the manga.)
Anyway the Kimi Ni Todoke Season 2 (anime) just ended today.
The anime follow the actual storyline of the manga.
Really hope that there will be a season 3 for this manga.
It's really nice.

2011-02-04T01:19:00.003+08:00

Been some time since I last blog.
Today or should I say, first night of CNY.
It has sure been a while.
Though it feels a while but it's been long.
Should I say, the link has already broken this year?
Nothing to relate to, different places need to go.
Somehow, I realised, without knowing, it just became a habit/natural to walk past there everyday after poly class.
I also no longer know what am I doing.
Ok, forget about this.
Dont want post too much about my thoughts..
You know, sometimes, when you listen to a music in a language you dont understand, the first time when you hear it.
It gives you the feeling that this song the lyrics would be very nice.
Then when you search for the lyrics of the song, you confirmed that it is nice, thinking 'I knew that it had a nice lyrics to it.'
I did that with two songs.
One is 会いたい by Scandal and Connect by ClarIS.
Both are Japanese songs.
And yes, by now you would have realised, I am into Japanese songs.
It would be posted below.
I was wonder also, should I go do my own blogskin?
Since I already like doing my own html website.
LOL.
Not sure when I will blog again..

Music

Title: Connect
Artist: ClarIS

Title: 会いたい
Artist: Scandal

Romanji

kawashita yakusoku wasurenai yo
me wo toji tashikameru
oshiyoseta yami
furiharatte susumu yo

itsu ni nattara nakushita mirai wo
watashi koko de mata miru koto dekiru no
afuredashita fuan no kage wo
nando demo saite kono sekai ayundekou

tomedonaku kizamareta
toki wa ima hajimari tsuge
kawaranai omoi wo nose
tozasareta tobira akeyou

mezameta kokoro wa hashiridashita mirai wo egaku tame
muzukashii michi de tachidomattemo sora wa
kirei na aosa de itsumo mattetekureru dakara kowakunai
mou nani ga atte mo kujikenai

furikaereba nakama ga ite
kigatsukeba yasashiku tsutsumareteta

nanimokamo ga yuganda sekai de
yuiitsu shinjireru koko ga sukui datta

yorokobi mo kanashimi mo wake aeba tsuyomaru omoi
kono koe ga todoku no nara
kitto kiseki wa okoseru darou

kawashita yakusoku wasure nai yo
me o toji tashikameru
oshiyoseta yami furiharatte susumu yo
donnani ookina kabe ga atte mo
koete miseru kara kitto
ashita shinjite inotte

kowareta sekai de samayotte watashi ha
hikiyoserareru youni tadoritsuita

mezameta kokoro wa hashiridashita mirai wo egaku tame
muzukashii michi de tachidomattemo sora wa
kirei na aosa de itsumo mattetekureru
dakara kowakunai
mou nani ga atte mo kujikenai

zutto ashita mata

English

I won't forget the promise we made
I'll close my eyes and ascertain it
Shaking off the darkness that closed in on me, I advance on

When can I see again here
the future that I lost?

Again and again, I'll tear apart the shadow of distress that spilled out
and walk on in this world

The time that ticked away ceaselessly now announces the beginning
I'll pick up my unchanging feelings
and open the closed door

My heart awoke to draw the future where I'd start running
Even if I come to a standstill on a difficult road
The sky is always waiting for me in a beautiful blue
So I'm not scared
By now, no matter what happens, I won't get disheartened

When I look back, my friends are there
When I noticed it, they have me tenderly surrounded

In the world where just about everything is twisted
The single place here I can believe in saved me

When we share our joys and sorrows, my feelings strengthen
If my voice reaches you
Then I can certainly create a miracle, right?

I won't forget the promise we made
I'll close my eyes and ascertain it
Shaking off the darkness that closed in on me, I advance on
Because no matter how great of a wall there is
I'll show you I'll overcome it, so I'll certainly
believe in tomorrow and pray

Wandering in a destroyed world
I arrived there as if I was drawn towards it

My heart awoke to draw the future where I'd start running
Even if I come to a standstill on a difficult road
The sky is always waiting for me in a beautiful blue
So I'm not scared
By now, no matter what happens, I won't get disheartened

Forever waiting for tomorrow

Kanji

交わした約束忘れないよ
目を閉じた確かめる
押し寄せた闇　振り払って進むよ

いつになったらなくした未来を
私ここでまた見ることできるの？

溢れ出した不安の影を何度でも裂いて
この世界歩んでこう

とめどなく刻まれた時は今始まり告げ
変わらない思いをのせ
閉ざされた扉開けよう

目覚めた心は走りだした未来を描くため
難しい道で立ち止まっても
空はきれいな青さでいつも待っててくれる
だから怖くない
もう何があっても挫けない

振り返れば仲間がいて
気がつけば優しく包まれてた

何もかもが歪んだ世界で
唯一信じれるここが救いだった

喜びも悲しみもわけあえば強まる思い
この声が届くのなら
きっと奇跡はおこせるだろう

交わした約束忘れないよ
目を閉じ確かめる
押し寄せた闇　振り払って進むよ
どんなに大きな壁があっても
越えて見せるからきっと
明日信じて祈って

壊れた世界で彷徨って私は
引き寄せられるように辿り着いた

目覚めた心は走り出した未来を描くため
難しい道で立ち止まっても
空はきれいな青さでいつも待っててくれる
だから怖くない
もう何があっても挫けない

ずっと明日待った

English

When we were children, the average us looking up at heroes we couldn't be while finishing our part-time jobs.

Because You were always straight forward staring at tomorrow, you must have been laughing at my halfheartedness.

The elementary students who ran across the crossroad somehow reminded me of our past selves.

I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. On nights I can't sleep and even in my dreams. Always, yes always. My floating memory of you is fading. I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. Although we are separated, and you are far away I still remember the smiling you.

In the ever monotonous days, we exchange opinions by mail. Besides words of thanks, not much else seems to come.

While we were passing off as adults, we couldn't reach you anywhere. The only thing that comes into view is us trying too hard.

On a sharp curved street on the top of a hill we went at full speed. If you saw how I am now, I wonder what you would say.

I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. On nights I cant sleep, and even in my dreams. Always, yes Always. I remember that promise. I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. If I realize it, you'll be be by my side, on the day that won't return.

If the pouring rain stops, the new sky will shine. Anytime can change for sure, as long as you seriously wish for it everything will be alright.

I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. On nights I can't sleep and even in my dreams. Always, yes Always. So you can always stay smiling. I want to meet you, I want to meet you now. On nights I can't sleep and even in my dreams, your memory.

I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. Its fine if it's like the drawing instead of a dream. Always, yes Always. While I am holding onto these feelings. I want to meet you. I want to meet you now. On nights I can't sleep and even in my dreams, I won't forget you.

Kanji

平均的な僕たちは子供の頃に憧れた
ヒーローになれないままバイトに追われてるんだ

君はいつも真っすぐに明日を見つめていたから
中途半端な僕を笑うだろう

交差点走る小学生なんとなく
昔の僕たちを思い出す

君に会いたいいま会いたい
眠れない夜も夢の中も
ずっとねぇずっと浮かんで消えていくmemory
君に会いたいいま会いたい
遠く離れても思い出すよ笑顔の君

単調すぎる毎日の本音をメールで交わす
ありがとうって言葉さえなんだかぐっと来ないなぁ

大人のフリをしてたってどこにもたどり着かなくて
無理してる自分ばかり見えてくる

坂道急カーブ駆ける猛スピードで

今の僕を見たら君はなんて言うんだろう

君に会いたいいま会いたい
眠れない夜も夢の中で
ずっとそうずっと覚えているあの約束
君に会いたいいま会いたい
気がつけば僕の隣にいた戻れない日に

どしゃぶり雨が上がれば生まれたての空が光る
いつだって変われるよ絶対本気で願えば大丈夫さ

君に会いたいいま会いたい
眠れない夜も夢の中で
ずっとねぇずっと笑顔でいられますように
君に会いたいいま会いたい
眠れない夜も夢の中も君のmemory

君に会いたいいま会いたい
描いてたままの夢じゃなくても
ずっとそうずっとこの気持ち抱きしめたまま
君に会いたいいま会いたい
眠れない夜も夢の中も忘れないよ

2010-12-30T00:13:00.003+08:00

Today met up with Yunling, Angel, Jenisha, Chenwei and Jingze for dinner.
Just a once a while gathering to find out how each other was doing.
It was like pretty alright.
Jingze ordered quite a few food.
Not bad la.
Talked about a lot of things.
Would probably eaten more if I was feeling well.
Next time meet them would probably like in March or April.
Might be even May.
Everyone is just so busy.
I forget that even I am busy.
And is now 12:17am.
Yushi's birthday.
Happy Birthday to You!
God will bless you good results of O levels.
Now on my mind, are two songs.
Pages by There For Tomorrow and Just be Friends Sung by Luka Megurine.
But these two songs are not the type for the mood I am having now.
12:31am,
Just though of another.

Music

Title: Why dont you call yet?
Sung by: Kagamine Len

English lyrics:

Into the busy town
I ran in a new jacket and didn't come back to you
Because I didn't tell you where I was going
You must have been puzzled by now

"I really love you" I said
But I can tell you dont believe me from your face and it awfully hurts me.
I wanna see you.. Dont you wanna meet me anymore?
I've been waiting for your call.
Because I'm afraid of you say "...... What?"
I can't make a call to you

I tried to show you my apologies
"Sorry I'm late." like always.
"Um, I guess you are mad at me?"
I hope we can giggle like that again.

Hey, I wanna see you.. Dont you wanna meet me anymore?
I've been waiting for your call.
If you've got the wrong idea
Tell me what made you so

For example.
Because I can't simple
Without you? But please stay by my side..
I dont care even if you behave like a child
I like that part of you
I mean I love you "as you are"
So please, please, don't change yourself

I wanna see you.. Dont you wanna meet me anymore?
I've been waiting for your call.
Because I'm afraid of you say "...... What?"
I can't make a call to you

Kanji

にぎやかな街の中へ
慣れないジャケットで
駆けてそのまま消えた
行き場所も言わないから
君は今頃　戸惑っている

「本当にキミの事が好きだ」
なんて言っちゃって
信じてない君の顔が
切なくて　辛いんだ

会いたいよ…
…会えないの？
ずっと着信を待ち続けてる
「……何よ？」
とか言われそうで
こっちからは
連絡出来ないよぉ…

とりあえず　手を合わせて
「待たせてスマン」
と君が謝っている
「あれ？　やっぱ機嫌悪い？ｗｗ」
なんて二人で　笑えればいいね

ねぇ　会いたいよ…
…会えないの？
ずっと着信を待ち続けてる
もし誤解が生まれたなら
何がいけなかったんだろう

例えば―――――

君がいないと僕は　
うまく笑えないから　傍にいてよ…

子供っぽくていい
そんなトコが好き　
要は『今の君』が好き
だから　ねぇ
『そのまま』で

会いたいよぉ…
…会えないの？
ずっと着信を待ち続けてる
「…何よ？」
とか言われそうで
こっちからは
連絡出来ないよぉ…

2010-12-26T23:26:00.005+08:00

I'm back!!!
If you're wondering where did I go, I went back to Myanmar, Pathein, again.
I just realised, I didnt blog about it before I left for it.
Here's a rough idea of what it is.
My second mission trip.
First being last year.
Pathein, one orphanage where we helped the children.
Give them joy and happiness.
Let me start on last friday just after the blog on the chalet 1B01 had.
That friday was really busy.
Rush out in the morning to buy my slippers then went to AP and UCL house to help carry some clothes to bring to TP.
At TP, we started doing the bracelets, one for ourselves.
The ones we made, we were to wear them when we went myanmar to show the kids and hopefully spark ideas for them when it is time for them to make one.
After that, Gloria, Delia, Edmund, Gerald, AP and me went to practice some lines for the play.
I had such a bad time memorizing the lines.
Practice for a while, then went for dinner then started packing the beads into smaller packets for easier distribution.
After doing all of that, went home to pack for my trip the next day.
Slept late that night, preparing for devotion and worship for the mission trip.

18 Dec 2010 Day 1

Met at Changi Airport T2 at 1pm singapore time.
Had to do check in of luggage etc.
Pretty much same as last year.
After all that was done, went lunch then pray for group and rush to plane. =D
Was seated with Marcus.
By time reach Myanmar, Yangon, was already around 4.30-5.30pm myanmar time
Went to a different hotel from last year's.
This hotel seems more higher class.
Haha.
They have different suite also.
Edmund and I were given the deluxe suite so that the team could have devotion in our room for that night and next day.
Dinner was at the last year hotel cafe.
The guys pooled money together to buy some snacks for the next day bus ride to pathein.
Biscuits, potato chips, sweets, whatever we could think of and find there.
Went to the cybercafe there to call parents then went back to hotel.
First night devotion was led by Edmund.
After doing devotion, went sleep.

19 Dec 2010

Woke up like at 5.30am (Myanmar time)
Was like super blur and tired.
It was not like last year where I woke up at wrong time.
Woke up early coz breakfast starts at 6.30am.
Then we still have devotion at 7.30am.
As expected, when Edmund and I went down at 6.30, no one was downstairs.
Empty.
Tried all the breakfast food. LOL.
Porridge, egg, bread, fried rice, sausage, pancakes.
Soon rest came down while we went up prepare room.
After devotion, went to the same market as last year's to exchange more money.
Then went back to hotel to pack luggage and take bus ride at 10am.
Bus ride was quite long.
Around 2.5hours before we reach the rest stop.
The rest stop the area some how seems different.
More dogs???
After that board bus and travel for another 3hours to pathein.
Was like trying to sleep but cant sleep on bus.
One thing I got to say is that the roads are different from last year.
This year I didnt see them repairing the roads meaning it is repaired and there was less portholes.
It was 3.30pm(myanmar time) at pathein.
Drop the chinabags of clothes at the orphanage then went hotel put luggage at rooms.
Walked to the usual restaurant to eat chinese food.
They have finished renovation and now their second floor has aircon.
Realised that some roads changed from sandy to the cement type of roads.
So it is now less dusty.
After dinner, bought 5l water per pair to share and rest awhile then went orphanage at 6.30pm
As last year, when we reach, the children welcome us with a song.
Feliz Navidad.
Was a warm welcome.
Then Edmund and I led the balloon sculpturing.
8.30 it ended.
Walked back to restaurant to eat dinner.
Had devotion, I think led by Gloria I think.
End of day 2.

20 Dec 2010

Games Days!
Morning had devotion by Joan I think.
Started around 8.30? Cant remember.
After devotion, Cruez came and we went to the wet market to buy the pork and the apples for the children as their christmas dinner.
Their wet market is not like in Singapore.
They sell so many things from food to spices to clothes and accessories.
After buying the apples, we carried them to the orphanage.
Half way through, Cruez's father came and offered to bring them to the orphanage.
So in end we just walk there.
Reach there, Reverent offered us to rest in his house a while then we went to distribute the apples to the children.
Went for lunch at the usual place again. =D
After lunch, went to buy balls and paper.
At the same time, we went to check the photography shop whether it will be busy the next day.
In end it was.
Went back rest awhile then went to the orphanage.
Had a tour of their hostel again.
Saw a puppet we made with them the previous year.
Some of the balloons last year we made have also shrunk.
After the tour, Marcus, Joan and Gerald went to set up the games.
The rest of us just went to canteen to help distribute the apple to those older kids who just came back from school.
Just one close thing happen.
A light drop on to the floor and glass shatter.
Edmund, Chariasse and I were like cm away from it.
Lucky never drop on top of us earlier.
Around 6.30, I was assigned to Paul 1. (When I was back in Singapore, I checked. Last year I was leading Paul. Haha. Coincidence.)
My group played the maze first then the paper aeroplanes then the balance pingpong on spoon.
Then Gloria who was leading Paul 2, our groups merger back then had a final game with the other two groups, Peter and James.
After games, went back for photography.
Lend Joan my camera to take photos of the children to give them the next day.
After everything, went for dinner.
Yet again, AP and UCL took rickshaw there first.
Dinner something funny happened.
After dinner, devotion.
Devotion by Charisse I think.

21 Dec 2010.

Woke up same time.
8.30 had devotion in Joan and Charisse room again.
Separated into 2 groups.
Marcus, Gloria, Delia and me went to get the stationary for the children.
Edmund, Gerald, Joan and Charisse went to develop the photos.
Took a long time choosing the stationary.
Was on how to spend EXACT amount of money that we had.
Wanted buy them crayons, color pencils, mechanical pencil, eraser, sharper, eraser and pencil case for them.
But it was over our budget.
Thankfully, Marcus saw the mathematical set.
And is the one that is sold in Singapore.
Oxford Mathematical set. LOL.
And it was selling way cheaper here than in Singapore.
It is like a rip off in Singapore.
Got the sets, notebooks, color pencils, crayons, 6 big sharpers for them to share.
And it was like 18dollars over the budget.
The boss just weaver it off. =D
Brought it back to the hotel then off to lunch.
After lunch, went to buy the snacks for the children.
AP, Gerald and Gloria picked a lot of snacks for the children.
If you were there, it was at least 3 times more than what we had bought for the children last year.
Brought it back to hotel and started packing.
Rush work then after packing.
All 10 of us sat tri-shaws and brought the goodies to the orphanage.
Started the program again.
Did the beading with the children.
Making of their own bracelets.
Then was the sticking of the photos into their notebooks.
Then the whole team acted the skit we prepared for them.
The whole skit mainly the guys who had the lines was really on the spot just act and say lines.
We didnt had time to memorize our lines. xD
It still went well.
Next was the songs we "prepare".
Last thing, before we gave out the goody bags to the children.
We prayed for them Numbers 6: 24-26.
It is like the blessing song.
After everything, the principle said a few words followed by Presley.
Then they don us a bandanna each to wear.
Then it was time for goodbyes and photos.
One thing I know for sure.
I took a lot of photos this year.
As in I was in a lot as well.
Said goodbyes and last minute photos.
That night was really tired.
Dinner everyone was pretty much zone out.
Devotion was by Gloria.

22 Dec 2010

Devotion led by me.
Then breakfast nearby with titus.
Breakfast was the fried rice that I remember a lot for no particular reason.
Took bus back to pathein.
The return trip was more fun.
2.5hours until the rest stop, all of us were playing bridge.
Super crazy.
After the rest stop, all tired so went to sleep.
Super hard to lie on the bus.
Somehow I managed to sleep on/off then later let marcus sleep.
Reach the hotel then rest inside a while.
Later we went to buy some groceries and change money.
After doing those, went dinner at Satino.
Dinner was okok.
No more chinese food. LOL.
Then desert was at the tamada hotel (Last year we stayed the cafe)
After ordering deserts, they gave us each a shot of red wine which was on the house.
Spent some time there then went back for devotion.
Devotion by Gerald.

23 Dec 2010

Woke up then went downstairs for breakfast.
Breakfast was okokok.
Had devotion led by Edmund.
After devotion, went to the market to buy souvenirs.
Bought a lot of them.
Cards, shirts and magnet.
After all our shopping, went lunch at Satino again.
Then went hotel pack luggage and left for airport.
In plane, everyone was seated together except for Gloria who changed seats with Delia who would be alone if she hadnt.
So Gloria was in front alone.
Touch down at 9.20 (Singapore time)
After giving thanks, the team went starbucks to buy coffee. ^^
Then got luggage and went home.

End of mission trip.

Somehow this mission trip, even though I was not touched by the Lord as much as last year, I was able to learn about my depth in Christ and my faith in God.
Just somehow through the packing of the goody bags and we were running late, I just lost my trust in God.
I will learn to put more trust, faith in God.

Time taken:
1hr (Stopping here coz still sick need rest. Doing it like last year post)
1hours (Day 1 and Day 2 done)
2.5 hours (Day 3, 4,5 and 6 Done)
Total time taken: 3.5hours

2010-12-16T21:46:00.002+08:00

Crap, didnt blog for quite some time.
Been quite busy.
Studying for MST in those weeks as well as prepare for the mission trip to Myanmar.
Was like buying beads for the trip.
You know those beads that girls like to use for bracelets.
Doing something like that for the children there.
Spent like close to 200 dollars on those beads and the string.
Tomorrow going do some samples for them to see.
Not only that, gonna practice doing the skit that we'll be performing.
Back to MST,
it was like OMG.
So is a sure fail.
Java was GG, same as NETF.
Rest I not too scare.
After that MST,
was DISM 1B01 chalet.
Only got Edmund Teo, Eddie, Jeremy and Xudong didnt come.
The bbq was like an EPIC fail.
Fire didnt manage to start up properly.
So it was like not so hot.
And guess what I think it was like 10pm we were bbq-ing the chicken wings. LOL
Luckily thanks to Samuel's beehoon, we managed to survive.
First night was so so.
Some were playing risk, poker, taidi, and of coz mahjong.
Whats a chalet without mahjong?
LOL.
10pm+, was in the aircon room, talking with Kevin, Samuel, Ziying and Ngai fong in there.
Mostly about Samuel being a retarded, wanting to sleep in the closet. (He broke the closet door)
HAHAHAHAHA.
It was also a time to use my speakers to BLAST music.
In end, I think it was worth buying it.
Can use it with my laptop to play music, for chalets and the best thing of it is it's portability.
Though portable, it's speakers still delivers a punch.
Was like camping there for like for more than 2 hours.
Just lying around and talking.
One reason also is it was hot outside. xD
Around 1am, we wanted go watch movie.
So send JL and some other guys to check out.
Then they came back say close liao.
See it was like that, we open red wine and drink. =D
Drank one cup while watching Kenny, Ziying, Edmund Tang and Kinwee play mahjong.
The whole group of us there were drinking.
In end, the only few people that were drunk were Weikiat, Ziying and JunLiang.
At 3am, the guys wanted go play pool.
Only some of us remain behind.
Then after they came back, they told us funny stories of JunLiang drunk outside.
Nearly people want call police.
Haha.
4am went sleep abit.
For like 45mins then was awake through whole day.
Next day, 6am went mac with kevin and kinwee.
Too bored.
Drink coffee then went back.
Wait for rest to wake then went mac again for breakfast before going home to bath.
Went back again and play mahjong then went play pool and watched Narnia.
Second night was on/off sleep.

Damn lazy blog about the rest.
Haha.
Anyway nothing much liao.

I love Vocaloid MUSIC!!!

Music:

Artist: Vocaloid (Megurine Luka)
Title: Just be Friends

Romanji

Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends...

ukandanda kinou no asa hayaku ni
wareta GURASU kakiatsumeru you na
kore wa ittai nan darou kitta yubi kara shitataru shizuku
bokura wa konna koto shitakatta no kana

wakatteta yo kokoro no oku soko de wa
motto mo tsurai sentaku ga BESUTO
sore wo kobamu jiko ai to kekkajika touchaku no kurikaeshi
boku wa itsu ni nareba ieru no kana

yuruyaka ni kuchiteyuku kono sekai de
agaku boku no yuiitsu no katsuro
iroaseta kimi no hohoemi kizande
sen wo nuita

koe wo karashite sakenda
hankyou zankyou munashiku hibiku
hazusareta kusari no sono saki wa
nani hitotsu nokotte ya shinai kedo

futari wo kasaneteta guuzen
anten dansen hakanaku chiji ni
shosen konna mono sa tsubuyaita
kareta hoho ni tsutau dareka no namida

All we gotta do Just be friends
It's time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do Just be friends
Just be friends Just be friends...

kidzuitanda kinou no naida yoru ni
ochita kaben hiroiageta to shite
mata saki modoru koto ha nai
sou te no hira no ue no chiisana shi
bokura no jikan wa tomatta mama

omoidasu yo hajimete atta kisetsu wo
kimi no yasashiku hohoemu kao wo
ima wo kakko ni oshiyatte futari kizutsuku kagiri kizutsuita
bokura no kokoro wa toge darake da

omokurushiku tsudzuku kono kankei de
kanashii hodo kawaranai kokoro
aishiteru no ni hanare gatai no ni
boku ga iwanakya

kokoro ni doshaburi no ame ga
bouzen shouzen shikai mo kemuru
kakugo shiteta hazu no sono itami
sore demo tsuranukareru kono karada

futari wo tsunaideta kizuna
hokorobi hodoke nichijou ni kieteku
sayonara aishita hito koko made da
mou furimukanai de arukidasunda

ichido dake ichido dake
negai ga kanau no naraba
nando demo umarekawatte
ano hi no kimi ni ai ni iku yo

koe wo karashite sakenda
hankyou zankyou munashiku hibiku
hazusareta kusari no sono saki wa
nani hitotsu nokotte ya shinai kedo

futari wo tsunaideta kizuna
hokorobi hodoke nichijou ni kieteku
sayonara aishita hito koko made da
mou furimukanai de arukidasunda

kore de oshimai sa

(Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye)

Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends (Just be friends) It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends (Just be friends) All we gotta do
Just be friends (Just be frien~ds)It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends (~)All we gotta do
Just be friends (~)It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends

English

Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends...

I remembered early yesterday morning
Why do I feel
As if I'm gathering piece of broken glass? Blood drips from my cut fingers
I wonder if we wanted to do these kinds of things

I already knew deep inside my heart
That the most painful choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and as a result, self-contradiction repeats
I wonder when we can talk

In this slowly decaying world
A path for my struggling self
I carve in your colorless smile
I pulled off the plug

I shouted until my voice was dry
The echo reverberates in the empty air
Although there was nothing left
After the chains were removed

Fate that allowed us to meet
The darkness interrupts countless and relentless time
"So this is how it is..." I murmured
Somebody's tears flow down dried cheeks

All we gotta do Just be friends
It's time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do Just be friends
Just be friends Just be friends...

I realized at yesterday's quiet night
That even if I pick up the fallen flower leaves
It won't bloom back to its original form
The small death on top of my hands
Our time is frozen still

I remembered the season when we first met
And your sweetly smiling face
I push the present to the past and received the scars that we both got
Our hearts are full of thorns

Even in this frustratingly continuing relationship
I sadly can't change my heart
I was loving you, I didn't want to be apart from you
But I have to say it

The rain that pours on my heart
Dazed and terrified, even my vision is blurry
I anticipated the hurt
But my body can't move

Fate that connected us
Becomes undone and disappears into everyday life
Goodbye my loved one... This is the end
Now we look go on without looking back

Once more, once more
If my wish can come true
I want to be reborn many times
I'll go and meet you from that day

I shouted until my voice was dry
The echo reverberates in the empty air
Although there was nothing left
After the chains were removed

Fate that connected us
Becomes undone and disappears into everyday life
Goodbye my loved one... This is the end
Now we look go on without looking back

This is the end

(Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It's time to say goodbye)

Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends (Just be friends) It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends (Just be friends) All we gotta do
Just be friends (Just be frien~ds)It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends (~)All we gotta do
Just be friends (~)It's time to say goodbye
Just be friends

2010-11-27T02:58:00.000+08:00

Haha.
I Got to blog.
LOL.
Monday
Class was like super the slack.
Just do java assignment and for WCD, it was like learning abit of CSS.
After that, took quite a while to decide to watch Harry Potter 7
Since had Maverick, JunLiang, Edmund, Kevin and me, we decided that we would go AMK Hub to watch it.
Took bus to there.
During bus, me and kevin decided to guess the number of bus-stops needed to reach the bus-stop near AMK Hub.
Coz too bored liao then went do that -.-
I guess 8 then he guess some other number.
Then so tyco, I guess correct.
Then we 2 decided that i try to guess the movie timing.
I said 2.40pm
Then we went check first and tao buy tickets, the next timing was 2.45pm
LOL.
Damn close.
But we didnt went for that timing as it was already quite full, so went for the 3.30 Digital Movie.
Asked the staff what was the differences between the normal and digital experiences but they nv reply.
Anyway was worth it.
If the digital was more expensive, we paid the same price for it as the normal one.
Movie was ok ok la.
Next year most likely need to watch it again as a marathon with p2.
I also realised something.
Whenever we went to watch a movie, we would eat western food.
LOL.
Tuesday, class was also boring.
Was sleeping in NETF.
Then for ISE, we had a small test.
The test quite ok.
All days were boring OK!!!
Until yesterday.
Why?
Coz I had my mission trip meeting.
The thing I most looking forward to.
Yesterday meeting was fun.
Reach there like 5.30 after I left SP at 3.30.
Met UCL, Gloria and Gerald for dinner.
Again TP Western Food.
LOL.
Been eating a lot of western food -.-
After dinner, the rest came and we had out meeting in the same room as last year we used.
First, we learn some Myanmar language.
The same few students UCL and AP taught came and teach us.
Recognized some of them.
Last year they did teach us the language also but as we had some new people joining us in the trip there, we need to have a refresher course.
Group with Joan and Edmund.
Asked a few other questions to learn other words.
Seems like more than last year.
After that, was me and edmund teaching how do the balloon sculpturing.
Went quite smooth coz it was like most of us already knew how to do.
After the meeting, asked Joan whether her parents could let me take a lift to Bishan.
Lucky can.
Went off to Clarrisse house to drop off a bag of 20kg clothes.
Then went back to Bishan.
During the ride, didnt know that Joan's father is my father's friend.
Joke right?
He said he knew my father in region C and used to play football with him at yishun.
Looks like my parents know my cell group members parents long ago.
So is like a repeat if past?
LOL.
Even Joan's mother knew what my mother used to work as.
They drop me off then I walked back.
Slept early yesterday coz was like super tired.
Next week need chiong studies liao.
Then Friday got cell group,
Then Saturday got meeting again.
Time for music now.
Same piece as last week's but different vocaloid character.
Very cute and lovely PV.
Title: World is Mine

Going off bye.

2010-11-21T02:36:00.002+08:00

A lot of packing was done this week.
Tomorrow would be going stay at relative house for like 2 weeks.
So probably wont even blog for 3 weeks.
My class just became warcraft crazy after the TF2 madness.
Tuesday night was like playing dota and mini games with edmund tang, samuel, maverick, junliang, choony and kinwee.
Wednesday did some packing.
Wanted go watch HP and the Deadly Hallows.
In end we decided not to go.
We're going tomorrow after school.
Anyway, thursday was super slack.
Skip java to watch eddie play his competition.
But he damn suay.
Blue screen of death 2 times.
In end match postponed.LOL
Friday went school too play dota.
LOL.
Then after that went Tp for mission trip meeting.
A lot of stuff to settle.
Came home, downloaded Scandal music.
Then for Saturday, finished up the reminder then went to download Hatsune Miku music.
LOL.
Japanese music FTW!
Then for today, closed remaining boxes then download Tonight Alive Consider This EP.
Got a few songs I want to put.
Should I put 3 weeks of songs?
Haha.
Will be like some damn spam.
See ya in 3 weeks. (Maybe will blog in school?)

Music
Song: The World Is Mine
Artist: Hatsune Miku

Romanji

sekai de ichiban OHIME-SAMA
souyu atsukai KOKORO ete yone

sono ichi
itsumo to chigau kamigata ni kiga tsuku koto
sono ni
chanto kutsu made mirukoto, ii ne?
sono san
watashi no hito koto niwa mittsu no kotoba de henji suru koto

wakattara migite ga orusu nanowo nantoka site!
betsuni wagamama nante itte nain dakara
kimi ni KOKORO kara omotte hoshii no KAWAII tte

sekai de ichiban OHIME-SAMA
kiga tsuite ne e ne e
mataseru nante rongai yo

watashi wo dare dato omotteruno?
mou! nandaka amai mono ga tabetai!
ima suguni yo?

Oh, check one two...Ahhhhhh!

ketten? KAWAII no machigai desho
monku wa yurushi masen no
anone? watashi no hanashi chanto kiiteru? chottoo...

a, soreto ne? shiroi Ouma-san kimatteru desho?
mukae ni kite

wakattara kashizuite tewo totte "OHIME-SAMA" tte
betsu ni wagamama nante itte nain dakara
demo ne sukoshi kurai shikatte kuretatte iino yo?

sekai de watashi dakeno OUJI-SAMA
kiga tsuite hora hora
otete ga aite masu

mukuchi de buaiso na OUJI-SAMA
mou, doushite? kiga tsuite yo hayaku

Oh!

zettai kimi wa wakatte nai! wakatte nai wa....

ichigo no notta Shortcake
kodawari tamago no torokeru pudding
minna, minna gaman shimasu
wagamama na ko dato omowanai de
watashi datte yareba dekiru mon
atode koukai suru wayo

touzen desu! datte watashi wa

sekai de ichi-ban OHIME-SAMA
chanto mitete yone dokoka ni icchau yo?

fui ni dakishime rareta kyuuni sonna eh?
"HIKARERU abunai yo" sou itte soppo muku kimi

kocchi noga ABUNAI wayo

Oh, Hey Baby, Ahhhh!!!

English

The number one princess in the world
Know how to treat me that way, okay?

First thing, notice when I have a different hair style from usual
Second thing, be sure to go as far as looking down at my shoes properly, do I make myself clear?
Third thing, for every single world I say, reply with three words
If you understand that there is nothing in my right hand, then do something!

I'm not really saying anything selfish
I want you to think from your heart that I'm cute

The number one princess in the world
Realize that, hey, hey
Keeping me waiting is out of the question
Who do you think I am?
Somehow I would already like to eat something sweet!
Go get it immediately

My fault? Let's call it a cute mistake
Complaints are not permitted
Well? Are you clearly hearing what I am saying? Come on
Ah, and what about this? A white horse, isn't that needless to say?
Come and take me away
If you understand that, take my hand and say "Princess"

I'm not really saying anything selfish
But you know, it's alright to scold me a little?

My very own prince in the world
Realize that, look, look
Our hands are empty
Reticent and blunt prince
Come one, why! Just notice it soon

You definitely don't understand! Don't understand...

Shortcake with a strawberry placed on top
Pudding made with well-selected eggs
Everything, everything, I will hold myself back from it
Don't think that I'm a selfish girl
Even I will be able to do it if I try
You will regret this afterwards

It's natural! Even for me

The number one princess in the world
See me clearly okay, shall I go somewhere?
Suddenly I was held tightly, it was so abrupt, eh?
"It's dangerous, you'll be hit" So saying that you turn away
...I think this person is dangerous though

2010-11-16T04:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm,
last week ar?
Was like stay back do some work, play dota etc.
Last friday, played dota with samuel, maverick and danny.
samuel kenna owned.
Then had a meeting with the year 2.
It was about next year going back secondary school for cyber wellness talks as well as to learn some hacking =D
After that went for cell.
Then For saturday
BEST DAY OF THIS MONTH.
Anime Fest Asia X!!!!
I went for it.
Haha.
Bought my Yurippe shirt. =D
In case you were wondering, it is a character from Angel Beats!
But was like super expensive, $45 for it.
Also bought a vongola ring.
The AFAX was quite interesting.
Saw many cosplays.
I want cosplay also.
LOL.
Many collectibles I wanted to buy but was like super low on cash and first time going.
Wanted buy a Haruhi shirt, Kanade Shirt, AB trading cards and AB mug.
In future, I would maybe buy one bleach sword and not forgetting Luffy's strawhat.
Then if cosplay, most likely would be one AB character.
Too bad also didnt have money for the Scandal concert. D=
here are some pic.

Some Dolls
Some are from recent animes and most obviously, 2 are from k-on.
Yui and Mio.

Angel Beats! Figurines!!!!! I just want to get my hands on them.

Some anime figurine samuel asked me take.

Haruhi and Nagato

One piece mugiwara crew.

Some ningas from Naruto.

Angel Beats! Cosplay & Kakashi from Naruto.
(Kakashi, T.K, Otonashi, Hinata)

Got this stamp and bag when entered and exited the AFAX.

Angel Beats! Shirt (Yurippe)

Vongola Ring

Haha thats all for it.
Today, went watch Due Date with Aji, Samuel, Kevin, Maverick and JunLiang.
Quite funny la.

During last week,
this thought has been in my mind.
Y just finish 'O's meaning leaving the school soon.
Like this, the only piece connecting us would just collapse.
*Plays Clannad Depressing Music.
Sms her on friday ask her how's O level never reply.
Haiz, wait somemore for reply bah.

Music
Artist: Tonight Alive
Title: Five Years

Drowning in self pity,
Not exactly a pretty picture you paint.
Oh its such a shame.
I hardly ever see you smile anymore,
Infact I'm not even sure who you are

Girly I'll let you grow up
I'll come back in 5 years.
Maybe then you'll have something to say
That I actually want to hear.

You can't, You can't tell me you're sorry
When you're certainly not.
You cant, You can't tell me not to worry
Cause you're just too hot to handle now,
Because youre just too hot to handle now.

Girly I'll let you grow up
I'll come back in 5 years.
Maybe then you'll have something to say
That I actually want to hear.
Please dont make me throw up,
Cut your whining, cut your tears.
I can't hear through your ego,
So speak up baby come on let's go

One step, you've taken it too far,
Two step, two step with me now.
One step, you've taken it too far.

Drowning in self pity,
Not exactly a pretty picture you paint.
Oh its such a shame.

Girly I'll let you grow up
I'll come back in 5 years.
Maybe then you'll have something to say
That I actually want to hear.
Please dont make me throw up,
Cut your whining, cut your tears.
I can't hear through your ego,
So speak up baby come on let's go

2010-11-07T23:31:00.004+08:00

This week how to say ar?
Hmm, probably can say was less busy than last week thats for sure.
Monday and Tuesday was like normal?
Haha, cant remember.
Wednesday was all about STICKY!!!!
Was not paying attention in class for elsa that day.
Only DBMS I enjoy it.
Straight after class, went with maverick, junliang, edmund, kinwee, jeremy and kevin to clark quak to buy STICKY!
I have to admit, there is nothing great about sticky.
Just a super sweet, homemade sweet.
Took like 1hr to buy the sweet.
Then after that lunch at some bakuteh shop.
Eat until damn shuang.
Then walk around the area to funan then back to sp for that sexuality talk.
Si bei boring leh.
Thursday normal school day then went tp for mission trip meeting.
Rush there siah.
Got assign to be in charge of balloon making.
Weekend was all about packing to prepare for the renovation.
Only on sat, went to grandma house for my cousin first month and the 2nd youngest birthday, i think is 2 years old.
Was bored there.
Really nothing much to do.
Maybe tomorrow upload pictures of some things I found while cleaning. Haha

Music!!!

Artist: One OK
Title: Naihi Shinsho

okashita tsumi no kazu ga sabishisa monogatatten da yo
soshitara otona wa SORE mite subete wo waruku iun daro?
ienai miena mitaku mo naku nai? dakara toberu hazu nai
shou ga naiccha shou ga nai kedo hontou wa sou ja nai

wakatta you na FURI de chikadzuku kane no mouja
TSUME wo nobashita USO kakibito konna jidai dakara...

I just keep it inside keep it inside kuchi ni wa dasenakute
I got something to hide something to hide iu no ga kawakute
I just keep it inside keep it inside dare mo shiranakute ii
I got something to hide something to hide ore ni kamawanaide

kakushite kita kazu ga aka shingou wo arawa shiten da yo
USO wa dorobou no hajimari? hatamata kanashisa no hajimari?
wakaru? shiranai?! hanashi ni naranai! sore ja hanashitakuani
dou shou mo naiccha dou shou mo nai kedo hontou wa sou ja nai

wakatta you na FURI de chikadzuku yoku no mouja
ERI wo tateta tsumi bukaki hito konna jidai dakara...

I just keep it inside keep it inside kuchi ni wa dasenakute
I got something to hide something to hide iu no ga kawakute
I just keep it inside keep it inside dare mo shiranakute ii
I got something to hide something to hide ore ni kamawanaide

hontou wa kotoba de oogoe de iitakute
dareka shittete hoshikute hitori ja tsurakute...

I just keep it inside keep it inside kono yo no naka kara
I got something to hide something to hide obieru mainichi de
I just keep it inside keep it inside kakawaritaku mo nai
I got something to hide, but never put it aside kidzuite kono kimochi

犯した罪の数が寂しさを物語ってんだよ
そしたら大人はソレ見て全てを悪く言うんだろ?
言えない見えない見たくもなくない? だから飛べるはずない
しょうがないっちゃしょうがないけど本当はそうじゃない

分かったようなフリで近づく金の亡者
ツメを伸ばしたウソ書き人こんな時代だから…

I just keep it inside keep it inside 口には出せなくて
I got something to hide something to hide 言うのが恐くて
I just keep it inside keep it inside 誰も知らなくていい
I got something to hide something to hide 俺に構わないで

隠してきた数が赤信号をあらわしてんだよ
ウソは泥棒の始まり? はたまた悲しさの始まり?
分かる? 知らない?! 話にならない! それじゃ話したくない
どうしょうもないちゃどうしょうもないけど本当はそうじゃない

分かったようなフリで近づく欲の亡者
エリを立てた罪深き人こんな時代だから…

I just keep it inside keep it inside 口には出せなくて
I got something to hide something to hide 言うのが恐くて
I just keep it inside keep it inside 誰も知らなくていい
I got something to hide something to hide 俺に構わないで

本当は言葉で大声で言いたくて
誰か知っててほしくて一人じゃ辛くて…

I just keep it inside keep it inside この世の中だから
I got something to hide something to hide 怯える毎日で
I just keep it inside keep it inside かかわりたくもない
I got something to hide, but never put it aside
気づいてこの気持ち

The number of sins I've committed will tell you about the loneliness
And so would and adult see this and talk smack about it all?
Can't you say it,can't you see it, isn't it that you don't even want to see it?
But its not possible to escape it
It can't be helped,can't be helped,but that's just not the way it is

Acting as if they get it,those obsessed with money get close
The lie-writers with their claws extended,it's that kind of time, but...

I just keep it inside keep it inside,I can't let it out of my mouth, so
I got something to hide something to hide,saying it is frightening, so
I just keep it inside keep it inside ,it's okay if nobody knows, so
I got something to hide something to hide,don't worry about me

The number that I've been hiding until now will show the red traffic lights
Is the lie the thief's beginning?Or is it the start of sorrow?
Do you get it?You don't know?!There's nothing to talk about!
In that case,I don't want to talk
We shouldn't do it all,shouldn't do it at all, but that's just not the way it is

Acting as if they get it,those obsessed with desire get close
The deeply immoral person with the turned-up collar,it's that kind of time, but...

I just keep it inside keep it inside,I can't let it out of my mouth, so
I got something to hide something to hide,saying it is frightening, so
I just keep it inside keep it inside,it's okay if nobody knows, so
I got something to hide something to hide,don't worry about me

Actually, I want to speak these words in a loud voice, so
I wish somebody knew,so it's painful by myself

I just keep it inside keep it inside,because inside this world
I got something to hide something to hide,I'm scared every day
I just keep it inside keep it inside,I don't even want to be involved
I got something to hide,but never put it aside,be aware of this feeling.

2010-11-01T03:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm, last week was damn busy.
Most of the time, was in SP til like 5/6.
2 days was due lessons.
One was project.
The other 2 was some event that I helping out.
One was the DMIT fiesta.
Managed to get backtrack from lecturer =D
In case you were wondering what is that, it is a hacking software.
Haha.
Even if have, too bad siah.
Only next year then learn how to use it.
Maybe by then, will have new version of it liao.
Quite fun la.
Got my grouping for some projects.
Like for java, is with junxiang and edmund tang.
The html project with kinwee.
ISE project with kevin, samuel and kinwee.
Like all damn rush.
But seriously, screw those projects.
2 of which are due next year FEB!
One end of this month.
Not to mention, one boring lecture, network fundamentals.
Really can fall asleep in that lecture.
Then for elsa, learning what I learn last sem -.-
Lazy blog those events into detail.
Anyway year 2 say they want to meet us year 1 to impart their knowledge of what they know into us and train us for some back-to-secondary-school cyberwareness talk.
Before going off..
Now for music.
Really behind a lot of music. Haha.
This is what I downloaded just like 2 days ago.
From K-on!! limited edition album.

Title: 天使にふれたよ！ (Tenshi ni Furetayo!)
If I am not wrong the English title is 'I touched an Angel'

Romaji

Nee Omoide no kakera ni
Namae wo tsukete hozon suru nara
“Takaramono” ga pittari da ne

Sou Kokoro no youryou ga
Ippai ni naru kurai ni
Sugoshita ne Tokimeki iro no mainichi

Najinda seifuku to uwabaki
HOWAITOBOODO no rakugaki
Ashita no iriguchi ni
Oitekanakucha ikenai no kana

Demo ne, Aeta yo! Suteki na tenshi ni
Sotsugyou wa owari ja nai
Kore kara mo nakama dakara
Issho no shashintachi
Osoro no KII HORUDAA
Itsumade mo kagayaiteru
Zutto Sono egao Arigatou

Nee Sakura no ki mo chotto
Setake ga nobita mitai
Mienai yukkuri na SUPIIDO demo

Kitto Ano sora wa miteta ne
Nando mo tsumazuita koto
Sore demo Saigo made aruketa koto

Fuwari houkago no rouka ni
Koboreta onpu no hane
Fukafuka tsumoru made
Kono mama de iretara ii no ni na

Demo ne, fureta yo! Aisubeki tenshi ni
Tadaima tte iitaku naru
Kono basho wa kawaranai yo
MEERU no jushinbako
Maru shita KARENDAA
Tobikiri no yume to deai kureta
Ongaku ni arigatou

Eki no HOOMU Kawara no michi
Hanaretete mo Onaji sora miagete
YUNISON de utaou!

Demo ne, Aeta yo! Suteki na tenshi ni
Sotsugyou wa owari ja nai
Kore kara mo nakama dakara
Daisuki tte iu nara
Dai daisuki tte kaesu yo
Wasuremono mou nai yo ne
Zutto Eien ni issho da yo

English Translation

Hey, if we name and preserve
Fragments of our memories,
Our “treasure” will be perfect.

Yes, we spent every heartbeat-colored day
As if our hearts
were filling to capacity.

We got used to the uniforms and the indoor shoes,
And the scribbles on the whiteboard.
We wonder if have to be prepared
When we enter tomorrow.

But you know, we were able to meet a wonderful angel!
Graduation is not the end
Because we’ll be friends even after.
Photos of us together,
Our matching key chains,
They’ll shine forever.
Thank you for always smiling.

Hey, even the cherry blossom trees
Look like they’ve gotten a little taller
But at such a slow speed we can’t perceive.

We’re sure you were looking at that sky.
There were many things we failed
But even so we were able to walk until the end.

In the corridors after school,
The feathers of music gently overflowed
Until they pile up softly and lightly.
If only we’d be able to stay like this.

But you know, we touched a lovable angel.
We want to say “We’re back.”
This place won’t change.
The texts in the inbox,
The things circled on the calender,
You gave us extraordinary dreams and encounters.
Thank you for the music.

The station platform, the road along the river bed,
Even if we are separated, look at the same sky
And let’s sing in unison!

But you know, we were able to meet a wonderful angel!
Graduation is not the end
Because we’ll be friends even after.
If you say “I really love you”
We’ll say in return “We really, really love you!”
We won’t leave you behind.
We’ll always be together for eternity.

Kanji

ねぇ　思い出のカケラに
名前をつけて保存するなら
“宝物”　がぴったりだね

そう　ココロの容量が
いっぱいになるくらいに
過ごしたね　ときめき色の毎日

なじんだ制服と上履き
ホワイトボードの落書き
明日の入り口に
置いてかなくちゃいけないのかな

でもね、会えたよ！　すてきな天使に
卒業は終わりじゃない
これからも仲間だから
一緒の写真たち
おそろのキーホルダー
いつまでも輝いてる
ずっと　その笑顔　ありがとう

ねぇ　桜の木もちょっと
背丈が伸びたみたい
見えないゆっくりなスピードでも

きっと　あの空は見てたね
何度もつまずいたこと
それでも　最後まで歩けたこと

ふわり放課後の廊下に
こぼれた音符の羽根
ふかふか積もるまで
このままでいれたらいいのにな

でもね、ふれたよ！　愛すべき天使に
ただいまって言いたくなる
この場所は変わらないよ
メールの受信箱
〇（まる）したカレンダー
とびきりの夢と出会いくれた
音楽にありがとう

駅のホーム　河原の道
離れてても　同じ空見上げて
ユニソンで歌おう！

でもね、会えたよ！　すてきな天使に
卒業は終わりじゃない
これからも仲間だから
大好きって言うなら
大大好きって返すよ
忘れ物もうないよね
ずっと　永遠に一緒だよ

2010-10-25T02:15:00.006+08:00

First week of semester 2 was not so bad.
Maybe bad in the sense that we were piled up with plenty of projects.
Week 1, given 3 projects.
One of them is like 80% of our module and is to be done from now til next year February.
So far like only done that project for this week.
All classes start either 8am or 8.30am.
Not sure why but it felt more sleepy than usual.
Maybe coz it was during holidays I always sleep either 4 or 5am. -.-
I love learning HTML programming.
Pretty easy.
Within one week, already going start on practical 3 which is supposed to be done in week 3.
I still have java which is now in revision.
Other than that, networking fundamentals is quite ok but learning from the lecturer, felt like sleeping.
I also learnt that aji is a masochist. LOL.
Tomorrow sec 4s having O level, good luck to those taking it. especially her.
Ok time for music.
Downloaded 2 new albums.
One is from There For Tomorrow, their new EP, Re:Creations.
Another from David Archuleta, The Other Side of Dawn.
I liked There For Tomorrow, new song, Small World.
So increasing the number of songs needed to post, still another 3-4 more = to another 3-4 more blog post. LOL.
Tomorrow school, time to sleep.

Artist: There For Tomorrow
Title: Small World

Lyrics:
Do you miss it
Like you said you would
The mutual understanding
Did I meet any of those demands you made so out of this world
Should I listen
When the winds blows
Cause it's blowing in a new direction
I can't help but feel like I'm affected
Get me out of this small world

So let me go (Let me go)
Somewhere where no one's ever been before
Light a fire (A burning fire)
Let it get out of control
Let me go
Somewhere where everybody breaks the mold
Paint a picture
That's bigger than your small (Your small), small sad world
Your small sad world

Do you feel it
Like I thought you would
I found you right where I left this
Never imagined your sideways preference would get out of this world
Do you see me through the looking glass
Smiling at my reflection
Came up short with your thin affection
Get me out of your small, sad world

So let me go (Let me go)
Somewhere where no one's ever been before
Light a fire (A burning fire)
Let it get out of control
Let me go
Somewhere where everybody breaks the mold
Paint a picture
That's bigger than your small (Your small), small, sad world
Your small sad world
Yeah

Minutes (Minutes)
Minutes (Minutes)
Have been changing my mind
Seconds (Seconds)
Seconds (Seconds)
I could do wthout your precious time

Should I listen when the wind blows?
Cause it's blowing in a new direction
Yeah it's blowing in a new direction
And I'm going...
Yeah

So let me go (Let me go)
Somewhere where no one's ever been before
Light a fire (A burning fire)
And let it get out of control
Out of control
Out of control

Somewhere where everybody breaks the mold
Light a fire
In your small, (Your small), small, sad world

So long
Goodbye

2010-10-17T04:06:00.000+08:00

Not sure what to blog about.
Hmm..
This week finished Shakugan no Shana.
Story quite interesting.
Still got another season have not watch.
Then for Letter Bee, is like I drop the series.
Only watched 6 episodes.
This week also started to play dota again.
Never play for a long time and now, 30mins creep kill sometimes never reach 1xx.
LOL.
Damn lousy.
Anyway yesterday, went for cell.
Can say I learn a new insight or maybe not.
Maybe is because of what nicholas said.
It was something along these lines.
"When you pray to God for something you want, sometimes God will give to you. But once you are bored with it etc, God will remove it away from you."
Was pondering about this for quite a while.
~Flashback in mind.
Ok, enough with that.
Yeah, this week chose my gem.
Mathematical games and puzzles.
Seriously not sure what else to take.
Hopefully will be fun and get to know others from other courses.
Just realised this new sem, all my class start from between 8-8.30.
Everyday wake up early.
Ok, time for music.
Was deciding between 3 songs to post.
Somehow just chose this.
Enjoy.

Artist: Scandal
Song: Namida No Regret

English:

The tears of regret spilled after I smiled
As the colors of summer shined brightly from the city
Instead of saying goodbye, we exchange small nods
And we start to move on

As I was waiting for the bus
Twilight seemed to approach slowly
I wondered, we didn't look bad as a couple, did we?

In the window glass
I saw the broken reflection of the two of us
We were trying to grow up

Like a bad boy giving up
You joke about breaking up
With that that subtle face
I still know what you were thinking
Even with my eyes closed

My tears weren't about the heartbreak
Up until now, I still loved you
When we began to say goodbye
I couldn't promise you that we could move on

"I'll call you," you said
But I could tell you weren't telling the truth
From the way your hand was shaking
We were nothing more than just childhood friends

I still hate hearing that
I should have endure the life in the city

The tears of regret spilled after I smiled
As the colors of summer shined brightly from the city
Instead of saying goodbye, we exchange small nods
And we start to move on

I only feel that I begin to hate myself trying to be strong
Every time I look back at my loss
I would hear your voice

I don't know if I can bear it
But I can't help to keep moving on
We'll see

I hold my tears
I keep hearing words
Saying that one day it'll be hard for me
Is this really goodbye?
It's a promise that we can't take back

The colors of summer disappear

Romanji:

Namida no riguretto
Egao kara koboreta
Natsuiro no machi
Kagayaku kara
Sayonara no kawarini
Chiisaku unazuite
Bokutachi wa aruki hajimeru

Basu wo matsu tonari de
Yuugure sotto nami de mita
Warukunai ne koibito ni mieru kana

Mado garasu ni utsutta
Futatsu no kage chigireru youni
Bokutachi wa otona ni natte yuku

Akirame no warui shounen datte
Itazura ni hanasu yokogao ni
Me wo tojita kedo wakatteru tsumori

Namida wa kanashimi no
Soba ni aru dake janai
Ima konna ni mo itoshiku naru
Hajimari no sayonara
Ienakatta yakusoku
Bokutachi wa aruki hajimeru

"Denwa suru" tte itteta
Usotsuki ga te wo furutte iru
Osananajimi mitaina mono darotte

Sonna ni bui mama de
Tokai de kurashite yukeru no
Koraeteru hazunanoni

Namida no riguretto
Egao kara koboreta
Natsuiro no machi
Kagayaku kara
Sayonara no kawarini
Chiisaku unazuite
Bokutachi wa aruki hajimeru

Hontou wa tsuyogari no jibun ga
Kirai ni naru souna hibi yo
Yukkurito furikaeru
Kimi no koe ga kikoeta

Kanau ka wakaranai
Demo yuku shikanai daro
Sonna koto shitte iru kara

Namida ni kakureteru
Kotoba tachi ga kikoeru
Itsuka kanarazu kurushiku naru
Hontou ni sayonara?
Modorenai yakusoku wo
Bokutachi wa kakaete yukunoni

Natsuiro no mama kieta

Kanji:

涙のリグレット
笑顔からこぼれた
夏色の街
輝くから
サヨナラのかわりに
小さくうなずいて
僕たちは歩きはじめる

バスを待つとなりで
夕暮れそっと並でみた
悪くないね恋人に見えるかな

窓ガラスに映った
二つの影ちぎれるように
僕たちは大人になってゆく

あきらめの悪い少年だって
イタズラに話す横顔に
目を閉じたけどわかってるつもり

涙の悲しみの
側にあるだけじゃない
今こんなにも愛しくなる
はじまりのサヨナラ
言えなかった約束
僕たちは歩きはじめる

「電話する」って言ってた
嘘つきが手を振っている
幼なじみみたいなものだろって

そんなに鈍いままで
都会で暮らしてゆけるの
こらえてるはずなのに

涙のリグレット
笑顔からこぼれた
夏色の街
輝くから
サヨナラのかわりに
小さくうなずいて
僕たちは歩きはじめる

本当はつよがりの自分が
嫌いになりそうな日々よ
ゆっくりと振り返る
君の声が聴こえた

叶うかわからない
でも行くしかないだろ
そんなこと知っているから

涙にかくれてる
言葉たちが聴こえる
いつか必ず苦しくなる
本当にサヨナラ？
戻れない約束を
僕たちは抱えてゆくのに

夏色のまま消えた

2010-10-08T05:47:00.001+08:00

Yeah, said wanted to put some photos but then lazy liao. =D
Last week was practically slowly watching Kimi ni Todoke.
English translation would be 'From Me to You'.
Just reading the title, you can tell it is a shoujo manga.
It been on my 'To-watch' list for quite some time.
Practically didnt want to watch it due to seeing the animation, thinking it was like from 2004.
In end, it was just the style of the anime ._.
Enjoyed the anime quite a lot.
Hmm, comparing to other animes that I have watched, this was really slow paced.
But it was good in its own way.
Just today, I learn that there would be a second season next January.
Then last Friday, went to cell.
Got to meet my new cell leader who would be taking over from Zhong Kai.
Cell was at Amanda Ng house.
4 levels. It is more of a house build up then spread out on 1 or 2 levels.
Then the weekend was new animes!
Fall anime finally reached.
Got some like Arakawa Under the Bridge x Bridge, To-Love Ru which I have been waiting.
All new seasons.
Oh yeah, my gpa was 3.1
Surprised that it was above 3.0.
The semester test was like super hard.
But now new semester, need work double to reach average of 3.5
What was disappointing was ONOW and TCS.
Was expecting a B+ and A respectively.
In end got C+ and B.
Haiz.
ONOW not sure is it because change lecturer half way.
So marking could be hard.
Yesterday, went to AP and UC place for dinner.
I think it is the 2nd time I tried AP cooking.
Dinner was quite nice.
There were Bio, Edmund, Tina and me who went to AP and UC place.
Had worship, and a bit of sharing then praying.
Followed by eating some mooncakes.
Yeah, have you tried jackfruit mooncake.
It was like meh meh.
Left their place at 10.30.
Thanks to UC, managed to get a new and faster route home.
Saved like half hour.
Today, managed to find Bloody Monday Live Drama.
Watching it whole day.
Was actually finding Kimi ni Todoke Live Drama but too bad it was out just recently.
So there wasnt any raw or subs.
Ok, going off.
Maybe going to cell tomorrow.
Combine group of SP and NP.

2010-09-27T04:02:00.004+08:00

If you ask me, what was I doing last week, I would honestly wont even be able to recall.
Most likely it was watching anime in afternoon then playing some terrania, bvo, dota at night until 4am.
Yeah, one whole cycle everyday.
Of course got do other things but then somehow I dont remember.
Anyway, this week, a few animes has ended.
Some major titles like khr, hotd, maid-sama ended.
Hopefully Autumn 2010 animes would be not so bad.
Next up, was Saturday.
Had to go to church for mission trip meeting. (No idea of what is this? Click here.)
If you are curious, I'm going back to the same place.
Pathein, Myanmar.
Really really looking forward to this trip.
Even though things like a 5hours bus ride from the Yangon to Pathein would be the same as last year, that's not going to stop me.
This year there is only 9 of us going there instead of the 12 of us who went last year.
Only a few people who went there last year are the same.
Last year, thankfully there is Bio with us for the arts and craft but I am wondering how we going to do it this year.
Air-tickets are being booked.
Next would be visa.
Then most likely quite a few meetings that would be held in tp.
After the meeting, had lunch like at 3.30.
Then Edmund, Marcus, Gerald and me went to Starbucks at rivervalley.
Gerald help us order since he works at Starbucks so he knows quite a few combination.
A bill of $32 drop to $22 thanks to his employee card. 30% discount. >.>
They 3 went back for service while I went J8, look for a new CD.
Bought one and when I reached home, it turns out that it was released in 2007.
But it was alright. Nice too. =D
Yesterday, went ps at 12.30 to meet Angeline, Jenisha and Yunling to go Minds Cafe.
Chenwei didnt want come as the previous night he was at the F1 concert while Navan was busy studying for promos.
Walked around ps to look for something to eat.
In end, couldnt decide and just decided try luck at Clarke Quay there as well as to find the Minds Cafe there.
Werent planning to go to the outlet there as only Jenisha went there before but couldnt remember the place.
Took quite some time to decide what to eat.
1 phrase to describe: Spoil for choice. Haha.
In end we 4 went to a "Japanese" pasta restaurant and ordered 2 Set meals and shared.
2.30, reached the Minds Cafe we were looking for.
Started playing a few games.
Hmm, let me test my memory.
There was ugly monster (name sth like that), pandemonium, true colors, telepathy game, jenga, a game that involved memorizing actions/words and guesstures.
Ugly monster, jenisha was like bang bang bang on the table.
Suppose if see 3 cards of same picture then must quickly take, winner is with most cards.
True colors was a fun game.
It is like what the game name is, see whether you know yourself and how does your friends know you well.
A main card would show the question and you got 2 votes to vote who the most suitable people/person of the question.
Telepathy game was hard.
Played like 3 turns then ok, goodbye.
The game involving memorizing actions/words was fun.
Keep adding on one action/word to the pattern.
Our pattern was 'hand moving like fish' , "call me", "hey kitty kitty", 'salute', gidiyup with hand action, "good morning", bowling - action, sth with nose or mouth - action, "no way", "no way", peel banana, "have fun", do evil laugh - action and "rabbit".
Recalling this pattern took me 2mins. LOL.
Last game was guesstures.
Last time I played it was back in 2005.
That's 5 years.
It was super funny with the actions we all acted out.
We were definitely one of the noisiest there.
Left the place at 6pm.
Jenisha left us, so the 3 of us went Farrer park to eat.
Same thing happened.
In end, eat at kfc.
Was talking about certain things like poly life, a few friends etc.
Went home after that and watched F1 and surf net.
Will update again either when Angeline send pics or uploads them.

(Reserved space)

Now for the music.
I would love to put K-on!! Tenshi ni Fureta yo! here but the full version is not out.
Anyway found another song.
Naihi Shinsho - ONE OK ROCK
(Lazy find video and paste lyrics.)

Uploaded 2 weeks ago on youtube. My AB! AMV.

2010-09-21T02:12:00.002+08:00

Ohayo mina.
Nah, just bored.
Last wedneday, I played a game for years never play.
A new part that came out.
Halo: Reach.
It was like super fun.
Went to Jun Liang house to play with him and edmund tang.
Play from like 12pm to 6pm.
Then they 2 still continue till completed the whole story.
Story mode, Legendary.
Super pain the damage they deal.
Graphics and animation was impressive.
Story was so-so.
The new game play was like no bad.
Flying spacecraft and defend.
Read a few mangas and watched a few animes.
One thing I was quite surprised.
On the weekend, I was playing LittleBusters VN.
Little Busters is another work by Jun Maeda who did the recently released anime, Angel Beats!
How can I not miss this?
Though it is not an anime, I play it for the story.
Not to mention it being one of KEY's tear-jerking stories.
Even though the one I have is like not fully translated, I fully enjoyed it.
I dont really understand most of it as most routes were not translated.
But according to players who played LB: Estacy!
It is about a group of teenagers who form this group Little Busters.
It is within an artificial world where 2 of the surviving members are in.
Why are they in?
In the real world, the group had an accident resulting the death of all the members and remaining 2 surviving members.
In order for the 2 members not to face a sudden realization of what happened, Kyouske had them in this artificial world, so that the 2 surviving members, rin and riki would be able to grow strong and face the truth.
That's like the main story.
Just reading about this information I got from my sources, did make me imagine that if this was made into an anime, 25/26 episodes would be enough and surely would be tear-jerking.
Anyway I'm not going to post what's would happen in the story.
Other than that, the next chapter of Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu finally got released today.
Read the chapter and I was like, "It cant be. Maya couldnt have possibly died like this. Like that what's going to happen to Takuma?"
Then it was "time to find japanese/chinese raws of next chapter."
Thankfully it didnt happened but the way they show that chapter was like she really died.
K-on!! on episode 24 had a nice song called, Tenshi ni Fureta yo. English translated: Touched by an angel.
When everything's confirmed, I will maybe put it on the next post next time.
Now here's for this post's song.
U & I from K-on!!

Romaji

Kimi ga inai to nani mo dekinai yo
Kimi no gohan ga tabetai yo
Moshi kimi ga kaette kitara
Tobikkiri no egao de dakitsuku yo

Kimi ga inai to ayamarenai yo
Kimi no koe ga kikitai yo
Kimi no egao ga mirereba sore dake de ii n da yo

Kimi ga soba ni iru dake de itsumo yuuki moratteta
Itsumade demo issho ni itai
Kono kimochi wo tsutaetai yo

Hare no hi ni mo ame no hi mo
Kimi wa soba ni ite kureta
Me wo tojireba kimi no egao kagayaiteru

Kimi ga inai to nani mo wakaranai yo
Satou to shouyu wa doko dakke?
Moshi kimi ga kaette kitara
Bikkuri saseyou to omotta no ni na

Kimi ni tsuitsui amaechau yo
Kimi ga yasashisugiru kara
Kimi ni moratte bakari de nani mo ageraretenai yo

Kimi ga soba ni iru koto wo atarimae ni omotteta
Konna hibi ga zutto zutto
Tsudzuku n da to omotteta yo

Gomen ima wa kidzuita yo
Atarimae ja nai koto ni

Mazu wa kimi ni tsutaenakucha
“Arigatou” wo

Kimi no mune ni todoku kana? Ima wa jishin nai keredo
Warawanaide dou ka kiite
Omoi wo uta ni kometa kara

Arittake no “arigatou”
Uta ni nosete todoketai
Kono kimochi wa zutto zutto wasurenai yo

Omoi yo Todoke

English Translation

When you’re not around I can’t do anything.
I want to eat your food.
When you come back,
I’ll cling to you with a super smile.

When you’re not around I can’t apologize.
I want to hear your voice.
Being able to see your smile is all I need.

You always gave me courage just by being by my side.
I want to be together forever.
I want to tell you these feelings.

Whether rain or shine,
You stayed by my side.
If I close my eyes I see your radiant smile.

When you’re not around I don’t understand anything.
Where’s the sugar and soy sauce?
When you come back,
I thought I’d surprise you and yet…

Unconsciously I act spoiled towards you,
Since you’re too kind.
I receive so much from you without being able to give back.

Obviously I thought about how you stayed by my side.
I thought that such days,
Would continue forever and ever.

I’m sorry; I’ve only just realized it now.
It’s something that’s not so obvious.

First I’ll start by telling you,
“Thanks.”

I wonder has it reached your heart? I don’t have any confidence right now but,
Don’t laugh and just listen,
Because I put my thoughts into a song.

I want to place all my “Thanks”
Into a song and send it to you.
I will never ever forget these feelings.

My thoughts, reach!

Kanji

キミがいないと何もできないよ
キミのごはんが食べたいよ
もしキミが帰って来たら
とびっきりの笑顔で抱きつくよ

キミがいないと謝れないよ
キミの声が聞きたいよ
キミの笑顔が見れればそれだけでいいんだよ

キミがそばにいるだけでいつも勇気もらってた
いつまででも一緒にいたい
この気持ちを伝えたいよ

晴れの日にも雨の日も
キミはそばにいてくれた
目を閉じればキミの笑顔輝いてる

キミがいないとなにもわからないよ
砂糖としょうゆはどこだっけ？
もしキミが帰って来たら
びっくりさせようと思ったのにな

キミについつい甘えちゃうよ
キミが優しすぎるから
キミにもらってばかりでなにもあげられてないよ

キミがそばにいることを当たり前に思ってた
こんな日々がずっとずっと
続くんだと思ってたよ

ゴメン今は気づいたよ
当たり前じゃないことに

まずはキミに伝えなくちゃ
「ありがとう」を

キミの胸に届くかな？今は自信ないけれど
笑わないでどうか聴いて
思いを歌に込めたから

ありったけの「ありがとう」
歌に乗せて届けたい
この気持ちはずっとずっと忘れないよ

思いよ　届け

2010-09-11T04:43:00.000+08:00

Ok.
Exams has ended since wednesday evening.
Wanted to blog but then was chiong-ing anime.
Those that been aired before.
Anyway like I said the last time, I might be doing a AMV for Angel Beats!
Yes, I done it before my exams but was waiting for the Angel Beats! group to reach 14k fans.
But now is already like 14.7k fans. Better late than never so here it is.

First-ever AMV.
Hope you will enjoy it. =D
Did this in a rush during my break of revision so might not look that nice.

Anime: Angel Beats!
Song: Better Life
Artist: Conditions
Program: Windows Live Movie Maker

Now for the other things.
Exams was like really f-up.
Do so many past year papers but still damn shit.
Was able to spot questions that will come out but then, when it comes to doing it was like wth.
The difficulty like rose by like 50%.
Anyway who cares about that right now.
It is back to holidays.
Completed another 2 animes in less than 2 days. LOL
Actually was taking my time watch them.
One is baka to test to shoukanjuu, another was To Aru Kagaku no Railgun.
Baka to test to shoukanjuu was quite a comedy.
Quite funny to watch.
To Aru Kagaku no Railgun is a short story of another manga, only main characters are different and storyline different.
What I like was the ending song, mainly the lyrics. LOL
It is by Elisa, Dear my friends. (Video below)
Time to start another anime.

English

Dear My Friend
Every day & night, Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night, Always be with you

Even when we talk it’s not enough for me
The setting sun colors the city
Nothing ever seems to go as planned…
Before I knew it, we were both crying

Love, dreams, flowers, rainbows, the wind, let’s grab them all

It’s okay!
I’m right here so cheer up
Don’t regret today’s mistakes, we can overcome them all
It’s okay!
Don’t stray, let’s head to the unknown future and keep on walking

Dear My Friend
Every day & night, Always be with me
Dear My Friend
Every day & night, Always be with me

Even I have a lot to worry about
But no matter how hard I think the answers won’t come…
When I look up the first star in the sky is shining
It’s beautiful, a smile suddenly spills out

Love, pain, the past, the present, tomorrow, let’s accept them all

It’s okay!
I can be strong because I’m not alone
Don’t give up, take one step forward without hesitating
It’s okay!
Don’t rush, with each wish that comes true, we’ll surely be happy

I wonder what it’ll be like 5 or 10 years from now…?
I hope that even if we’re far apart, we’ll both be HAPPY!!

It’s okay!
Have faith, the future is waiting for us
Now it’s shining brighter than yesterday
It’s okay!
Don’t stray, let’s head to the unknown future and keep on walking
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night Always be with you

Romanji

Dear my friend
Every day & night always be with you
Dear my friend
Every day & night always be with you

Hanashite mo mada mada tarinai mama
Yuuyake ga machi o somete yuku
Omou you ni nakanaka ikanai tte
Kizuitara issho ni naite ita

Koi mo, yume mo, hana mo, niji mo, kaze mo, zenbu tsukamou yo

Daijoubu!
Genkidashite watashi ga
soba ni iru kara
Kyou no MISU kuyamu yori ima norikoete
Daijoubu!
Mayowanaide mada minu mirai e to mukatte
Zutto aruite yukou

Dear my friend
Every day & night always be with me
Dear my friend
Every day & night always be with me

Watashi datte iroiro nayamu kedo
Kangaete mo kotae wa denai mama
Miagereba kirakira ichiban boshi
"Kirei da ne?" futo egao koboreta

Ai mo, kizu mo, kako mo, ima mo, asu mo, subete uketomeyou

Daijoubu!
Yuuki dasu yo watashi wa hitori ja nai kara
Akiramezu tamerawazu ippou fumidashite
Daijoubu!
Aseranaide negai o hitotsu zutsu kanaete
Kitto shiawase ni narou

Gonen go juunen go wa dou natteru kana?
Tooku ni hanarete'te mo Sorezore ga happy de arimasu you ni!

Daijoubu!
Shinjite ite mirai wa matte iru kara
Kinou yori sukoshi dake ima kagayaku yo
Daijoubu!
Mayowanaide mada minu mirai e to
mukatte
Zutto aruite yukou
Dear my friend
Every day & night always be with you
Dear my friend
Every day & night always be with you

Kanji

Dear My Friend
Every day & night　Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night　Always be with you

話しても　まだまだ　足りないまま
夕焼けが　街を染めてゆく
思うように　なかなか　いかない…って
気づいたら　一緒に　泣いていた

恋も　夢も　花も　虹も　風も　ぜんぶ掴もうよ

ダイジョウブ!
元気出して　私がそばにいるから
今日のミス　悔やむより　今　乗り越えて
ダイジョウブ!
迷わないで　まだ見ぬ未来へと向かって　ずっと　歩いてゆこう

Dear My Friend
Every day & night　Always be with me
Dear My Friend
Every day & night　Always be with me

私だって　いろいろ　悩むけど
考えても　答えは出ないまま…
見上げれば　きらきら　一番星
きれいだね　ふと笑顔こぼれた

愛も　傷も　過去も　今も　明日も　すべて受け止めよう

ダイジョウブ!
勇気出すよ　私はひとりじゃないから
諦めず　躊躇わず　一歩　踏み出して
ダイジョウブ!
焦らないで　願いを一つずつ叶えて　きっと　幸せになろう

5年後　10年後は　どうなってるかな…?
遠くに離れていても　それぞれがHAPPYでありますように!!

ダイジョウブ!
信じていて　未来は待っているから
昨日より　少しだけ　今　輝くよ
ダイジョウブ!
迷わないで　まだ見ぬ未来へと向かって　ずっと　歩いてゆこう
Dear My Friend
Every day & night　Always be with you
Dear My Friend
Every day & night　Always be with you

2010-08-25T01:15:00.002+08:00

Actually didn't want to blog today but as I just watched Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu, I think I should just blog about it since it is still fresh in my mind.
Well, this movie is from a manga.
It has many english titles,
I Give My First Love to You

I'll Give You My First Love

Secret Unrequited Love
Yeah, these 3 are the english titles.

And this manga genre is romance, shojo and slice of life.
Weird right?
Me, reading and watching this type of manga and movie.
This story is about two people from young to young adults. Takuma and Mayu's story began when they were only 8 years old. During his childhood, Takuma was constantly hospitalised due to his heart condition. He soon became friends with Mayu, the daughter of the doctor in charge of his case. Day by day they grew closer and closer. However, the summer when Takuma was 8, he made a promise to Mayu that he couldn't keep... Their story unfolds as they grow older and their bond gets stronger...
I only have read the manga half way through but too bad, there is no more sub chapters of it.
So I just went to find the movie today.
I am not sure whether the ending of the movie follows the manga but earlier parts of the movie, it did not follow the manga.
All left is just to wait.
I like how the whole story unfolds and the ending music is really nice and meaningful.
Maybe if it is animated and its ost are done by Jun Maeda, it would really be the best anime for the year.
Yeah, from the summary of the story, it sounds like a tragic romance story.
Maybe that's what I like about it.
It is being realistic, portraying how these two characters grow, trying to overcome Takuma heart disease and the different struggles they have.
It is way different from other shojo mangas.
Anyway like I said, the music nice and meaningful, so here it is.

English
If my wishes came true,
Your sadness would fill me
Please throw away those feelings
I will endure them for you.

When future paintings and maps are lost,
I would still have seen a tiny part of you.

Goodbye, Thank You, I love you, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, Don't cry, Silly you,
Words that I want to convey are flowing endlessly,
No matter how many times, I fall in love with you.

Your dreams will come true,
As it could be said with all your dedications and with your heart

When I'm no longer here, I have not disappeared,
You will still find the threads of love of our hearts.

Goodbye, See you next time, I'm sorry, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, In this way, Silly you,
Painful Love, Endlessly loving,
No matter how many times, I fall in love with you.

The eyes of love and the pain of affection,
Long ago you gave to me an unforgettable radiance

Goodbye, Thank You, I love you, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, Don't cry, Silly you,
Words that I want to convey are flowing endlessly,
No matter how many times, I fall in love with you.

Goodbye, See you next time, I'm sorry, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, In this way, Silly you,
Painful Love, Endlessly loving,
No matter how many times, I will cry out “I love you”,
Goodbye...

Kanji
もしも願いがかなうなら　
君の悲しみを僕の胸の中に
注ぎ込んでくださいその痛みならば
僕は絶えられる

未来絵がく地図も無くしてしまう
ちっぽけな僕だけれど君を見つけた

さようなら、ありがとう、好きだよ、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、泣くなよ、バカだな
伝えたい言葉は止めどなく溢れる、
何度も、何度でも、僕は君に恋をする。

君の願いがかなうなら
全てささげると心から言える

僕がいなくなっても、消えることない、
恋色に染まる心、君と見つけた

さようなら、また会おう、御免ね、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、おこんなよ、バカだな、
恋しい苦しい、愛しいじゃたりない、
何度も、何度でも、僕は君と恋をする。

恋する瞳と愛する痛みを
君が僕にくれた輝き忘れない
ずっと

さようなら、ありがとう、好きだよ、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、泣くなよ、バカだな
伝えたい言葉は止めどなく溢れる、
何度も、何度でも、僕は君に恋をする。

さようなら、また会おう、御免ね、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、おこんなよ、バカだな、
恋しい苦しい、愛しいじゃたりない、
何度も、何度でも、叫ぶよ　「好きだよ」、
さようなら

Romanji
moshi mo negai ga kanau nara kimi no kanashimi wo boku no mune no nakani
sosogi konde kudasai sono itami naraba boku wa tae rareru

mirai egaku chizu mo nakushite shimau
chippo kena boku dake redo kimi wo mitsuketa

sayonara , arigatou , suki dayo , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , naku nayo , baka dana
tsutae tai kotoba wa tome donaku afure ru
nando mo , nando demo boku wa kimi ni koi wo suru

kimi no negai ga kanau nara subetesa sageru to kokoro kara ieru

boku ga inaku nattemo kieru koto nai
koi itoni somaru kokoro kimi to mitsu keta

sayonara , mata aou , gomenne , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , okonnayo , baka dana
koishii kurushii , itoshii ja tari nai
nando mo , nando demo bokuha kimi to koi wosuru

koi suru hitomi to ai suru itami wo
kimi ga boku ni kureta kagayaki wasure nai zutto

sayonara , arigatou , suki dayo , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , naku nayo baka dana
tsutae tai kotoba wa tome do naku afureru
nando mo , nando demo boku wa kimi ni koi wosuru

sayonara , mata aou , gomenne , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , okonnayo , baka dana
koishii kurushii , itoshii ja tari nai
nando mo , nando demo sakebu yo suki dayo
sayonara

2010-08-22T01:51:00.004+08:00

Ok, first week was keep going out.
Second week now, is anime and manga with a little bit of studying.
Haiz.
Been using my itunes and for not sure what reason, it been playing the Clannad OST.
One of it is called presence.
It plays this slow, sad piece.
Listening to it, is like a piece for a flashback for a sad moment in life.
I cant remember which scene in Clannad After Story it was played in.
Another piece would be Sound of the Tide.
To me, it sounds like a piece played when a person has tough choices to make and would end up supposedly better for the other person but in end would hate his own feelings.
The next music piece would be Years and much.
Is like a final conclusion of everything but a slow and sooth piece.
There is still others but is like not sure how to explain it.
Surprisingly, these OST other than making me feel like re-watching the whole of Clannad and Clannad After Story, it is able to make me think of what the composer felt these pieces of music are for and how much impact it would put on.
Like I said, some is like for playing during a flashback.
Yeah, it does bring back things from last year.
Hopelessness, sorrow, unable to do thing just comes to mind for that first half of year.
Then for the second half, I am reminded by Angel Beats OST.
Unjust life.
Yes, it is another slow piece.
Hearing it, just like what its title is, reminds me of unfairness in life, perhaps maybe even anger?
Okok, enough of the OST.
Haha.
Now for music.
I like this music for the chorus.
Quite true and I think it is like perfect for a Angel Beats! AMV.

Better Life
Conditions

When I drive to fast and hit a wall
or drink myself to the hospital
I'm the only one to blame
and as sirens haunt my city streets
and though that sound is after me
calmly I await the change

So don't wait for the world to get better
You're gonna waste the time you have
And you won't get it back

When you fall,
When you break,
When you wish you didn't feel
Keep your head,
Don't forget,
It's the pain that makes us real
I know most of the time
It's hard to keep in mind,
From lessons learned
Comes better life

When I play too hard and break my bones
Depress myself to the lowest lows
I'm the only one to blame
Cause the choice is mine and mine alone, and I choose to learn as I go, clarity will come from pain

When you fall,
When you break,
When you wish you didn't feel
Keep your head,
Don't forget,
It's the pain that makes us real
I know most of the time
It's hard to keep in mind,
From lessons learned
Comes better life

My understanding of the world feels broken
and it's demanding my immediate attention
you're looking up, believing you will leave your problems below
Forget what you believe, use what you know

When you fall,
When you break,
When you wish you didn't feel
Keep your head,
Don't forget,
It's the pain that makes us real
I know most of the time
It's hard to keep in mind,
From lessons learned
Comes better life

2010-08-14T02:40:00.002+08:00

Ohaiyo.
YOG holiday is here.
Yeah it is.
Anyway time to blog.
Yeah, at 2.40am in the morning. LOL.
On National Day, went out with Fedeline, Dian and Jenisha.
Met up Dian and Jenisha for lunch then talk and talk and talk then even walk around Marina square and raffles city.
Then headed to Somerset to look around.
Went to Dhoby Ghaut to find fedeline then head to Chinatown walk around.
LOL.
The places we go like super random.
Was around 6+ in the evening le, Jenisha got things to do so went off.
Then we just went to Novena to slack there.
I got no idea how long we were, sitting at the mac there, talking. Haha.
I think was like 8.
Then went toapayoh for fedeline dinner then I homed.
Is like super crazy, Dian all so theory theory theory.
Yesterday, had a small class outing.
Left house at like 3.30.
At first wanted to like leave at 3 then go look around.
In end never.
Went to bus-stop, so coincidentally met yunling.
At first thought saw wrong.
Then reach amk mrt bus-stop there, angeline there.
LOL
Train to cityhall, yangting already there.
Waited for navan, wei, ze, hong, mari and beverley then went pool.
We like took 3 tables.
Just keep switching partners to play.
Accidently hit wrong ball then black ball in, mari win. LOL.
Then against beverley even more tyco.
6balls in row in.
In end still lost. Haha.
Paired with yl against wei and angeline.
LOL. Super funny match.
After the pool, decided go bugis for steamboat/bbq.
Wah, we jaycross like no cars on the road.
Super dangerous.
Steamboat was like damn fun.
We like cleared all the peppered fish and chicken until they never refill.
Eat while joking and talking.
Say what cannot go home late coz 7 month and some more friday 13.
Makes it double unlucky.
LOL.
After eating, headed to bugjs junction walk through.
Went iluma, see arcade and play.
Train back to amk, half way, met viji.
Haha. She just dismiss from work.
Home like 11.15.
Great time of meeting ex-classmates.
Hopefully teachers' day can meet up, provided I study hard during this holiday so can just go to sgs see teachers and ex-classmates then go exam.
A bit siaosiao.

Fun Facts about yesterday.
1. Ze eat steamboat, until will sweat like heavy rain.
2. Mari able to eat more than ze.
3. Yunling and Angel never play pool before.
4. Ze is damn tall now.
5. Never ever, cross roads with them ever again.
6. Must find a nicer place to eat next time, something like the steamboat can pick food, but definitely not sakae.
7. Navan is as bastard as ever.
8. Everyone spend $25 except for ze who spend $20. Why? He never pay for pool.

Haha.
Really damn bored.
At this hour, 3.01am.
Haha.
And thats all I got to blog about.
And here the lyrics of a new song by There For Tomorrow.
Sayōnara. Oyasumi Nasai

There For Tomorrow
9 to 5

Out of touch with yourself as the lies keep building on your shelf
You can see the reflection of the things you do in me
Out of way for you to tell them to give me the time of day
And still you live for free making disbelief
Of the fortune in my name

Did it feel just like it should?

When you pushed us all away
Just to make sure your okay
Your honesty turned to a lie
When we became your 9 to 5

Out of sight for you to live and learn
You've got me thinking you're still sound asleep
Your best in written words, now they're down for all to see
Now you're way too tongue-in-cheek
To make the rest of them believe
Even the blind can see what you do to me
And the fortune in my name

Well, did it feel just like it should?

When you pushed us all away
Just to make sure your okay
Your honesty turned to a lie
When we became your 9 to 5
I won't go out of my way
To hear what you've got to say
We must be doing something right
When we became your 9 to 5

Did it do all the things that you thought it would do?
We're singing we're still alive
Will it do all the things that you thought it would do?
We're singing we're still alive

When you pushed us all away
Just to make sure your okay
Your honesty turned to a lie
When we became your 9 to 5
I won't go out of my way
To hear what you've got to say
We must be doing something right
When we became your 9 to 5

2010-08-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

This whole week was like busy with project works.
In a way, it can be good, no need think about things.
In another, too many things to do and finish.
Lucky one project due date postponed to next tuesday.
Then onow finished writing reflections, tcs finish presentation (fun wearing formal.).
Now only need do a lot of ise work, proposal and presentation on monday.
Not sure why but after watching all those satursday's anime, was reading some random shojo manga.
In end both mangas were quite nice.
One was quite realistic, another was just like KIMI.
Both is under same genre. (Romance, drama and school life)
Finished reading the first one.
Realistic in the way how people feelings relate to one another and how people look at certain situations.
Know secrets > protect someone > all those drama parts.
Overall it was quite nice.
The "I'll Give You My First Love" like KIMI, not yet finished.
Can say I understand what the male main character is, on the other hand, can say I dont understand.
Why???
Coz he has heart disease and wont leave pass age of 20.
It is like those drama shows where the guy break up with the girl coz of some disease then dont want to make the girl cry, so he break up with her. But then the girl dont understand why, always go find him.
No need say any more, you can go guess the rest.
But the whole story quite predictable.
Hopefully tomorrow can do rest of my work.
Anyway here's another song by Tonight Alive.
Hopefully you will able to get over it better
than how I'm not getting over you.
I will just quietly support your decisions.
Gambateh!

Tonight Alive - Ten Times Better

I'll take you outside as the rain begins to fall
And you
You quiver inside at the thought of something new
I know this is a little oversaid that I
Can't help but think you do this everytime
And I knew by the way he moved
This is one trap that I could fall into

I am not ok now
But I'll find a way now
I've been here before
But you sure are more more more
Than I bargained for

Everything is ten times better when
When you are next to me
You get the best of me
This is not how I remembered
You go you go
But will we see the end of this?

You know its you my dear
But who does the chasing here?
You gotta get up
You gotta get up and go
You won't get anything if your too slow

So don't be let astray now
I'll show you the way now
I've been here before
But you sure are more more more
Than I bargained for

Everything is ten times better when
When you are next to me
You get the best of me
This is not how I remembered
You go you go

What do you do when you get that feeling?
What do you do when you can't control yourself now
Yourself now
Do you just let go let go let go
Of all your thoughts now
For just that one kiss
For just that one kiss

Everything is ten times better when
When you are next to me
You get the best of me
This is not how I remembered
You go you go
But will we see the end of this?

I'll take you outside as the rain begins to fall
And you
You quiver inside at the thought of something new

2010-07-21T00:33:00.003+08:00

Jealous of someone who is jealous of another.
This is really crap.
Can just someone just tell me what to do???
At first saw it, thought probably just some minor things but you went change it again, it really was like hell.
If this was in Angel Beats, the lines that are coming to me right now are "Memories of living the best we can and as hard as we could, it is sth real. No matter what type of memories they are, they're the life we led." - Otonashi to Naoi.
It is like as if I was in the position of Naoi's shoes, looking for a way for you to acknowledge me.
I know those lines are something really profound and deep but these memories of those times really are hard to go through.
The things that I want hear from you would probably never surface again.
If only I could just hypotise myself from remembering those memories, would it be better?
Those who watch Angel Beats would probably say, dont get rid of myself with fake memories.
People reading this might think this is a joke, why compare a person's life to Angel Beats?
Then should I just be like what happened in Code Geass, erasing a person's memory who was close to you, in this case it would be erasing mine.
Erasing it, would be erasing my regret.
I really got no idea what to do.
I am perhaps suppose to lose this.

Tonight Alive - Rooftops to the street
And it feels like i haven't seen you in days,
and it feels like i'll never see you again.
and it only goes to show, you never really cared,
why should i have to pretend you're ever there,
it only goes to show, you don't know.

but i don't need a cure, this is not a disease,
i'm not even sure why i'm down on my knees,
and i don't need your fix, no its not what it seems,
i'm not tick tock, baby in your dreams.

Listen to my heart, listen to my heart beat,
and your heart drops from the rooftop down to the street,
so pretty baby, don't you wanna go, wanna go,
come on and tell me cos i gotta know, gotta know.

Listen to my heart, listen to my heart beat,
and you'll finally know how much you mean to me,
but you'll never show, oh, and you'll never know,
can't stop, can't breathe, heart drops.

and you don't know what you do to me, baby,
and i'll never quite understand why,
understand why, havin' a hard time.

if this is it, really it, then prove it to me,
if this is it, really it, then prove it to me.

Listen to my heart, listen to my heart beat,
and your heart drops from the rooftop down to the street,
so pretty baby, don't you wanna go, wanna go,
come on and tell me cos i gotta know, gotta know.

Listen to my heart, listen to my heart beat,
and you'll finally know how much you mean to me,
but you'll never show, oh, and you'll never know,
can't stop, can't breathe, heart drops.

and in case you're wondering where i've been,
i've been here without you.
and by any slim chance that you care if i'm happy,
well i'm, i'm so much more, without you.

and i don't need a cure, this is not a disease,
i'm not even sure why i'm down on my knees,
and i don't need your fix, no its not what it seems,
i'm not tick tock, baby in your dreams.

Listen to my heart, listen to my heart beat,
and your heart drops from the rooftop down to the street,
so pretty baby, don't you wanna go, wanna go,
come on and tell me cos i gotta know, gotta know.

Listen to my heart, listen to my heart beat,
and you'll finally know how much you mean to me,
but you'll never show, oh, and you'll never know,
can't stop, can't breathe, heart drops.

and it feels like i haven't seen you in days,
and it feels like i'll never see you again

2010-06-27T09:23:00.010+08:00

Ok. 2 Saturdays ago, I attended a wedding to help out.
It was quite enjoyable.

This photo was taken by a friend using a mirror reflection.
Apparently, it was found out by accident. Haha.
Got alot to say about this day but sadly cant say.
Haha.

Holidays were boring.
Last Saturday, we had an old cell dinner as a group.
Cant say it went well.

Anyway for yesterday, it was a ONOW task.
It was more of a trial test to test out the road conditions and for any dangerous points.
Started from like 11pm to today 4.30am.
Ride bicycle from Lot One to all the way to Boon Lay Nasi Lemak to West Coast Mac.
It was super crazy.
In end most of us cant take the challenge.
All except junxiang were riding in wenbin car.
Reach home like 6.30am thanks to Maverick father who gave most of us a ride to yio chu kang mrt.
Now really dead beat but then cant really sleep if not tonight no need sleep le.
Haha.

Now on the Angel Beats!
It ended already!!!
Awww. As expected of Key's production of anime.
Tear-jerking anime.
LOL.
Not as tear-jerking as Clannad still.
Maybe coz it is funny and also just some scenes are just so touching.
Especially when it was at the last 4 episodes.
Hmm, the last episode before they graduate from the afterlife, Otonashi was reading out the whole time he reach there and slowly befriended all the SSS people.
Makes me feel like I was the one there going through it.
But I think the part most jialat was the part where Otonashi confess to Kanade.
That part was like really unexpected of what Kanade reply.
It also makes me wonder, what is the thing that I do that I find fulfilling in my life right now.
Though I still have not come to answer to that, I am sure that I will be able to.
If you dont understand what I mean, it is like for Otonashi, the thing that he finds fulfilling is to be able to receive gratitude from those he helped.
A waste they disappear after that.
One thing for sure, I love the music they produced.
It is so nice and the lyrics are so meaningful.
I cant wait what next manga/anime Key is going to come up with.
Hopefully it will be as great as Clannad and Angel Beats!
A bit of comedy but an anime that will make people want cry.
And a nice quote from the show.
"Let me believe what you've always believed! That living is wonderful!"

The Greatest Treasure (Yui ver.)
Lyrics / Composition: Jun Maeda
Arrangement: Hikarisyuyo
Vocals: Yui (LiSA)

Whenever our faces met, we would only fight.
Even those were good memories.

You taught me this. I’m not afraid anymore.
No matter how confined I am, I can catch happiness. So…

Even alone, I’ll go on, even if it’s painful.
I’ll definitely take along the dream I saw with you.
It was nice to be with you, you and not anyone else.
…But in the morning I woke up to, you’re not there.

I felt like we could just have fun forever.
I understand that I only felt that way.
With the things that were born, I won’t have regrets anymore.
It’s like after a festival. It’ll be lonely, but it’s time to go.

I’ll go anywhere with the things that I learned here.
I’ll show that I can make the dream called happiness come true.
Even if we’re apart, no matter how far apart we become,
I will live on in a new morning.

Even alone, I’ll go on. Even if I start to want to die,
I’ll hear your voice telling me that I must not die.
Even if it’s painful, even if the loneliness makes me cry,
Deep in my heart, I’ll feel your warmth.

Turning and flowing along, time is transient.
What happened then? I can’t remember,
But if I try closing my eyes, I hear someone’s laughing voice.
For some reason, that is now my greatest treasure.

Ichiban no Takaramono (Yui ver.)
Lyrics / Composition: Maeda Jun
Arrangement: Hikarisyuyo
Vocals: Yui (LiSA)

Kao wo awashitara kenka shite bakari
Sore mo ii omoide datta

Kimi ga oshiete kureta nda mou kowaku nai
Donna fujiyuu demo shiawase wa tsukameru dakara

Hitori demo yuku yo tatoe tsurakute mo
Kimi to mita yume wa kanarazu motteku yo
Kimi to ga yokatta hoka no dare demo nai
Demo mezameta asa kimi wa inai nda ne

Zutto asondereru sonna ki ga shiteta
Ki ga shite ita dake wakatteru
Umarete kita koto mou koukai wa shinai
Matsuri no ato mitai samishii kedo sorosoro ikou

Doko made mo yuku yo koko de shitta koto
Shiawase to iu yume wo kanaete miseru yo
Kimi to hanarete mo donna ni tooku natte mo
Atarashii asa ni atashi wa ikiru

Hitori demo yuku yo shinitaku natte mo
Koe ga kikoeru yo shinde wa ikenai to
Tatoe tsurakute mo samishisa ni naite mo
Kokoro no oku ni wa nukumori wo kanjiru yo

Megutte nagarete toki wa utsuroi da
Mou nani ga atta ka omoidasenai kedo
Me wo tojite mireba dareka no waraigoe
Nazeka sore ga ima ichiban no takaramono

一番の宝物 (Yui ver.)
作詞・作曲：麻枝准
編曲：光収容
歌：ユイ (LiSA)

顔を合わしたら喧嘩してばかり
それもいい思い出だった

きみが教えてくれたんだ　もう恐くない
どんな不自由でも幸せは掴める　だから

ひとりでもゆくよ　例え辛くても
きみと見た夢は　必ず持ってくよ
きみとがよかった　ほかの誰もでもない
でも目覚めた朝　きみは居ないんだね

ずっと遊んでれる　そんな気がしてた
気がしていただけ　わかってる
生まれてきたこともう後悔はしない
祭りの後みたい　寂しいけどそろそろ行こう

どこまでもゆくよ　ここで知ったこと
幸せという夢を叶えてみせるよ
きみと離れても　どんなに遠くなっても
新しい朝に　あたしは生きるよ

ひとりでもゆくよ　死にたくなっても
声が聞こえるよ　死んではいけないと
例え辛くても　寂しさに泣いても
心の奥には　温もりを感じるよ

巡って流れて　時は移ろいだ
もう何があったか　思い出せないけど
目を閉じてみれば　誰かの笑い声
なぜかそれが今一番の宝物

23:50
Lyrics / Composition: Jun Maeda
Arrangement: Hikarisyuyo
Vocals: Yui (LiSA)

There were various things in the space between the two of us.
Our hobbies are different, so we won’t clean up together.
“You’re the one better at cooking, so you should do it.”
You give me those one-sided orders.
The day when a couple like us
Can smile and get past that will come someday.

You didn’t get my favorite DVD
And went and brought back something for yourself again.
In return, I’ll take your almost-cleared game
And overwrite it at Level 1.
We just always repeat this kind of thing
And both lose out in the end.

But I love you so much that it’s strange,
So I want you to feel at ease. We’ll be together until the day we die.
Ah, what am I saying? My face feels hot!

You were getting late coming back,
So I ate the cake that you hid.
Eh? Today was my birthday?
I ate it alone, and the tears spilled out.
The day when a couple like us
Can smile and get past that will come someday.

I’ll control myself and not cry.
You’ll go to the convenience store
And buy another one to replace it,
So I’ll keep on smiling.
Come on, hurry, there are ten minutes left!

23:50
Lyrics / Composition: Maeda Jun
Arrangement: Hikarisyuyo
Vocals: Yui (LiSA)

Futari no aida ni wa iroiro atta
Shumi no chigai ni tomo ni souji shinai
Ryouri wa omae ga kokufuku shiro to
Sonna ippouteki na meirei wo kudasu
Konna futari waraiatte
Sugoseru hi ga itsuka kuru kana

Oki ni iri no DVD ga nai
Kimi ga mata katte ni mochidashita nda
Kawari ni kuria sunzen no geemu wo
Reberu ichi ni shite uwagaite yarou
Konna koto wo kurikaeshite
Otagai son bakari shite iru

Demo fushigi na hodo kimi wo suki na mama de iru nda yo
Dakara anshin shite hoshii shinu toki made issho ni iru yo
Aa nani ittenda kao ga atsui!

Kimi ga kaette kuru no ga osoi kara
Kakushite atta keeki tabechatta yo
Are? kyou atashi no tanjoubi dakke?
Hitori de tabechatta namida koboreru
Konna futari waraiatte
Sugoseru hi ga itsuka kuru kana

Mou naku no wa gaman suru
Kimi ga konbini made itte
Kawari wo katte kite kureru
Dakara atashi waratteru yo
Hora isoide yo ato juppun

23:50
作詞・作曲：麻枝准
編曲：光収容
歌：ユイ (LiSA)

ふたりの間には色々あった
趣味の違いに共に掃除しない
料理はお前が克服しろと
そんな一方的な命令を下す
こんなふたり笑い合って
過ごせる日がいつか来るかな

お気に入りのDVDがない
君がまた勝手に持ち出したんだ
代わりにクリア寸前のゲームを
レベル1にして上書いてやろう
こんなことを繰り返して
お互い損ばかりしている

でも不思議なほど君を好きなままでいるんだよ
だから安心してほしい　死ぬ時まで一緒にいるよ
ああ　なに言ってんだ　顔が熱い！

君が帰ってくるのが遅いから
隠してあったケーキ食べちゃったよ
あれ？　今日あたしの誕生日だっけ？
ひとりで食べちゃった　涙こぼれる
こんなふたり笑い合って
過ごせる日がいつか来るかな

もう泣くのは我慢する
君がコンビニまで行って
代わりを買ってきてくれる
だからあたし笑ってるよ
ほら　急いでよ　後10分

http://bambooxzx.wordpress.com/2010/06/26/angel-beats-ichiban-no-takaramono-yui-ver/

http://bambooxzx.wordpress.com/2010/06/26/angel-beats-2350/

Anyway to end off.

So glad u reply.

Hopefully can meet you next time without feeling so weird.

2010-06-12T20:22:00.003+08:00

Yo.
MST is over.
So let me blog about this whole week including about today!
Let's start with monday.
Met up with Samuel, Junliang and Junxiang around 11 to go for lunch and for study.
Ate subway and in end we didnt even study.
We were busy tf2.
In end for the java test, it was not bad.
Tuesday, went to SP to find jolene.
That day got AP and UCL wedding rehearsal.
So went meet up with her to go.
While waiting, studied a bit of maths and COS.
Saw a couple of friends from business school.
Then soon jolene came then went meet up with carmen for dinner.
Carmen was talking about how church service, never see any of the guys in our cell.
Saying that the only few people she see is jianzhong and edmund.
Then cab to Orchid country club.
We cab there just nice 7.30.
In end none of the cell there yet.
Rehearsal was really nothing much.
When rehearsal was done, the rest of the guys went play pool as they had no school.
Samuel went back home with parents.
I just took shuttlebus home.
Gloria say I disappeared when at the MRT.
LOL.
Wednesday.
Doom day.
Kenna slaughtered by maths.
Then went home study cos.
Thursday, COS was not bad.
Whole class finish it in like 30mins.
Some of the guys decided go play pool or lan.
Mainly was maverick, junliang, junxiang, kenny, kimwee, wenbin, kevin, edmund, joel, aji and me went play dota.
So long never hard a fun inhouse game.
Yesterday
Went watch Karate kid with Maverick, Kevin, Junliang, junxiang and edmund.
Suppose watch at dhoby ghaut in end went marina square watch.
That movie is really nice.
Though is violent but there sure is some important life values that one can learn from.
Had dinner with them at amk.
So long never go there eat the S11 the western food siah.
Eat until very shuang.
Anyway half way blogging, I dont think I should blog about today first.
I see other people whether got blog then decide to blog.

2010-06-06T22:07:00.004+08:00

Ok.
I remembered what I wanted to blog about.
You would never guess how the hell did I remember it.
Well lets just say that I just so happen to see the person today that I wanted to blog about.
Hmm, actually is someone ask me last week about since was my birthday what wish would I suppose to have.
Naturally, everyone would have one.
I just reply no, I dont believe in wishes.
But after thinking about it for some time, of coz I have one and is regarding the person I saw.
Of coz I want to talk to the person cause already 1.5year never talk to.
But like very weird to all of a sudden talk.
Today also suddenly saw her.
See her but she with her parents then I went take out ear piece act never see her. =.=''
Not sure leh. I told my friend I dun wan approach coz her parents there but maybe still cant forgive myself about the matter.
Hopefully get to see her again next Sat when go airport.
And about my wish, is to be able to talk to her every time again without problems.

Anyway MST is here le.
Tomorrow first major exam as a poly student.
Hopefully wont so nervous.

Shine Days
Lyrics / Composition: Jun Maeda
Arrangement: Hikarisyuyo
Vocals: Yui (LiSA)

I’ve already forgotten the dream I had yesterday,
But my heart is still beating so fast.
I’ll try cramming all of the coins into my pocket.
Let’s click our heels and get out of this cramped room.

Come on, run on through yesterday and today. To the future we haven’t seen yet, go!
Let’s go start a revolution. Let’s go make our dreams come true!
Once we run out there, let’s go anywhere.
Let’s break down Einstein’s theories and push on forward.

A traveler I met on a sunny day said
That past here, there’s only a vast wasteland.
More importantly, I want to wash these mud-covered shoes
Because we’re always together.

Come on, from here, it’s a contest with yourself. Even if it’s with yourself, you’ll grow!
We’ll always get hungry just like kids!
If we can, let’s follow our hearts. Let’s draw great map.
The end depends on us – it’s infinite.

No matter what kind of day comes, I’ll hold up this fist.
I am sunshine, shining through the gaps in the clouds -
A soft and gentle beam!

Indecisive people will be left behind.
Right over there, I’ll predict our chances of winning.

Come on, run on through yesterday and today. To the future we haven’t seen yet, go!
We’re going to start a revolution. Are you ready to go, baby?
If we’re all sure, we’ll go with no confusion in our minds.
We’ll break down Einstein’s theories and push on forward.
We are all dazzling sunshine!
Let’s go, monster sunshine!
I’ll get you all fired up!
We are sunshine, shining through the gaps in the clouds -
Light that can make dreams come true. Shine days!

Shine Days
Lyrics / Composition: Jun Maeda
Arrangement: Hikarisyuyo
Vocals: Yui (LiSA)

Kinou mita yume wa mou wasurete shimatta kedo
Kono kodou wa mada dokidoki shiteru yo
Poketto ni arittake no koin wo tsumekonde miru
Kakato wo narashi semai heya wo deyou

Saa hashirinukero kinou to kyou mada minu mirai e to Go!
Kakumei wo okoshi ni yukou yume wo kanae ni ikou
Kakedashitara doko made mo yukou
Ainshutain no riron mo bukkowashite tsukisusumou

Aruhareta hi ni deatta tabibito wa itta
Kono saki ni wa areta daichi dake to
Sonna koto yori kono doro darake no kutsu wo
Aratte yaritai zutto issho dakara

Saa koko kara wa jibun to no shoubu tatoe hitori demo Grow!
Itsu made mo Kids no mama ja onaka ga suichau yo!
Dekireba kokoro no mama ni yukou ookina chizu wo egakou
Hate wa atashitachi shidai mugendai da yo

Donna hi ga kite mo itsu demo kono kobushi wo kazashite
I’m a sunshine kumo no kirema kara sashikomu yo
Yawaraka na Beam!

Oiteku yo guzu na yatsu wa
Sugu soko ni shouki no yokan

Saa hashirinukero kinou to kyou mada minu mirai e to Go!
Kakumei wo okoshi ni yuku yo? Are you ready to go,baby?
Kimetara mou mayowazu ni yuku yo
Aishutain no riron mo bukkowashite tsukisusumu
Atashitachi wa minna Dazzling sunshine
Ikou Monster sunshine
Kutte kakatte yaru nda
We are sunshine kumo no kirema kara sasu
Yume wo kanaeru hikari Shine days

Shine Days
作詞・作曲：麻枝准
編曲：光収容
歌：ユイ (LiSA)

昨日見た夢はもう忘れてしまったけど
この鼓動はまだどきどきしてるよ
ポケットにありったけのコインを詰め込んでみる
踵を鳴らし狭い部屋を出よう

さあ走り抜けろ　昨日と今日　まだ見ぬ未来へとGo!
革命を起こしにいこう　夢を叶えにいこう
駆け出したらどこまでもいこう
アインシュタインの理論もぶっ壊して突き進もう

ある晴れた日に出会った旅人は言った
この先には荒れた大地だけと
そんなことよりこの泥だらけの靴も
洗ってやりたい　ずっと一緒だから

さあここからは自分と勝負　たとえひとりでもGrow!
いつまでもKidsのままじゃお腹がすいちゃうよ！
できれば心のままに行こう　大きな地図を描こう
果てはあたしたち次第　無限大だよ

どんな日が来てもいつでもこの拳をかざして
I’m a sunshine　雲の切れ間から差し込むよ
柔らかなBeam!

置いてくよ　グズな奴は
すぐそこに　勝機の予感

さあ走り抜けろ　昨日と今日　まだ見ぬ未来へとGo!
革命を起こしにいくよ？　Are you ready to go,baby?
決めたらもう迷わずに行くよ
アインシュタインの理論もぶっ壊して突き進む
あたしたちはみんな　Dazzling sunshine
いこう　Monster sunshine
食ってかかってやるんだ
We are sunshine　雲の切れ間から射す
夢を叶える光　Shine days

2010-06-06T00:54:00.003+08:00

Okok.
17 liao la.
Just last monday was my birthday.
So my facebook got "spammed" and class was normal.
Only aji was like super hyper.
But I guess that is always as normal of him. Haha.
Anyway The things I got was 2 new shoes, white long sleeve shirt and some other stuff.
Hmm been really busy with all those projects, homeworks and of coz test.
Dinner, went out with family go eat.
Got a new ear piece also.
Got alot to blog but then when come to actually blogging it.
Forget all liao.
Haha.
Better become more active again.

Girls Dead Monster - My Song

While I’m searching for a place to let out my irritation, the day ends.
The sky turns grey, and after that, I can’t see anything.
The ones who hold common sense are laughing. What lies will they tell me next?
Can I preciously decorate what I gained through that?
But I have to move ahead to tomorrow.
That’s why I sing like this.

You who are crying, you who are lonely,
That’s the right way to be; that’s what it is to be human.
This is what the tears that fell down say.
For our true, honest selves that are this beautiful, thank you.

To have dreams we want to come true and dreams that won’t reach -
That in itself turns into a dream, turns into hope, and maybe people can live on.
There’s a gate. They’re waiting over there,
So I stretch out my hand.

For you who were broken, the strength to fight one more, self-confidence, this song -
This is what the tears that fell down say.
For the miracle that we could meet in such a dirty, unsightly world, thank you.

Iradachi wo doko ni butsukeru ka sagashiteru ma ni owaru hi
Sora wa haiiro wo shite sono saki wa nani mo mienai
Joushiki butteru yatsu ga waratteru tsugi wa donna uso wo iu?
Sore de urareta mono daiji ni kazatte okeru no?
Demo asu e to susumanakya naranai
Dakara kou utau yo

Naiteru kimi koso kodoku na kimi koso
Tadashii yo ningen rashii yo
Otoshita namida ga kou iu yo
Konna ni mo utsukushii uso ja nai hontou no bokura wo arigatou

Kanaetai yume ya todokanai yume ga aru koto
Sore jitai ga yume ni nari kibou ni nari hito wa ikite ikeru ndaro
Tobira wa aru soko de matte iru
Dakara te wo nobasu yo

Kujiketa kimi ni wa mou ichido tatakaeru tsuyosa to jishin to kono uta wo
Otoshita namida ga kou iu yo
Konna ni mo yogorete minikui sekai de deaeta kiseki ni arigatou

苛立ちをどこにぶつけるか探してる間に終わる日
空は灰色をしてその先は何も見えない
常識ぶってる奴が笑ってる　次はどんな嘘を言う？
それで得られたもの大事に飾っておけるの？
でも明日へと進まなきゃならない
だからこう歌うよ

泣いてる君こそ孤独な君こそ
正しいよ人間らしいよ
落とした涙がこう言うよ
こんなにも美しい嘘じゃない本当の僕らをありがとう

叶えたい夢や届かない夢がある事
それ自体が夢になり希望になり人は生きていけるんだろ
扉はある　そこで待っている
だから手を伸ばすよ

挫けた君にはもう一度戦える強さと自信とこの歌を
落とした涙がこう言うよ
こんなにも汚れて醜い世界で出会えた奇跡にありがとう

2010-05-15T23:51:00.003+08:00

Haiz. So many things happened in the past week.
It is like so shocking and confusing.
It is like the exact feelings last year.
No it is not the same thing that happen.
Is more of a family thing.
It really does make you really feel very helpless.
But not as emo as last year.
Want talk to someone of same age about it also quite hard to say.
It is not like a situation that others can really understand unlike what I have been through last year.
Who would have guessed, that the person I actually wanted to speak to about was that person.
1year never talk.
Hard to start a conversation.
As usual, no matter what, always need to move forward.
Hopefully this family problem would be cleared soon.

Poly work also getting quite busy le.
Is like one hand has to handle all these work, projects and studies.
Another is to like not to get my emotions affected and deal with family problem.
Typing out here while thinking about it already making me feel stressful about it.
Like what people say, burying self in work is just running away from the problem.
I really hope it wont like last for a month.
Once this is over and resolved, hopefully the previous one last year could be resolved too.
Gambatei (Idk whether is like that spelled).

The funny thing is, in order not to think about it, I'm re-watching Clannad again.
Not sure whether is to make myself cry or what siah.
Maybe is to just ignore reality and to look at fantasy.
But if that is the case, then probably wrong anime.
Clannad = Most Tear-jerking anime.
Watch also will want cry.
Haha. Seeing myself typing all these. Dunno what I thinking.
To bluff myself?
Who knows?

Anyway, fullmetal alchemist last OP full version is out.
English translation really sound like it fits my current situation.
Anyway, if there really is anyone who reads my blog, dont need worry.
I sure will be able to hang on. =D

Rain - SID
六月の嘘　目の前の本当　セピアにしまいこみ
寄り添うとか　温もりとか　わからなくなってた

「君はひとりで平気だから…ね」と　押しつけて　さよなら
その類の気休めなら　聞き飽きた筈なのに

鳴り止まない　容赦ない思い出たちは　許してくれそうにもない
目を閉じれば　勢いは増すばかりで　遠巻きで　君が笑う

雨は　いつか止むのでしょうか　ずいぶん長い間　冷たい
雨は　どうして僕を選ぶの　逃げ場のない　僕を選ぶの

やっと見つけた　新しい朝は　月日が邪魔をする
向かう先は　「次」じゃなくて　「過」ばかり追いかけた

慰めから　きっかけをくれた君と　恨めしく　怖がりな僕
そろそろかな　手探り　疲れた頬を　葛藤がこぼれ落ちる

過去を知りたがらない瞳　洗い流してくれる指
優しい歩幅で　癒す傷跡　届きそうで　届かない距離

雨は　いつか止むのでしょうか　ずいぶん長い間　冷たい
雨は　どうして僕を選ぶの　包まれて　いいかな

雨は　止むことを知らずに　今日も降り続くけれど
そっと　差し出した傘の中で　温もりに　寄り添いながら

English translation

June’s lies and the truth in front of my eyes are put away in sepia tones
Nestling close to one another, warmth; I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” you said, forcing it upon me and then you said goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation then I should be tired of hearing it by now

Endlessly ringing; the merciless memories seem to have no intention of forgiving me
If i close my eyes they will only grow surrounding me at a distance you laugh

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain choose me? Why does it choose me who has nowhere to escape to?

Time intrudes on the new morning I finally found
The direction I face is not the future I kept chasing after the past

You, who gave me a new start by your consolations and the hateful and cowardly me
It’s about time… Fumbling, my troubles spill down my tired cheeks

Eyes that don’t want to know the past and fingers that can wash it all away
Scars heal at a gentle pace; at an unreachable distancethat seems to be within reach

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder? For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain choose me? I wonder if it’s ok to let it cover me

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end
While we quietly nestle together under the umbrella I hold

2010-04-27T22:12:00.019+08:00

Hmmm.
So I been to SP for lectures/tutorials for 1.5weeks le.
So far, everything has been great!
From a quiet class to a class that is having fun together.
Everyday sure there will be some crazy and funny stuff.
Learning how to program Java is also quite fun.
Is like learning maths, sure got a lot of problems and seeing a lot of symbols.
Haha.
Anyway for my class, is mostly dominated by guys, only 2 girls.
Ratio is 10:1.
LOL.
Enough of that crap.
Maths lectures/tutorials are the worst so far.
The lecturer is teaching us matrics like we never ever learn it before.
So basically, it is just a slack class for the moment.
Tomorrow I still got lectures on it.
Is like death.
Hmm, for anime, the FMA new ending is fantastic.
Really suits it theme of it ending.
The title is Ray of Light.
Music on the right >>>>>
Ray of light lyrics + Translation(Not accurate, didnt put.)

あの日からずっと
泣かないと決めてきたけど
痛みを重ねても
何かを許せずにいた

もう戻れないいくつもの日々
僕はまだ何もできずに
君のいた記憶の破片
またひとつ消えてゆく

今日よりもっと
強くなりたい
この声がいつか届くように

歩き続けて
風が止んだら
君を探して空見上げるよ
夜明けの先に光が射すよ

この胸のどこか
閉じ込めてたはずのことも
今なら少しだけ
わかるような気がした

どこまでも続いてく道
新しい景色が増えても
君はもうどこにもいない
ただ時が過ぎるだけ

今日よりもっと
強くなりたい
やっと見つけた想いのために

涙の粒が雨になっても
変わらず光る星見上げるよ
流れる雲が色付いてくよ

気がつけば僕はまた
大人になってくけど
今でもわからないことばかりで
それでも遠い空の彼方には
繋がると信じてる

今日よりもっと
強くなりたい
この声が君に届くように

歩き続けて風が止んだら
答えさがして空見上げるよ
夜明けの先に光が射すよ
虹がかかるよ

From that day on
I decided not to cry
Even through repeated pain
I forgave everything

Still I can't go back to those days
I am still unable to do anything
The shards of your memory
Again another disappears

I want to become
stronger than today
Some day this voice will deliver that message

I will continue walking
If the wind stops
I look up and search the sky for you
Dawn's first light shines down

Somewhere in my heart
The things trapped inside
Now, if only a little
I feel like you know

I'll continue on this endless road
New surroundings are coming into view
You're nowhere to be found
Time is just passing away

I want to become
stronger than today
For the desire that I finally found

My teardrops have become rain
I look up at the stars shining、 unchanged
The flowing clouds are coloring the sky

If I find myself again
I'm becoming an adult,　but
Still there are things I just don’t know
Even though,　They're on the other side of the far away sky　
I will hold on to them and believe

I want to become
stronger than today
Some day this voice will deliver that message　to you

I will continue walking
If the wind stops
I look up and search the sky for an answer
Dawn's first light shines down
A rainbow hangs down

Another one is By2.
LOL.
Their new album only got a few nice ones.
Like the 爱上你.
Music is also on the >>>>>>

爱上你 lyrics + Translations.

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受
我不停寻找着理由解释分手
心好空像没温度的气球
我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动
爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

什么都不要懂只想继续做梦
害怕醒来以后握不住你的手
如果同一秒钟你也想起了我
心只要能微微颤抖就已足够
爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
或许我永远都看不透
爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂
伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错
噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落
可惜你永远都不会懂

放心我还会好好的过

Do not know anything just want to continue to dream
Fear of waking up after not live your hand grip
Who is too immature and did not understand their feelings
I kept looking for reasons to justify breaking up
Heart so empty as the temperature of the balloon did not
My soul trapped in the memories not move
Love you no reason in the end you understand it or not
But remember even more uncomfortable than we have lost
Oh ~ Love reminds me of the tears can not help when you fall
Unfortunately, you never know

Do not know anything just want to continue to dream
Fear of waking up after not live your hand grip
If the same second you think of me
Slightly trembling heart is sufficient as long as
Love you no reason in the end you understand it or not
But remember even more uncomfortable than we have lost
Oh ~ Love reminds me of the tears can not help when you fall
I may never see through
Love you no reason in the end you understand it or not
Sad happy in the memories of repeated cross
Oh ~ Love reminds me of the tears can not help when you fall
Unfortunately, you never know

Rest assured that I will live on happily.

2010-04-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

This year would be the last and final time I'm going to do flag day.
The reason???
I don't want to walk from Tanjong Pagar to ChinaTown to Clarke Quay to Esplanda to Marina Square to Suntec City to Raffles City then bus all way to Eunos for nothing.
*Done complaining.
Haha.
But it was fun la.
Then Lossini and HongBoon got to meet their "UNCLE" who donate $10 to them.
Overall, it was ok la.
It felt like it was a 10km walk even though Singapore is so small.
Now need sleep early le.
Monday 9am start.
Hopefully I will be able to enjoy my new class.
Even though talk to them but the most important thing is..
I forgot their names.
LOL.
Nothing much to blog about.
Using new laptop blog.
Haha.

2010-04-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

First day of FOC.
So wat should I say?
1pm-5pm.
Was just plain TALK TALK TALK.
Sian liao.
Like shouldn't come for today.
Have you ever tried being mute for 4hours?
If you haven, maybe you should try.
HAha. Just kidding.
After the whole boring crap, went home with hongboon.
On way, met navan juai and minghao.
Siao right.
One day meet so many people.
At night, went yunling house ask her help me scan some papers.
Went home do warranty then watch FMA, fairy tail.
Only anime still waiting which came out yesterday is that comedy, Working!
Tomorrow meeting zheming for breakfast.
But depending on the time, I might just take the train to SP.
Tomorrow will meet class and lecturers.
Hopefully got someone to talk to.
Haha.

Some lines from FMA: BH, SID - Rain.
Sorosoro ka na tesaguri tsukareta hoho wo
kattou ga koboreochiru
ame wa itsuka yamu no deshou ka
zuibun nagai aida tesumeita
ame wa doushite boku wo erabu no
tsutsumarete ii ka na
ame wa yamu koto wo shirazu ni
kyou mo furitszuku keredo

2010-03-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

After 4 days, I completed another whole series of anime.
Is called Clannad.
It had 2 seasons.
Known to be the most tear-jerking anime/manga of all times.
Surprising thing is, the genre of Clannad is slice of life, romance, drama.
Something I dun even want to watch/read at all.
Haha, probably just a change of genre to watch.
Starting was like super funny in the first season.
Somehow, it just slowly went along the lines of events that are really tear-jerking.
Another thing nice was the piano pieces used in the whole anime.
Can really stir one's feelings.
Hmm but then after all the sad events in the story, became a happy ending.
I think the only thing I remember about the whole manga is the piano pieces.
Haha.
Too nice.
Somehow I just felt that it is somewhat better than the other animes/mangas I read.
I surely will go watch it again.
Anyway, now watching another anime by the same producers called Kanon.
Got 2 versions released.
Watching the 2006 ones.
Quite interesting also.
I also found out that animes is another way to stop playing games.
Haha.
Coming one week never play games liao.

The OST of Clannad.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNwikKhvvWI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIUXAScrxPY&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2c8zfWQgkU

All very relaxing.
Haha.

2010-03-03T02:22:00.003+08:00

Another whole month never blog.
Everyday really is just manga/anime/manga/anime/manga/anime/games.
Damn siao.
Read til current chapter of Fairy Tail, Full metal Alchemist, Bloody Monday and few other manga.
Chinese New Year is like the usual.
Boring.
2weeks ago, met my SP cell leader, Zhong Kai and a few other cell members.
Only got Amanda, Amber, Nicholas, Marcus and Zhong Kai.
Went dinner with them then Zhong Kai treat the whole group bowling.
Nicholas Amber me one team while the other 3 form another.
In end the whole 2 rounds, we won.
LOL.
Was like super tyco.
Then last friday, had my very first cell group meeting with my new SP cell.
I'm the only one like from the area of AMK/Serangoon.
Rest all clementi, jurong.
I think I already forgotten the names.
LOL.
My memory with names super bad siah.
If I am not wrong, going meet my cell leader this friday again.
I am not even sure.
Tomorrow going to mail the brown envelope of my poly finances.
I think probably wont blog so SOON.
Maybe another month.
Haha.
Who knows?

Fullmetal Alchemist Ending 2
Let It Out

Let it all out, Let it all out
強がらなくていいんだね
誰かが描いてった　壁の落書きの花が揺れる

自分らしさなんて　誰も分からないよ
長い長い道の途中で　失くしたり拾ったり
急に寂しくなって泣いちゃう日もあるけど　oh...oh...

涙も痛みも星に変えよう
明日を照らす灯りをともそう
小さく迷っても　ふたりで作ろう
星屑を　強く光る永遠を探そう

Let it all out, Let it all out
足りないことだらけだよね
足りなくていいんだね　だから君と出逢えたんだ　oh...

明日が何なのか　それが知りたくて
小さなナイフを　靴下に隠してた
強がってついた　嘘のほうがずっと痛かった

本当は怖いよ　だけど生きていく
笑顔の意味を　風を奏でてく
小さな手をかざして　ふたりで作ろう
星屑を　強く光る永遠を探そう

正しいことが間違ってたらどうすればいい？
悲しいことが正しかったら受け入れるだけ
失くしたと思ってた　でも君が知ってた
君がいて本当に良かった

涙も痛みも星に変えよう
明日を照らす明かりを灯そう
小さな手かざして　ふたりで作ろう
星屑を　強く光る永遠を・・・

さよなら　いつかは来るかもしれない
季節はそれでも巡り巡ってく
小さく迷っても　歩いてく　君と歩いてく　
それだけは変わらないでいようね　

2010-02-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

Quite a few days have pass since I last blog.
Ok got in to SP Infocomm Security Management.
So this means that I am in SP cell for church.
The week after results of posting, I was practically watching the whole of Naruto and Naruto Shippuuden.
Then caught up to current episode.
Maybe I will go read Fairy Tail since is a popular manga.
The last week sermon was great.
A sermon people will never expect pastors to preach on.
And that topic is .......
BGR.
LOL.
Super funny the way Pastor Gary preach.
Then today was the continuation of last week sermon.
Hopefully learn some useful advice.
Haha.
And one of the pics he showed was the famous pic that I saw in ppf last time.
The whole women = problems equation.
Though is past things but still funny.
Started playing another RPG but getting sian liao.
Seriously dunno what to blog liao.
Sleep at 4am wake up 9am.
Really nothing to do.

2010-01-17T04:05:00.000+08:00

Monday, O level results was released.
L1R4 - 15
L1R5 - 20
Though to others it might have sux, for me is better than what I have expected compared to the prelim results I got.
As usual, Gauwei sure will top the school and it really came true.
Just qualified for JC but I decided not to go JC liao unlike what I told to people that I wanted to go JC.
After get results, talked to some of my classmates whom I probably wont be seeing them ever again.
Went meet up with Jacky then went find Keven who is in Monfort.
His school just move nearby tempo for a few years?
We went compass to meet with Buanheng and tirta.
Went pizzahut to celebrate results.
Then whole week was thinking of what course to do.
Friday, was my god mei Lizi birthday.
Same day as of my first blog post.
LOL.
Went Bball with jingze navan and wei.
Yesterday was service only.
This long holiday damn boring.
Anyway here are the courses I picked.

1 - S54 INFOCOMM SECURITY MANAGEMENT
(SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)

2 - T15 CYBER & DIGITAL SECURITY (TEMASEK
POLYTECHNIC)

3 - S69 INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY (SINGAPORE
POLYTECHNIC)

4 - N64 NETWORK SYSTEMS & SECURITY (NGEE ANN
POLYTECHNIC)

5 - C54 INFORMATION SECURITY (NANYANG
POLYTECHNIC)

6 - N65 AEROSPACE TECHNOLOGY (NGEE ANN
POLYTECHNIC)

7 - T51 AEROSPACE ENGINEERING (TEMASEK
POLYTECHNIC)

8 - T01 BUSINESS/LOGISTICS & OPERATIONS
MGT/MARKETING (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

9 - N51 ACCOUNTANCY (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)

10 - T09 LAW & MANAGEMENT (TEMASEK
POLYTECHNIC)

11 - T18 CULINARY & CATERING MANAGEMENT
(TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

12 - NIL

Hopefully I will get into something that I want.

2010-01-10T16:51:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the cell's Thanksgiving Gathering held at TP Level 5 Room 6.
It was the usual room that we used for our preparation of the mission trip to Myanmar last year.
The email told us to be there at 10.45 sharp.
Somehow, due to testing out a different bus route to TP, I was there 45mins earlier.
Walking in was easy.
The student leaders that was to bring the visitors around was standing around the overhead bridge.
Not sure whether I look like a student from TP but I was not approached.
I think the year 3 students had classes yesterday as a lot of them were coming out of the lecture theater.
Waited for UCL outside his office.
He came then bring the plates etc to somewhere.
Soon Joan and Charisse came then went buy drinks.
Then Samuel and Bio came.
Sit there just talked.
Took some pictures then rest of cell came and had pizza for lunch.
The programme started around 12.30.
Photos of mission trip.
At 1pm, due to Jon, Carmen and Jolene leaving.
AP showed us old photos from sunday school.
Whole day was showing old photos of some which I cant remember it actually happened.
One of them which I was in was a trip to the esplanade, didnt remember that.
Another was a trip to west coast for Christmas.
That I remembered.
While looking at the photos, had ice cream cake.
Took turns to share our own personal testimony about the recent Myanmar mission trip.
And here's mine.

Before the Mission trip

I did not really expect much from the mission trip, thought of it as a normal trip except for the living conditions there. I felt that I had been well prepared for the trip in learning the language by going through it every fortnight and trying to do the teddy bear balloon during my free time.

During the Mission Trip

Living conditions at Yangon was much better than I thought it was, so was it just came to mind that at Pathein it will not be that bad. During bus ride to Pathein, at some parts of the road, I saw women are the ones to repair the road with rocks. When I saw this, I had expected the people repairing the roads to be men. It looked very pitiful of them to be carrying rocks to repair the road under the hot sun for days.

At Pathein, the children at the orphanage gave me warmth, joyous and close feeling. Though it is the first time meet and seeing them, the way the children communicate with me while doing the activities makes me feel like it is not the first time knowing them. One thing that certainly surprised me was how much they would go for to thank a person and show their gratitude.

After the Mission Trip

One thing I missed is the warm and joy I had experienced there at Pathein. On looking back on the mission trip during the telematch, something I should learn from Marcus is to be as energetic as him for the children during telematch.

I learn that going for a mission trip to serve God’s people is commitment to the Lord, sharing God’s blessings on me with others and is like a test of faith in God.

Romans 12: 11 - 13
Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God’s people who are in need. Practise hospitality.

After all the sharing of photos and testimonies.
Was like 5.30.
Went for an early dinner with Edmund, Marcus, Samuel, JianZhong at TP business canteen.
Marcus went home first while the rest of us was trying to decide to go for service or go home.
Stood at the overhead bridge there talking about for like 20mins.
In end, decided go to JianZhong house.
Bused there to j8 while talking about the cell's present and future, about mission trips, past events and about AP and UCL.
Decided not to go jianzhong house so just stayed at j8 to talk.
Left J8 at 8 then went home.

2010-01-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

Today is first day of all polys open house.
Arranged to meet jeni, wei and navan at 1pm at AMK Cheers but seriously there is 3 outlets there.
In end we all down there, waiting for each other at different outlets.
Met at the underpass the Cheers.
In end they not hungry so left to go NP.
Walked around NP.
Went to the convention centre first.
On my mind, was hoping not to see anyone I know.
Confirm will be like shocked.
When going out of the convention centre, really saw someone I know and is Tina.
Really small singapore.
Haha.
Went to see the School of business as wei interested in some course there while jeni interested in ACC.
Look awhile inside then went out.
Go to other schools eg Health Science.
On way to School of media, met another 2 friends, Carmen Chan and Jolene.
Ok Singapore really cramp la.
Then gauwei come when we wanted leave NP.
Walked to bus stop, met another friend, Carmen lim.
Sian liao la.
Yl and angel called say they there.
In end we didnt leave NP, just walked around there let them see their course they interested.
5+ Gauwei, navan, wei and me went play pool.
Play score was me and wei : Gauwei and Navan, 3 : 1
The 1 they win cause I accidentally hit black ball in.
When leaving, realised Jacky and his friends there.
Jacky said I training pool secretly today as I went with him pool yesterday.
Dinner then back home.
Tomorrow going TP then to church and yes, Sat is yet again TP then to church.
Sounds like a total repeat of life.
Haha.
Anyway both days the plans are different.
Sat plans more looking forward.
Results are on Monday, not really stressed out or nervous about it yet.
Is either I am weird or no feeling.
Haha.
Tired.
Probably going sleep soon.
This is so not me.
Haha.

2010-01-03T00:24:00.003+08:00

1st post of the year 2010.
I have only one thing to say about church today and it is SWEEEEEET!
Met up with the cell (Excluding AP and UCL) at 302 to prepare for video taking!!!
We used paper plates to write on them 'THANK YOU! =)' and on the other side of it smiley faces.
The interview was like stun for words.
Didn't really know what to say about UCL only know what to say about AP.
We did quite a few NGs.
Then the cell did a song for them.
It will certainly surprise them on graduation day.
Ate lunch at 5pm.
Those who went for ONE Camp went meet their groups.
Rest of us slack in our OLD CELL ROOM.
One thing I realise is that without any cell, it is so boring.
Sadly, time cannot be written over and over again.
At least I know that WHF will always exist.
Service started off with the cheers of the tribal groups in the ONE Camp.
Sermon was excellent! Senior Pastor Derek preach on 2 Cor 5: 16 -21.
Really can learn points from those verses.
Worship was HYPER!
Next week also will be.
Kind of cool.
Anyway was asked a question regarding becoming a leader.
I think if I'm asked again, I will definitely say yes.
As I have learn that at that time where I think is impossible is wrong.
There is always a next time. Haha.
Growing to love church more and more, this is so cool.

2 Jan, time to abandon the things of 2009 and strive forward for God in 2010!!!

Edit:
1.30AM
My QT was amazing.
Got a verse that was referring to what I told my friend.
And what I told my friend is wrong.
No more doubts!
1Year is more than enough.

2009-12-26T21:54:00.006+08:00

I still have not blog about last Saturday as didnt want to ruin mission trip post.
Last Saturday, 6.8'05 HGPS had class bbq!
Not really class but more like clique.
Suppose meet Tirta, HuiQuan, Jacky, Josephine and ZhengWei at Hougang Interchange at 12.30.
In end only ZhengWei, Tirta and me there.
By time board bus, was around 1.30 and Josephine not with us but got BuanHeng.
We went to E-Hub buy the food, grill, utensils etc at the fairprice there then Josephine came.
Carried the things to Pasir Ris Park.

Reached pit 27 around 4pm.
Things there was a bit wet due to rain.
Sit there chit-chat for awhile while eating potato chips.

Buan Heng went settle the pit.
Then tried to start the bbq.

So windy until the flame keep extinguish.
Used all the firestarter we bought but still no fire.
Called Keven to buy more.
Got everything and someone to teach us at around 7.
HuiQuan cooked like all the food, BuanHeng and me prepared the sotong rings and fish.
Got people like Amanda,Keven, Zixiang, Eleanor, Kenny, Eunice and Carmen came.

Blogging this in a rush.
Trying to settle my testimony.

2009-12-17T00:36:00.012+08:00

Yo, I'm back from my mission trip to Pathein, Myanmar.
It sure is a nice experience for me.
Just want to thank God for being the provider, protector of this trip.
This is what I think all of us felt.
Note: All timings are Pathein, Myanmar.

Day 1, 10 December 2009 Thursday

6:00 (SG Time)
Dropped off at Changi Airport Terminal 2.
Met with Marcus, Samuel, Bio, Tina, Gerald and their parents.
We helped Aunty Pauline and Uncle Choon Leng with the tapping of the "Aunty Bags" to make it easier for us to recognize them.
Soon Jolene, Carmen, Joan and Edmund came.
Jolene, Carmen, Bio and me check-in as one group while the rest in another.
Check-in was long as the person service us was like so inefficient.
Heard Cherlene was not coming due to her fever.
The 12 man mission trip group and the members' parents all went Mac to eat breakfast.

7:25 (SG Time)
Bio' father prayed for the group and it was time for us to enter.
I found the new automatic system to enter very easy to use. Haha.
We rushed to board the plane.
Was like so boring, practically reading book and newspapers for the whole flight.
Reason for that was I was sitting alone. LOL.

9:20
Finally reached Yangon, Myanmar.
Took a coach to Tamanda Hotel.
One thing for sure, it was better than I expected it to be.
304 - Carmen and Jolene
305 - Samuel, Bio and me
306 - Edmund, Marcus and Gerald
311 - Aunty Pauline and Uncle Choon Ling
312 - Tina and Joan
After bringing in luggage into our rooms.
Went to a nearby market to exchange money and went to eat "Shang" Noodles.
For me, I ordered some type of dry noodles.
It had pork ribs in it.
Ok la.
Most people had order like beef basket noodles.
Inside got this caterpillar like ingredient.
I tried it, turns out to be quite nice.
Probably I was too hungry.
Bought materials that some of us left at our homes in Singapore.
Also bought food, mainly snacks for our next day 5hr bus ride to Pathein.
Back to hotel for a while then meet at lobby again.

17:20
Uncle Choon Leng brought us to Silk Air to check on Tina and Gerald's tickets.
This was like the second miracle that happen through the preparation of trip to beginning of trip.
Tina actually got her ticket on the same flight as rest of us.
However, Gerald did not get his ticket.
Left Silk Air, walked around China Town.
Walked for 3hrs I think.
Keep seeing the same things.
Bought non roasted cashew nuts.
Samuel bought tangerines.
By then around 8:30 liao.
All of us too tired to go else where.
So ate at the hotel restaurant.
Had some type of Japanese food.
First night devotion led by Samuel.
Found out need prepare word for it.
After devotion had debrief and plans on the next day things.
Went sleep at 00:20

Day 2, 11 December 2009 Friday

5:00
You maybe wondering why I woke up so early.
Reason for that is I set my phone alarm at 06:30 but as there is a 1hr 30mins differences, I woke up early.
So blur until went bath and just to come out that it was not time yet.
Read my book until 06:00 to morning call the girls.

7:00
Went down with Bio and Samuel for breakfast.
Didnt even notice that it was a two-sided menu, so all 3 of us ordered the American Breakfast.
Not that nice, like the usual.

8:00
Had morning devotion led by Tina until 8:30
Went back rooms to back and off for bus ride to Pathein.

9:30
Bus left Tamanda Hotel.
I fell asleep for 30mins.
Ride was boring.
5hours ride, how can be not boring.
Was trying to sleep through whole journey.
Ride was super bumpy.
At 12:00, only reach half way point.
Freshen up while driver went eat.
12:30, continued to the journey there.
Ate some chips I bought then Uncle Choon Leng taught us how do the teddy bear balloon.
Fairly easy.
That time in Singapore, I tried, shouldnt have give up.

14:30
Reached Pathein, dropped off the "Aunty Bags" of clothes at the orphanage.
Met the director of the orphanage.
Took the coach to the hotel where we were going to stay for several days.
201 - Aunty Pauline and Uncle Choon Leng
202 - Tina and Joan
203 - Jolene and Carmen
205 - Samuel, Bio and me
206 - Edmund, Gerald and Marcus
Walked to the chinese restaurant which Uncle Choon Leng said was nice.
Reached there at 15:00.
Order a dishes and rice with soup.
Lunch came like at 15:45
Finished eating at 16:30.
Went back hotel, get things for balloon sculpturing.
Reach there, had a big welcome.
It felt weird.
Compare to Redhill Outreach, this is nothing like it.
Singapore kids where got do such things.

All singing so loudly.

Did balloon sculpturing for like from 18:30 - 22:30
At first was to show them how do the dog but the children just keep taking balloons giving us do.
In end the table had many "orphan" balloons.
Gave them away then photo-taking.

Balloon Dogs

So many balloons.

In the meantime, the rest of us continued to make the other types like flower, teddy bear etc.
Gerald and Edmund demonstrated the flower, Uncle Choon Leng, Carmen and me demo the teddy bear.
Soon, the children kept asking us to make either teddy bear or flower.
Was like in a rush making.
After the balloon sculpturing session, went eat dinner.
Dinner was like at a pub with this extremely talkative waiter.
Talked to me about a beautiful beach at Pathein.
I got to say that his English is fantastic.
He asked a question, "why are you spying at me?" when it was suppose to be " why are you smiling at me?"
Super joker.
Devotion was led by Edmund.
Devotion under the stars, sounds nice to do.
Really under the stars.
It was like you would want to sing the song Indescribable as worship.
Showering was like you dont even want to get under the water.
Too COLD.
Everyone was like shouting as it was cold.
If I was not wrong, that day , Joan said got a big lizard drop on her pillow.

Day 3, 12 December 2009 Saturday

4:45
This time is not set my phone time wrongly but due to being extremely blur when I got woke up by Samuel.
Had to wake at 6 but never mind since I wake up, wont sleep.
6:00 as usual, morning call.

7:00
Met downstairs, went to a nearby place for breakfast.
By time breakfast and went back was like 9:00
Tour the place where they stay.

Front view

Balloons made by us, hanged by them like christmas decorations

Pig just outside.
Went to orphanage to start the Art and Craft Session.
They were to do puppets.

First started with drawing out and colouring their drawn-out hand.

Raymond with his decorated puppet.

Super Bio helping out.

Samuel, Joan and Tina with the children.

Come on people! Show me your puppets!

After that session, some came up and asked us to sign.
It was like treated like some big-shot VIP.
Everyone was like smiling away.
Lunch at same place as the lunch at previous day.
I only remember that day we had a "steam chicken with medicine drug soup" which was herbal chicken.

14:15
Reach back at the orphanage to do the telematch.

First game was to hold a ping pong ball using the leg and hop through a course.

COME ON! CHEER LOUDER!

Second game was using paper plates and got like 7-8 people to cross the "river"
Third game was like need hold people hand and go through the balloon hop.
Next game was bowling, super messy.
Last game was the Scissors, paper, stone.
My group was Paul, helping was our team leader Tina, Bio and Joan.
Ended at 16:15
Then teach the older children to do the fish tank.
Took like 1hr 15mins.

Went dinner at same old place.
While waiting for dinner, learn how play bridge.
At night was double devotion since morning missed.
It was led by Joan and Marcus.
Edmund that day was like super tired.
After bathing etc, all of us except Aunty Pauline and Uncle Chong Leng went to 207.
Watched Chelsea vs Everton while rest played monopoly card game.
Monopoly card game taught by Carmen and Jolene.
Football was a draw, then went sleep.

Day 4, 13 December 2009 Sunday

6:00
Usual morning call, didnt have breakfast, went straight there.
Started at 7:15
Had the children do the Photo frame for close to 2hours.

Materials for photo frame. (Feathers, Macaroni, Leftover eyes and noses from puppets, stickers, some shiny things)

Time to start decorating!

Show me your frames.

Children again, asked us to sign.
Can really feel touched.
Redhill Outreach the kids will never do this.

Sang blessing song to them and they sang a song for us.

Gift for the director presented by Uncle Choon Leng.

Morning devotion was done there while children went to their service.
It was done by Carmen.
Shared something that felt like the guilt of not going for the previous mission trip.

Girls

Guys

(Edmund's Camera has it)
Took group photos at hotel.

Went buy supplies for goodies bags and had lunch.
While waiting for the rest to buy the snacks for the children, Gerald,Carmen, Jolene, Joan, Tina and me played some games.

First Game of Mochichi

Second Game of Mochichi

Bio's Explanation of Mochichi

Bio's Impression of FootBall

Bio's Impression of FootBall Part II: Liverpool Vs Arsenal

(Note: One video is only to be shown to cell members, it would not be shown here)
The video is super funny.

Packed the goodies bags and went to orphanage.
Had to sit that trishaw, the ride felt like the journey from Yangon to Pathein except it was closer.
Aunty Pauline and Uncle Choon Leng went buy eggs and rice while the rest of us did a card for them.

Behind the scenes.
Gave the goodies bags to the children.
Took pictures and left.

Walked by the harbor but as it was dark, cant see anything.
Played bridge, taught by Joan.
Dinner at same place.
Devotion at night led by me.
Watched Liverpool vs Arsenal for a while and unexpectedly fell asleep.
At least Arsenal won.

Day 5, 14 December 2009 Monday

Had morning devotion led by Jolene.
Followed by breakfast and packing of luggage.
Director of orphanage send us off.
This time, I really enjoy the bus ride back for some unknown reason.
Reached Yangon at 3: 20
Had lunch there at hotel, most of us talking about the 10years of being under Aunty Pauline.
All those flashbacks of those times.
Went to Silk Air and found out Gerald ticket has been confirmed.
Just so amazing.
Went to lan shop to email parents.
Had to meet at 20:00 for dinner but the usual 10 of us in room playing bridge so late.
Dinner was like everyone cant eat.
Shared pizza with Bio, Carmen and Jolene.
Then played bridge.
Devotion led by Bio.
This devotion was filled with tears.
Even just recalling about this, what Aunty Pauline and Marcus said, can really make me depress.

Day 6, 15 December 2009 Tuesday

1:30
Started to play bridge for 30mins and took photos.

Normal

Flying?

Super Bio

PokkaFace
I'm sure everyone felt closer through this trip.

Went sleep then meet the 10 of us for breakfast.
Had morning devotion led by Gerald.
After it, took some photos then off to Bogyoke Aung San Market.
Went buy things at Bogyoke Aung San Market, all 10 of us same design for shirt.
Will be damn cool when all of us wearing.

Took plane at 4:30.
Sat alone again.
Anyway was tired, so maybe the peace was good.
Reached SG at 9:15 (SG Time)
Upload photos etc.
This mission trip really taught me a lot.
Just like what Edmund shared about what we learn about the true meaning of blessed to be a blessing.
The way God multiplied the glue until it was even enough for the fish tank making.
The way God did the tickets for Bio, Tina and Gerald.
Maybe to those non-christians, it would seem to be a coincidence.
Thank God for this wonderful, amazing mission trip.
Just want to thank Aunty Pauline for the years of taking care of us through cell, watching over us and believing in us, the passion she shared with us on going for missions and many other things that is too much to mention.
Also for Uncle Chong Leng for being so encouraging and patient with all of us.
I want to go for another mission and this mission should have been longer.

12hours to write all of this.
13hours to completely edit everything. (Incomplete)
14hours, now I remember why I hate blogger video. Testing something.(Done)

God Bless,
Benedict

Lord, I give you my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be your hands and feet

2009-12-10T01:14:00.001+08:00

Ok. A quick post before I sleep.
In 4 hours time, going to airport.
Back on tuesday.
So cya

2009-12-08T03:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm, last week really nothing much la.
Garena getting boring.
Nothing to play.
Thursday went for last training for mission trip.
This time learn balloon sculpturing.
Freaking hard.
Until now, only know 5animals, flower (Not gd at it), sword.
Like really cmi siah.
Saturday, reached church at 11am then started to downpour.
So waited at hawker for rain to stop but never.
Lucky Pst Peter help me borrow umbrella.
I went early coz of some sec4 transition program to the JPI segment.
The program for that week was amazing race.
Due to rain, started at around 1.30?
A lot of people from cell didnt go.
Only got me and Tina.
Total people from Secondary segment only got 12.
So split in 3groups.
The group I was in names easy remember, all the names, I have friends who have them.
Got Amanda, Valerie, Ben, Markus/Marcus (Not sure) and Johnathan.
First stop, IKEA.
Had to find 3 items which had the Swedish given.
Our group first to find.
Went for lunch to do 2nd task.
After eating went play a game within the group.
Test ur lying skills.
Went do 3rd task at cold storage.
4th task was at some shopping mall the arcade.
Objective, to take pic of 4 of us playing mario cart.
LOL.
Went thr, they say no cameras allowed.
Just break the rules la.
Took liao, went last station at Orchard.
Lazy do last task.
So went eat snacks.
Return back to church etc.
Then as usual.
Yesterday, watched bleach movies.
At night, went look for ribbons for the mission trip.
Found but not sure whether suitable.
Bought like 5 novels, one of which I already have.
So better start reading.
Haha.
Just left a few more days.
Still not prepared.
Dunno what to do.
I go sleep liao.

2009-11-28T01:37:00.010+08:00

2 weeks never blog, better blog.
After the chinese listening on 16nov, went watch 2012 at orchard cineleisure at night.
Movie was quite nice, kind of reminded me of Noah's Ark at the end of the movie.

17 nov Tuesday was like chionging bleach.

18nov Wednesday, went play basketball with raj, navan, chenwei, jingze and bp from 11am - 2pm.
After is damn tired la.

19 Nov Thursday. Went to Temaske Poly for Mission Trip training. Never eat dinner.
It was from 6.30-9.30. Had to bring home some clothes to pack for children there.

20Nov Friday, went to Novena with chenwei navan to play ps3 and xbox360.
Ok la. The rock band game most fun among the rest of games.

25Nov, went meet up with pri sch classmates.
Been waiting for this so long.
Bused to hougang mall to meet keven and eleanor.
Then Buanheng came.
Huiquan called keven, we 4 rushed to NTUC to avoid him. Haha.
At there, met Zheming by chance.
Soon huiquan, zixiang, jacky came.
Tried contacting others but all at that hour of 12+ sleeping.
Left NTUC after buying some things.
Met Josephine and michelle at station.
We were like waiting for michelle very long coz she was waiting for subway cookies to be packed.
Train to Marina Station. Met Ms Chan there.
Took shuttle bus to Marina Barrage while Jacky and Zixiang wait for Amanda.
The rest of us were to Marina Barrage, set up other things.
Then Jacky, Zixiang and amanda came.
Ate there and mostly chat with them.
Ms Chan keep forgetting Jacky is POA student. Haha.
Before leaving took group photos and photos in train.
Jacky, keven, zixiang, huiquan, josephine, eleanor and me went play pool at kovan.
Played from like 7-8.30, half way huiquan left.
The remaining of us went eat dinner.
Then went back home.

Photos: Thanks To Josephine

Marina Barrage at the dam.

Keven's home-baked cookies.

Group Photos!!!

26 Nov, went Temaske Poly for the Myanmar Mission Trip Training.
Learnt how speak the numbers in myanmar language.
That day also had to bring home 20k bag of clothes.
Still need bring to the airport. Zzz.

27 Nov, went near TP for cell group end year party.
Reached the condo at 12, went to help out.
2.30 when leaving, had to do a forfeit.
In end they talk talk talk, til no need do.
Went watch New Moon with bp, yl, angel and angel's sister.
Felt book was nicer than movie.

28Nov/29Nov, whole day doing movie download, watching anime and playing game.
I slowly taking my time blog.
Also time catch up on sleep.
Tit Tar (Byebye in Myanmar Language)

2009-11-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

Been a month liao since last blog.
Many things happened, now coming to the end of O level.
Like really fast lor.
Dunno what to blog.
Maybe will close it.

2009-10-04T20:39:00.002+08:00

Ok. For some time now, have not blog.
Busy doing homework at times.
Haha.
During this week, some things happened.
One was like out of a sudden, Fedeline called me Daddy.
LOL.
Then this whole week used to it liao.
I got a daughter of the same age. Haha.
Got a lot of test papers to do.
Chinese class become a combine class taught by vice principal.
Results quite bad.
Yesterday, went Redhill.
Somehow, children will just want to pull you down. LOL.
I go study liao.

2009-09-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, went Redhill Outreach.
Same usual things.
Sunday, completed to current episode of One Piece.
Watched in 2 weeks.
Today, kind of sux.
Not feeling well in school.
Still do the MCQ and Amaths P2.
Not very confident will do well.
Went home until now, still not well.
I think I go sleep earlier than usual today.

2009-09-12T22:35:00.002+08:00

Past few days sleeping at 3am.
Damn siao la.
Need chiong geog.
FREAK.
Extra class boring.
Quite informative.
Nothing much to blog la.

2009-09-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

1week school holiday but I need to mug.
Prelims are such a pain. LOL.
Happy Birthday Chen Wei.
Sorry no present.
Haha.
My mission trip has been confirmed liao.
Now just need pay visa, air ticket etc.
Tomorrow need wake up early haiz.
Dunno what to blog also.

2009-08-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

First up, Happy Birthday Angeline Ang and Amanda Toh.
Passed present to Angeline in morning.
Had English Exam today.
Compo topic was Journey but I wrote Spiritual Journey.
Not sure whether can or not.
Compre was like hard lor.
Didnt't really understand the passage.
After exam, met a few of my seniors who came back to visit.
Suppose to go with Angeline to meet primary school friends.
In end canceled.
Sian, so long never see them.
Hopefully after 'O's can go see them.
Went lunch and came back home.
Played a few games with Bp, Wei, Ze, Navan, WL.
Fun games.
Tomorrow would need revise for science.
Wed, need revise SS. Thursday is for Emaths?
Not sure. Haha.
And lastly, Happy Teachers' Day to all Teachers.

Incomplete

2009-08-29T00:43:00.003+08:00

Thursday's Chem Mock Paper 2 was freaking hard lor.
Doubt can pass.
MCQ already fail liao.
Today get back Emaths Mock Paper 1 back.
Lucky this one just nice 75% and above.
But still below expectations.
Play a bit of dota with chenwei, navan, bp, wl, zeze.
Quite challenging bah especially since we all so long never play.
Next monday is the start of prelims which is also the day of Angeline's birthday and we are hopefully going meet primary school classmates.
I cant remember when was the last time.
Not sure whether our chinese teacher still there.
Perhaps like every year call ms chan.
So late liao.
Going to sleep soon.
Tomorrow need get present and go church but first, a note.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, mp3 player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 15 friends
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Harmony - Monk & Neagle

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Reason

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
One Day - Hillsongs

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Wish You Away - There For Tomorrow

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
If I was The One - Stevie Hoang

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Take Me Back - Story of The Year

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Holding On - Simple Plan

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
None but Jesus =)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Desperate - David Archuleta

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Bleeding Love

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Take My Hand

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
We were meant to be

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Bring me back

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
夜曲

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
BYE BYE BYE

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Finding Who We Are

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Uncreated One

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
什么什么

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Whatever It Takes

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Something That I Already Know

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Unfailing Love

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Apologize o.0

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Welcome To My Style

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
What If - Simple Plan. What if I cant go on without you.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
You Make Me Wanna

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Perfect Love. LOL.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
That's What You Get

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Let Go. Haiz

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Here Without You

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Incomplete

2009-08-21T20:49:00.003+08:00

Today got those two test that I didnt really want to take.
Got back my SS SBQ which I did on Wednesday.
6/7 Not bad la.
Then had the SS and Geog test.
SS was easier than expected.
Geog was like haiz.
PE was like sian.
I just slack.
Maths okok.
Stayed back in school a while.
Reading Harry Potter book, until Mrs Tay calling me Benedict Potter -.-''
Came back home, dota a while.
Never imagine I go back to dota.
After all I quit that time to play another game.
I think I have made up my mind about the nomination of cell leader.
Hopefully I won't regret.
2 weeks more to Prelims.
O Levels coming.
Soon probably can enjoy?
Hope so bah.
I see class like this year not the same.
Just feel like facepalm.
2009 thumbs down.

2009-08-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

Haha.
I have done my O level English Oral.
Great.
Finally done with that.
Not as if it was a chore or something but at least something is done.
Can say it was my first paper. LOL.
My topic was on smoking and some guilty thing.
Felt like saying that thing but in end didnt.
Said another one.
Yesterday was Mother Tongue papers out.
Grate to Angeline and SohMing to get that A1 for Chinese.
That physic mock exam also.
Today had Chemistry test.
Tomorrow got both SS and Geog test.
Flooded with test siah.
Not to mention in two weeks time, Prelims are starting.
Hmm, this few days, I have been playing back a bit of dota.
Skill is really like bad.
I'm still deciding which to go.
Whether it is prom or chalet.
Chalet on 1-4 Dec.
I thinking of going for both. ^^
Another thing that I have not made up my mind.
The cell leader nomination.
Just want to talk to someone about it.
Like no one would know.
I have not really mug for tomorrow tests.
Confirm GG.
Well, I guess I got to then.
Hope I wont fall sick.
During oral, had slight fever.

2009-08-16T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ok. Another person taken ill this week again.
All better get well hor.
Hmm.
Have to decide between either to go for Prom or Class Chalet.
If chalet 3days 2 nights, I probably want go prom first then chalet.
Next week also is O level English Oral.
DIE LA.
Another decision I would have to make is whether I should leave my current cell and try for training leader in COOS.
Not sure whether should leave leh.
I think in that cell for 6years liao.
Also not sure whether my cell still got any other nominees.
Heard from Pastor John, they shortlisted 10people.
Planning to talk to Aunty Pauline about this, not sure whether should.
This really gave me a shock la.
1.30am liao.
Was challenging Mr Oei buy pets.

2009-08-10T01:46:00.002+08:00

Huiyu mei sick.
So many people sick.
I think I also falling sick.
Got to go rest.

2009-08-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

I am beginning to understand why Aunty Pauline always tell us to memorize memory verse.
Today was memorizing and meditating on Psalms 1.
I really like verse 2 and 3.
V2. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.
V3. He is like a tree planted by the streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.
Judging from yesterday's post, you could say I was discouraged to make amendments and dishearten.
I now look at this 2 verses as a God's promise.
v2 is being the act while v3 is the his promise.
I want this endless promise of God.
And for Luck 1: 37, anything is impossible with God.
I just want to say, I believe in this.
I know that it is in God's plan.
It just keeps me thinking about what Pastor Victor said.
Peacemaker.
Peacemaker is not only for other people's relationships but is also for the peacemaker's.
Peacemaker is one who would be willing to take the first step to change things.
Yes, I believe in what Pastor Victor prophetised over me.
I want to take that leap of faith, not only for myself but for God.
Praise the Lord!

2009-08-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

I want make changes but I'm doubted.
Said to be acting cool or showing attitude.
I always hear that repentance is the first step for forgiveness.
Now I just feel like not believing in it.
Come to think of it, my primary school friends were probably right about me.
I think I will just come online on weekends from now onwards.
I really want to escape from reality.
Maybe next week or two weeks later then blog or at most, just completely stop blogging.
In first place, there will always be nothing to blog.

2009-08-07T21:09:00.006+08:00

Not going lock my blog anymore.
If ask why, got no particular reason.
Just felt like doing it.

Yesterday, had my 'O' Level SPA Skill 3.
It really was hard.
Had to rewrite my report twice.
Just couldnt make up my mind on the method.
Write one then change then change again.
After that SPA, Broccoli Monster went check with his brother the method.
My method correct.
Hopefully can do well for SPA.
Rushed back home get my Bio TYS then rush back school.
So skipped lunch.

Today, boring day in school.
Kor came back to visit school.
Boring day at home also.
Hmm, just a random thought.
Even if you are close friends, .
the more likely things will fall apart.
No hidden meaning, just being random.
Lost Prophets - Rooftops

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

Actually, if there is anyone who knows me well enough, would see this.
I'm just sorry to all to I have offended like Bp, Xs, Ys and many others
I appear to be able to fit in with everyone but I dont feel like that.
Actually, thanks 4 bein to know you all even though it wont be same.

2009-08-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, went Redhill outreach again.
6 of us doing this time.
Rather little.
Damn sad la.
Children there call me Uncle.
I got that old meh?
Service was like I was the ONLY boy from cell.
All pangseh me siah.
Today, Jenisha's birthday.
So Happy Birthday!!
At least you enjoyed yours unlike mine.
Which is good.
AMC tomorrow.
Die la.

2009-07-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

Haiz, though it is a school night and I should be sleeping, I just cant sleep.
I really want to talk to you like last time.
Or should I say it is going to be a dream.
Time seems to move very slow when talking to you all stops.
I got no idea what am I doing la.
Everyday Play games like to escape reality like that.
Banning myself from Asiasoft games just cause scare will remind me of you.
But also not working.
I also not sure whether I wan to go on mission trip just to escape from here.
I already feeling out of place in class.
It just seems that way.

Trying to fit in with others, pretending not knowing who you are..
I AM DAMN HOPELESS..

2009-07-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

22nd July, 222 post.
Yet it comes back down to this.
Again it just passes by.
I know the day will never come.

Rooftops - Lost Prophets

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

2009-07-19T01:04:00.003+08:00

Haiz, one not very close senior from school pass away last week.
Life is so fragile.
School was rather boring.
Yesterday cell was ok.
Memorised memory verse.
So many verse.
Lucky I did well for it.
No sermon today for service but more like people experiences on missions.
Guess what?
I'm going on mission trip at the end year.
Like finally I'm going but then go for 5days, don't want leave things behind.
Details all not confirm.
Only confirm that I'm going.
Today would need rush through a lot of maths homework, study English vocab test.
Busy day it will be.
Yesterday also met my friend from ACS who was quarantine this week.
Hope tomorrow can go school.

As usual watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn.
Found one ending song lyrics nice.
Translated.

Mori Tsubasa - Suberidai

The dancing, fluttering

happiness
The trembling warmth

No matter how I struggled
I couldn’t catch it, like always
No matter how hard I sketched
I couldn’t draw it, like always

Yesterday, I understood that
We can’t meet each other again
I understood that
I took two pieces of tissue home with me

The dancing, fluttering happiness
The trembling warmth
“Someday, I promise to make you happy”
The voice that day was just my imagination

By knowing separation, it seems that we can become strong
It’s fine even if we can’t become stronger than this
It changed yesterday
The bad things changed yesterday
Just as you said, I’m a bad person

The fluttering hand that was pressed against my hair tenderly
The sparkling ring that was removed from your finger
You laughed a little fakely, didn’t you?
I saw it from further than usual
I didn’t say anything

The slide you saw
When your teary eyes averted my gaze in the park
I can’t remember if it was a giraffe or an elephant
Even though I remember thinking
“I want to protect you”

The dancing, fluttering happiness
The trembling warmth
“Someday, I promise to make you happy”
The voice that day was just my imagination

Ok got to go liao.

2009-07-05T20:38:00.003+08:00

Keep wanting to blog but keep forgetting to blog.
Ok, shall blog about last week first followed by this week.
Last Saturday was YES - Bejeweled.
Reach Church there around 1.15
Quickly ate lunch then went meet up with the YES committee.
Helped with deco then went to blk 40A room 1 for prayer.
Had some briefing.
I was paired with Justin who was doing prophetic arts.
Went to my station.
First person was a sec 4 named Krystal.
She the only newcomer that I was able to relate to.
Jurong West Sec. Blablabla.
Talked about lots of things.
Next few were harder as they were NS, Poly or Uni.
Sermon was by Pastor Victor.
After service, ate with Josiah, Jon and Edmund.
Took bus with Josiah, trusting him that he could bring us to Bishan safely.
His motive of taking bus was to follow Joan.
Alight same bus stop as her, realised that Nicole was with her.
Suppose to take 156 to Bishan, in end we follow her taking another bus.
We talked to Joan and found out that she was not going Bishan.
Josiah was very ps, we alight and took bus that was heading to Bishan.
That night something happen but was rather sad la.
Monday, went school.
Boring.
Thursday, some had Chinese oral.
WeeLiang, Brandon, MingHao and me went lunch outside school while waiting for rest to come out.
They sad, oral question was hard.
Yesterday, I had RedHill Outreach.
2months since I last went there.
Reach RedHill Mrt Station, found Samuel there only.
Waited awhile then went to the block.
First activity was Samuel' s magic trick.
Ok la.
Next was Edmund and Josiah' s games.
Tried Polar Bear and blow wind blow with the kids but they don't understand.
Last resort was London Bridge is falling down. LOL.
Sianz lor, was asked to pair with Jolene.
After that game, one girl went ask her, is he your bf?
Then come ask me whether she my gf.
Crazy siah.
I know kids are innocent but woah can they think of such things.
After the whole outreach, bus to church.
Then rest as per normal.
Cant believe I took 3hrs+ just to blog this.
Now 1am. Better do more work.

2009-06-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

Today movie was ok.
Only problem is like very awkward to talk to yunling, angeline and jenisha.
After movie, by chance met ms mok and ms tan.
Ms mok avoided our question on her leaving.
Walked round plaza.
Then took train to AMK.
Angeline and Jenisha left first, yunling followed them.
Wei,navan me looking place eat, receive yunling call say wan join us.
Went eat at sumo house.
Food ok.
Took bus home.
BLablabla.
Tmr got YES.
Helping again.

2009-06-25T01:06:00.003+08:00

I addicted to There For Tomorrow - Burn the Night Away.
LOL.
You got to get well hor.
School going to reopen liao.
If need help, can ask me.
Since miss mok leaving liao, I not sure I can get the notes for the other chapters I have learn.
As I still am holding that promise to you.
Looks like I got two promises to hold on to.
I dunno what to blog leh.
Cant sleep.

2009-06-23T00:15:00.002+08:00

Never seen you online since Saturday.
Hope you're all right.
Later need chiong homework.
I want watch transformers.
Who want watch?

2009-06-20T10:04:00.002+08:00

2nd post for the day.
After blogging early this morning, nose bleed.
So now, whole day have not slept.
I doubt sleep would clear my worries about you and troubles.
You got to get well.
Always come back from Indonesia, will fall sick.

There For Tomorrow - Deathbed

I'd hate to break it to you now
But that reoccurring sound
In your ear
Makes it perfect
Was it clear, my whole purpose?
I'm just fine with or without
Having this inner selfish doubt
I'll fall hard
You'll fall harder
I'm along
You're too startled

Break a sweat, desparate lover
Do you feel all alone?

I fell asleep on your deathbed
In a hole where your head rests
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I just close my eyes and
Fall asleep on your deathbed
Can we be resurrected?
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I'm your saint, will you be my savior?

I always hoped to bring this down
Words exchanging all around
You spoke quick, I spoke faster
Take your pick, take mine after
But the time went ticking
And hearts went missing
It's not what I waited on

Break a sweat, desparate lover
Do you feel all alone?

I fell asleep on your deathbed
In a hole where your head rests
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I just close my eyes and
Fall asleep on your deathbed
Can we be resurrected?
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I'm your saint, will you be my savior?
Will you be my savior?

We both agreed that this was best
But I can't risk to lose my rest
I closed my eyes now you're well on your way
I bend and fold at your request
Now it's my time to take a step
I closed my eyes now you're well on your way

I fell asleep on your deathbed
In a hole where your head rests
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I just close my eyes and
Fall asleep on your deathbed
Can we be resurrected?
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I'm your saint, will you be my savior?

The Arrival - Forget About The Forecast

You seem to know a thing
or two about keeping me away from
you
Now I'm afraid
you're in over your
head
This second guessing has got
to end

Are you ready to give up
everything

that we have?
Admit
you can't commit to me or
anything else
And don't
call it love if it scares you
away
So what are you waiting
for?

I can be your umbrella
baby, so get over yourself and get
under me
When you're
feeling under the weather,
I'll rescue you whenever
you're in need
I can be
your umbrella baby, so get over
yourself and get under me
When
you're feeling under the
weather, I'll shelter you
from any storm we see

You
thought this would be easy, but I
won't let you let me go
Run
into my arms or just run away
You
keep leading me on but girl your
feelings can change
Let this be
the beginning, or let this be the
end

Your lips tremble when they
brush against mine
Your breathing
quickens whenever I walk
by
There's something you
see in me that you've never
found before
So what's
keeping you away?

2009-06-20T05:34:00.000+08:00

Today is the day.
3months of you ignoring me.
Still got 1 year 4 months until your O level finish.
I'll wait for it.
Haiz. Idk whether u still angry over the tag box incident.
Hope u are no more angry.
If today you would talk to me again, it probably will make my day happy.
If it was still going on between us, yesterday would be 5months liao.
Haiz.
Miss the times we had.

There For Tomorrow - The World Calling

It's gonna get harder from here
We've gotta get smarter to make it out alive
Cause you say stop and we say go
Don't wanna be your tenth caller on the radio
So don't bother cutting me off short tonight
We let our words speak for themselves
Don't take it all so far
Don't make it that much harder
Than it already is for you to stand alone
For you, for you, for you

To wake up knowing you've got the day
To take on without feeling okay
To make yourself unwilling to sleep away
Sleep away the pain
Don't take off running without my say
Don't pay that price you thought you'd pay
You're got the choice you've got the time of day
Just don't sleep away the pain

Hold on tight to the things you're given
The camera caught it all
Aren't we all forgiven now?
Cause you say stop and we say go
The world outside is calling on the telephone
They need answers
So we'll let them know
Tonight, we let our words speak for themselves
But maybe I'm not right
We're so damaged by the sunlight
Can we make it through together
Cause honey I don't like this kind of weather
When I'm with you...

To wake up knowing you've got the day
To take on without feeling okay
To make yourself unwilling to sleep away
Sleep away the pain
Don't take off running without my say
Don't pay the price you thought you'd pay
You're got the choice you've got the time of day
Just don't sleep away the pain
Just don't sleep away the pain

It's gonna get harder from here
We've gotta get smarter to get this all in line
Cause you say stop and we say go
Oh

To wake up knowing you've got the day
To take on without feeling okay
To make yourself unwilling to sleep away
Sleep away the pain
Don't take off running without my say
Don't pay the price you thought you'd pay
You're got the choice you've got the time of day
Just don't sleep away the pain
Just don't sleep away the pain

2009-06-19T03:04:00.001+08:00

Cant sleep.
So blog.
Went to read blog about her.
Sad siah.
I miss you.
I want to talk to you again.
Don't ignore me.
Tomorrow would be 3 months u ignore me.
Haiz.
Life is just so sad.

2009-06-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

So glad she is back in sg but sadly cant talk to her.
Miss you.

Afternoon went to Plaza Singapura.
Reach there, didn't see anyone.
I reach just nice on time.
15mins later ShuMei came and said she go meet Gloria first.
20mins later, Gloria came and went find ShuMei.
Later they came back and Gerald just nice arrived.
Waited awhile more for JianZhong who was lost in the MRT.
He lead us on a wild goose chase.
Found him at foodcourt then went eat.
While eating, Joan, Charissi and Cherelene came.
After eating, went to Minds Cafe.
At least can say it is like a make-up trip after class friend's one cancelled.
Reach there, it was still close.
Jon came then waited awhile.
Soon more people came, we thought we didn't book so won't have space.
Luckily there was.
Ordered drinks then Carmen and Jolene came.
11 of us played Taboo first then an animal game followed by Jaga and risk.
Jon left early, followed by Gloria and ShuMei.
The rest of us played till 5 then left.
Me, JianZhong and Gerald wanted split the GST amount but the remaining few said 80 cents is still money.
In end, all paid Gerald 80 cents.
We walked back to Plaza Singapura.
The boys and girls split up as JianZhong was going home, me and Gerald dun wan extra.
JianZhong sad siah cant follow someone.
In MRT talked about many things before going home.
Lazy blog liao. Gone and bye.

2009-06-15T01:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it is so hard to know what type of dreams you can have.
If it was the dream I had yesterday, I wished it would happen.
However even if it was possible, it would not be as perfect as it is in a dream.
No doubt that I do miss her and I'm told not to, I just cant help it.
Haiz, just hope you won't fall sick or have your sneezing problem.
Man, it is big mistake of playing maple.
Accidentally took a screenshot, wanted to delete it.
In end, found the pics of most of the time I playing maple with her.
Even Christmas countdown. Sad Sad Sad.
See that liao, made me feel like going in see audition.
Another big mistake.
Found out, got deleted from her buddy list and from school FAM.
Sad Sad Sad.
Freaking thing is later in day, my cousin just ask why so emo.
Lucky he joking niah.
Hmm just thought of something from the trick my cousin did.
Saying "I Love You" is something that is "Colorful"
If you think just cause of the words "I Love You" alone. then you are wrong.
It is the pronoun of it.
Just now watched last episode of one Korean drama.
Ending quite nice even though never watch front.
I like one part of the show.
One side says, I am waging war to protect my dreams.
The other side says, I am waging war to fulfill my dreams.
I see this, I think even if I want to, my dreams don't need to protect.
As it would just never happen.
In the drama also got one love relationship.
The girl like guy A and Guy A like the girl.
Guy B like the girl but the girl doesnt.
The girl was like passed as a parcel as they didn't want her implicated in the war.
In end Guy B pass the girl back because she said this.
"You are using violence to protect your dreams while I'm using violence to protect someone I care."
The Guy B heard this and said, " I would have to kill you too even if you are important to me and not sure hat become dead also because there is no her."
Before the girl left, She said "Even if I died, I hope the good man whom I knew would survive well."
I'm not going to reveal what happen later.
I really want to speak to you everyday even if we just friends.
I really miss those times talking to you and having fun.
Losing you is like losing my hope and purpose.
I guess I would never get the chance to say "I Love You" to you. =(

2009-06-12T01:09:00.002+08:00

Go and gone.
Probably she should be in Indonesia sleeping.
Haiz.
One thing for such, I not sure whether I did the right thing.
If you were to ask me last time to do, I probably would have done it.
However now, I'm not sure.
Haiz should have known that whatever I seemed to do seems wrong.
So today's thing probably another mistake in life.
Perhaps one thing so far done right was to apologize to xs.
The rest is like you can just forget about life la.
I'm going to wash my hands off helping to organize or organizing outings.
Ask me do is like not asking me do like that.
Rather let someone better to do this.
I miss you, I really want to talk to you again.

2009-06-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

I really am not sure what to blog.
I'm so confused.
It is like I been tolerating with it for so long.
And now it got worst.
Yushi don't be angry at those immature people.
Just continue to do your usual things, don't need close blog.
I'll try to settle it.
Really sorry for causing more trouble even though I didnt talk to you.
Dont get angry, your health more important.

2009-06-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

Miracle!!!
My wrist is almost completely healed.
Praise the Lord!
No more pain when typing. Wohoo..
I'm now a living testimony of God's power.
It's that cool.
It sure does increase my faith in God.
Today's sermon really does encourage people.
I can't wait to go to school to invite classmate to YES!
I wished I could invite you and that you would come.
That's all for today's post bah.
God is AWESOME!!!

2009-06-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

Happy moments never seem to last while unhappy moments just stay for eternity.
If I were asked what was my last happy moment, I would be able to remember it well.
It is not my birthday but my birthday is probably my unhappy moment.
6 days passed and yet still nothing from you.
Many people told me to give up, most probably they don't know me well.
I'm glad your asthma attack has stop for the time being.
Hope it doesn't happen again.
My life really is empty.
Miss you.

2009-06-01T21:59:00.005+08:00

I'm trying not to live negatively but I just cant help it.
Perhaps if I just went into a coma, it would be much better for all.
I'm not trying to gain sympathetic.
It is always said that a person's life is in his hands but I think oppositely of it.
I tried taking control of my life and it just brought misery to me.
I really want to let go of life, there's just no more point.
A person doesn't just change, circumstances changes a person.
If I were to see it that way, what ever actions I did doing that circumstances change your views of me, I really wished it didn't happen.
If I were to follow that, I shouldn't have confessed to you when you asked me.
The point where I really meant it ended up changing me.
I broke my promises to you and you broke my promise to me.
I guessed I really am better off dead.
No matter what I say now, wont changed that fact.
Yes, I do have to admit that at first, you did change me to something better.
I have fallen from that.
I really wish that it would be mended but I cant help but feel that it is like a mirror broken into pieces and no matter how hard,effort and time you spend into it, will it be repaired.
Even if it is pieced together, there would still be chipped parts and it is still incomplete.
I do admit that I am useless, within first game and my wrist is injured.
Study hard and lousy results I received.
I'm not trying to blame you, I just have to blame myself.
I should have believed such things like that is impossible to happen to me.
Yet, I believed it was possible, I'm such a fool.
You're right, I only have myself to blame in liking you.
Why do I always act hopeful and happy in front of others?
Why when I have so many friends but I don't really have one to confide with?
Why is there only hate, tears and pain in this world?
My birthday really showed me that many in fact doesn't know me at all.
I know I'm a total stranger.
Perhaps I should just stick with this.

Sorry, I really can't help but sms you.
I really want to speak to you everyday.
I know that no matter how much I say,
I can't make you change your mind.
I do mean what I said in front of your friend,
that I love you.

Simple Plan - No Love

Staring out at the world across the street.
You hate the way your life turned out to be.
He's pulling up the driveway and you don't make a sound.
Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say.
You're always gonna be afraid.
There's only hate.
There's only tears.
There's only pain.
There is no love here.
So what will you do?
There's only lies.
There's only fear.
There's only pain.
There is no love here.

Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces.
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile.
If these walls could talk, they would have so much to say.
Cause everytime you fight, the scars are gonna heal.
But they're never gonna go away.
You're falling.
You're screaming.

You're stuck in the same old nightmare.
He's lying.
You're crying.
There's nothing left to salvage.
Kick the door cause this is over.
Get me out of here!

Simple Plan - The End

I've been trying to tell you something
But you never understand
I feel like we've been going 'round in circles
You look at me like I've become
A stranger on the streets,
A skeleton that's been hiding in your closet

I see you next to me but you feel so far away
Where did we go wrong?
(Where did we go wrong?)
I guess this is the part where you look at me
And say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoaa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoaa
No it's not the end

I've been around the world
And I've seen so many things
I can't even tell you where I'm going
But no matter where I'm going
And no matter what I do
Something keeps me coming back to you

I see you next to me but you feel so far away
Where did we go wrong?
(Where did we go wrong?)
I guess this is the part where you look at me
And say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoaa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoaa
Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoaa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoaa
You know it's not the end

Boys Like Girls - Learning To Fall

Today is the day 
The worst day of my life 
You're so content it hurts me 
I don't know why 
The cost of misery 
Is at an all time high 
I keep it hidden 
Close to the surface in sight 

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair 
But I can't change your mind 
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now 

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me
Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me

2009-05-30T22:36:00.002+08:00

Today, went see doctor to get back my x-ray.
Everything is fine, bone just need 2weeks - 2months to heal.
Ok now that's boring.
You really gave me a fright with that pm.
"Almost die. Asthma attack again."
I am not sure whether you accidentally reply me or you really did.
I really hope you really did do that.
I was glad when you replied me but was more worried of your health.
Thursday when I saw you twice, I didn't want to ignore you.
Today at church, Cell gave me a card for birthday.
Thanks for the well wishes.
Really miss you.
Hope those things you said weren't empty promise.
I'm not placing much hope on it.
Just want to talk to you again.

Birthday Wish is just for you to be healed of asthma, that you''ll be well, results improve and you''ll be happy is all I just ask for.

2009-05-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

I guess I was wrong.
2009 is not a lucky year but an unlucky year for me.
I don't want to believe in this but some consequences just have to happen.
Lost my friendship with the girl I like.
Nearly got knocked down by a car.
Results in a big mess.
Now wrist need an x-ray.
I wish you were by my side but it wont happen.
Life just seem to want bad things to happen to me.
I not cursing myself but nothing good has happen ever since that day.
All I want you is you be happy like from what I heard from my friend.
My birthday wish seem to be coming true even when it have not reach.

2009-05-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

Day by day, all I can say is that I'm tired and bored.
School is boring like shit.
Go school also slack.
No fun at all.
Hope you have fun at AEM and today pep-rocket.
If my pm has disturbed you, I will take it away.
Even if you dont, I still would.
Not calling you heartless.

Kris Allen - Heartless

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talking to me yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me yo
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know some things you things that you aint told me
Ayo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna pay me back
You gon' show me
So you walk round like you don't me
You got them new friends
Well I got homeys
But at the end it's still so lonely
In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of
Me that I don't know,
I decided we wasn't gonna speak so why are up 3 a.m. on the phone,
Why does she be so mad at me for, homey I don't know she hot and cold,
I won't stop and mess my groove up cause I already know how this thing goes,
You run and tell you're friends that you're leavin' me,
They say that they don't see what you see in me,
You wait a couple months then you gone' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby lets just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul.
To a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless? oh... how could you be so heartless.

2009-05-23T23:41:00.001+08:00

Damn Tired.
Even just going church already exhausted.
Now Val know what going now.
Forget it, I'm going sleep.

2009-05-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

2 months has past and nothing has changed.
You don't want to speak to me while I am not sure what to say to you.
Hope your results were much better than mine.
My results is like damn crap.
4 border line passes, El, Combine Sci, Combine Human and Pure Chem.
Life is pretty F'up for me.
Ok, come to certain point I got to admit it, I struggling with life.
You probably did the right thing after all.
I said I could handle it and now I cant.
I don't want to say I'm useless or what but I cant be bothered to do anything in life now.
I'm back to the start of last year or even worst.
Haiz, dont really have any mood to blog everything.
People say if you're tired, you rest but I don't feel like resting.

Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

2009-05-14T20:23:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow last day of exams.
Not sure whether it is something to be glad about.
Of coz, would be glad no more exams but is the results would be freaking bad.
I think I'm screwing up most of my subjects.
Well, another meet-parents session for me probably.
Today Chemistry paper is so screwed.
Study so long in end still like cannot make it.
Exhausted la.
Now I even think my English Composition, write out of point.
Finally found the lyrics for the 我知道 lyrics.
Below of post.
I think I'll just post like that.
There's nothing to post about.

BY2 - 我知道 / Wo Zhi Dao / I Know

从来没想过　不能再和你牵手
cong lai mei xiang guo bu neng zai he ni qian shou
Never thought that I would no longer be able to hold your hand
委屈时候　没有你　陪着我心痛
wei qu shi hou mei you ni pei zhu wo xin tong
During troubled times, you are not there to accompany me in heartache
一切都是我太过骄纵　以为你会懂
yi qie dou shi wo tai guo jiao zong yi wei ni hui dong
It was all because I was too arrogant, I thought you would understand

一直忘了说　我有多感动
yi zhi wang le shuo wo you duo gan dong
Kept forgetting to tell you how much I was moved
　
我知道你还是爱着我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
I know you still love me
虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
sui ran fen kai de li you wo men dou yi jie shou
Despite both of us already accepting the reasons for separation
你知道我会有多难过
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
You knew that I would have a very hard time dealing (devastated)
所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you
So even until the end, you kept smiling wanting me to 'keep fighting'
　
我知道你还放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
I know you still can't let me go
才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
cai hui zai li kai shi bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
That's why when you left you had to close your eyes and not look back
我们都知道彼此心中
wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xin zhong
We both know each others inner thoughts
其实　这份爱没停过
qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo
Actually, this love has never once stopped
　
从来没想过　不能再和你牵手
cong lai mei xiang guo bu neng zai he ni qian shou
Never thought that I would no longer be able to hold your hand
委屈时候　没有你　陪着我心痛
wei qu shi hou mei you ni pei zhu wo xin tong
During troubled times, you are not there to accompany me in heartache
一切都是我太过骄纵　以为你会懂
yi qie dou shi wo tai guo jiao zong yi wei ni hui dong
It was all because I was too arrogant, I thought you would understand
一直忘了说　我有多感动
yi zhi wang le shuo wo you duo gan dong
Kept forgetting to tell you how much I was moved
　
我知道你还是爱着我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
I know you still love me
虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
sui ran fen kai de li you wo men dou yi jie shou
Despite both of us already accepting the reasons for separation
你知道我会有多难过
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
You knew that I would have a very hard time dealing (devastated)
所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you
So even until the end, you kept smiling wanting me to 'keep fighting'
　
我知道你还放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
I know you still can't let me go
才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
cai hui zai li kai shi bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
That's why when you left you had to close your eyes and not look back
我们都知道彼此心中
wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xin zhong
We both know each others inner thoughts
其实　这份爱没停过
qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo
Actually, this love has never once stopped
　
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
ceng jing wan zheng xing fu de meng zai mao hai li tou
In my mind, the dream that was once full of happiness
我多希望你还在我左右
wo duo xi wang ni hai zai wo zuo you
How I wish you were still by my side
　
我知道你还是爱着我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
I know you still love me
虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
sui ran fen kai de li you wo men dou yi jie shou
Despite both of us already accepting the reasons for separation
你知道我会有多难过
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
You knew that I would have a very hard time dealing (devastated)
所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you
So even until the end, you kept smiling wanting me to 'keep fighting'
　
我知道你还放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
I know you still can't let me go
才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
cai hui zai li kai shi bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
That's why when you left you had to close your eyes and not look back
答应你　我会好好过
da ying ni wo hui hao hao guo
I promised you that I would happily continue on
不让　这些眼泪白流
bu rang zhe xie yan lei bai liu
Or else these tears would have flowed in vain

2009-05-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

Answer this 100 questions if you were tagged
then tag other ppl after you're done. :)

[1] What hair color would you like to have?
I think brown.

[2] What is your middle name?
I think it is Markus.

[3] What is your current relationship status?
Single.

[4] What makes you happy?
Not sure. Probably wasn't recently.

[5] What is your current mood?
Ok?

[6] What color underwear are you wearing?
Hmm, are you a sicko? Ask this type of questions.

[7] What is your eye colour?
Not sure, let me check my eye.

[8] What song is stuck in your head?
Remember When - There For Tomorrow

[9] What are you eating/drinking at the moment?
None.

[10] What color are your bed sheets?
White.

[11] What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
3718.

[12] What is the most important part of your life?
Friends and God.

[13] What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Listening to music.

[14] What should you be doing?
Studying Chemistry.

[15] What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
Some random wallpaper.

[16] What were you doing at 8 a.m. this morning?
Sleeping.

[17] What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Facebooking.

[18] What is the best ice cream flavor?
Mint.

[19] What are you wearing right now?
Germany Jersey and shorts.

[20] What is your birthstone?
Not sure.

FIVE WHERE’S:

[21] Where is your profile picture taken?
School library.

[22] Where are you right now?
My room.

[23] Where is your favorite vacation spot?
Perth, Australia.

[24] Where is one place you want to visit before you die?
Perth, Australia?

[25] Where were you born?
Singapore.

THIRTY DO’S

[26] Do you act differently around your crush?
No crush since confessed. If refer to person confess, yes.

[27] Do you speak any other language?
Chinese.

[28] Do you still watch kiddy tv shows?
Digimon?

[29] Do you like to travel by plane?
Sure, why not?

[30] Do you know the muffin man?
Nope, but I do know the dark knight.

[31] Do you hate anyone right now?
No.

32] Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Is characters from shows counted? If it is, I wish I was Sylar.

[33] Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
No, but I want to. However, I am being ignored. Life is a pity.

[34] Do you celebrate your half birthday?
Half birthday???

[35] Do you think you are a good person?
No, I am a sinner.

[36] Do you have a tan line?
No.

[37] Do you eat healthy?
Of coz, eating healthy is a must.

[38] Do you like someone right now?
Of coz, didnt u like asked something similar.

[39] Do you have a dog?
Nope, I wished I have.

[40] Do you have plans tonight?
Yes, study Chemistry and Additional Maths.

[41] Do you have any friends on facebook that you actually hate?
No.

[42] Do you miss your past?
Yes, I miss it a lot.

[43] Do you want children?
1 Boy & 1 Girl.

[44] Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
I walk in.

[45] Do you try to blend in with the crowd, or prefer to stand out?
Blend in. Who wants to get spotted.

[46] Do you have any old calendars in your room?
No.

[47] Do you miss anyone?
Yes.

[48] Do you play an instrument?
I thinking of learning the drums or guitar.

[49] Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Sometimes.

[50] Do you like the snow?
I'm fine with it.

[51] Do you need to pee?
You're off topic.

[52] Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yes. Even if we are not ____, I want be friends with you.

[53] Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Chocolate milk FTW.

[54] Do you get nervous in front of crowds?
Depends on what I'm doing.

[55] Do you get good grades?
Sometimes but recently not so.

FIVE IF’S:

[56] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
Dog.

[57] If you could have one superpower what would it be?
Space-Time manipulation.

[58] If you could cheat on a test, would you?
Why ask when I have already done so.

[59] If you could have one wish, what would it be for?
It would be for me to relive what I lived through last December to now.

[60] If you could go back in time and change the past, would you?
Yes. I got a lot of things I want to prevent myself from doing, causing pain, suffering onto others (someone) that I care about.

TEN HAVE’S:

[61] Have you ever had a near death experience?
Yes.

[62] Have you ever fired a gun?
No, but I will, soon.

[63] Have you ever had your heart broken?
If you mean it literally, I did not.
If you mean it the other way, I did.

[64] Have you ever been out of the country?
What do you think?

[65] Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Even if I did, I probably cant remember.

[66] Have you felt sad in the past week?
Sad? No, but I misses.

[67] Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Yes.

[68] Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
No.

69] Have you ever completely flunked a test?
Yes, a lot for MT.

[70] Have you ever gotten a detention?
Detention? I know what it means but I don't.

FIFTEEN MISCELLANEOUS:

[71] Why did you get a facebook?
Quote someone, "For fun, laughter, peace, joy."

[72] Why did your parents give you the name you have?
All I know it suppose to mean blessings but I don't seem to be blessing people.

[73] Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
I want to but like I said, I would be ignored.

[74] Are you any good at math?
Emaths yes, amaths okok.

[75] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Shangari's father.

[76] Name someone who made you smile today?
No one =(

[77] Name something you don’t leave the house without?
Wallet, phone, earpiece.

[78] Name the person that you have been friends with the longest?
Amanda Jie. 10 Years. OMG that's long.

[79] Is anyone jealous of you?
No.

[80] Does the future scare you?
No.

[81] Does your crush like you back?
I do not want to comment.

[82] How did you get one of your scars?
Pri 4, when it was raining, someone ran into me, spec cut my face just below eye.

[83] Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night.

[84] Is your phone close to you?
In front of me.

[85] Can you curl your tongue?
Yes.

FIFTEEN: THE LAST

[86] Movie you watched?
Not sure.

[87] Person you hugged?
No one.

[88] Person you talked to on the phone?
Fedeline.

[89] Person you texted?
Aunty Pauline.

[90] Person you kissed?
No one.

[91] Person you sent a comment/message on facebook?
Sheng Yang.

[92] Song you listened to?
LOL. So funny, just now is think song, just so happen song playing is Remember When - There For Tomorrow.

[93] Time you cried?
Few weeks back? Miss people la.

[94] Time you were on a plane?
A few years back.

[95] Place you went out to eat?
On Friday, 107 for lunch.

[96] Person who worried about you?
I am not sure.

[97] Time you were told you were beautiful/handsome/good looking?
I am not sure, but in school, people say that to me to act gay.

[98] Time you were sick?
Since March till now.

[99] Thing you drank?
Coke.

[100] Thing you ate?
My dinner.

Ok finally done.
Half of exams are done.
Her exams just started.
Hope everything goes out fine.
I'm just glad she has unblock me on msn.

Me, You And My Medication - Boys Like Girls

Found my way to the highway I don't wanna tell you the state Im in
I've had too much to smoke too much to drink where have I been
It feels like the stars are getting closer and the sky is closing in
And I don't know where to begin

We're all looking for something
To take away the pain

Me and you and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me you and my medication

The way back to the right track maybe you can help me find the door
Is it too much to ask, too much too fast, too much to ignore
It feels like your bodys getting closer but you seem so far away
Medicine make it ok

We're all looking for someone
To take away the pain

Me and you and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me you and my medication

Can you feel it?
Do you feel it?
Coming down
You gotta get up
Can you get up
Off the ground
Can you hear it?
Can you hear me screaming?
Can you feel it?
Do you feel it?
Coming down
You gotta get up
Can you get up
Off the ground
I wanna hear it
Wanna hear you breathing

Were all addicted to something
That takes away the pain

Me and you and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me you and my medication

2009-05-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

Haiz, tomorrow SS exam.
How great is that?
Only Sec4 and Sec5 taking exams tomorrow.
Now I'm studying for SS but when I'm studying, somehow will go into a daze.
This is crap, MYE cmi.
Haiz.
However, I know God is our provider, everything has been planned by him.
Sometimes, I wonder if that time if I didn't ask God for advise, would things turn out differently?
I'm struggling to go through each day.
I wonder how you are.
How life have been for you?
Is your family problem settled?
Ok. I go study again.
Short post. =)

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

2009-04-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

Quiz
1) Think back five months ago, were u single: I guess.
2) Who can you blame for your bad mood today: Me who else?
3) How was your last night: Sleepless.
4) How do you feel right now: Missing.
5) Who were the first two people who heard you this morning: My mother and sister?
6) What are you listening to: Crazy - Simple Plan
7) Do you think someone is thinking about you right now: Nope but I wish it was her.
8) Last thing you bought: I am not sure.
9) Are you a jealous person: Only if involves that person.
10) Does it take a lot to make u cry: Only if involves that person.
11) What will you be doing at 12:30pm : Slacking.
12) Do you think alot before you sleep: Of Coz.
13) Whats running through you right now: Playing a game, what's a good strategy.
14) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to: Yes, at least 2.
15) Do you like to cuddle/snuggle: LOL.
16) How late did you stay up last night: 12+ only
17) Who are your favourite people to talk to when you are down: Same 2?
18) Are you a patient person: Yes. Still waiting hor.
19) Are you mean: To certain people.
20) Is your life anything like it was a year ago: No. Everything changed and I not happy with it.

Hmm. Exams these two days.
Lazy blog.

2009-04-26T14:16:00.002+08:00

Today I shall blog about yesterday.
Yesterday morning, had physic class in sch.
Mostly didn't pay attention, talking about dota.
After physic class, went home rest for 1hour before going church.
Reached church around 1.30.
Had lunch then met Jolene and Samuel.
Wait awhile then Aunty Pauline, Uncle Chunling, Gloria, Marcus and Tina came.
Soon our IC came who was Tabita.
Helped move some chairs and tables.
It was so hot, FangFang asked whether I went swimming. LOL.
Then up to blk 40A where out briefing was.
After that, went down again.
Washed the containers to make Milo and Orange Juice.
After doing that, we boys so bored, we went to room 209 i think.
Slack there.
Josiah never do his forfeit but lucky AP paired him with the person he suppose to do forfeit to.
Talk about luck.
Marcus paired with Shumei, J^2, Jolene with Gerald and Charisse with me.
Like yesterday's YES Event like not many newcomers.
Walked around, finding newcomers let them eat pies and ice-lollies.
Pies all finished followed by ice-lollies.
Ate one ice-lolly but I wanted pie.
Haha.
Samuel and Josiah brought friends.
Yesterday's sermon was on hope.
The next YES Event more people say will come with me.
That's cool.
Oh, the pies were from pie kia.
Fun day.
Next week, Redhill Outreach during the exams.
Better start revision.

2009-04-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

WALAO THIS SUX.
IKE EXPECTED, WHOLE SPA CMI LIAO LA.
DAMN ANGRY AT MYSELF.
LIFE GOING DOWN HILL.
EVERYTHING GONE.
WHAT AM I LEFT WITH?
NOW O LEVEL ALSO DOWN LIAO.
WHY DON'T JUST FORFEIT MY LIFE LA.
SPA PAPER 20% FOR CHEM BYEBYE LIAO.
PERSON I LIKE ALSO IGNORE.
I'M JUST LEFT BROKEN BY EVERYTHING.
EVEN MY HEALTH ALSO NO GOOD.
I'M SWALLOWED BY EVERYTHING.
I WONT BE SLEEPING FOR LONG HOURS ANYMORE.
IT ALREADY SO STRESSFUL.
AND NOW WITH MY RESULTS LIKE THAT WHY DONT I JUST GO DIE LA.
EVEN IF I DONT. I GOING STUDY EVERYDAY.
I DONT WANT ANYMORE THINGS TO DISTRACT ME.
(CANT SAY THE SAME ABOUT HER)
I NEVER GOING BELIEVE IN CERTAIN THINGS ALREADY.
YOU CAN GET WHAT YOU WANT.
I'LL JUST GIVE YOU IT.
HOPE I WONT HAVE ANYMORE OF SUCH THINGS.
EVEN IF IT TAKES YEARS, ONLY HER BUT I WONT DO ANYTHING.
HURTFUL LIFE.
HATEFUL LIFE.
FULL OF SORROW.
I'M NOW EVER MORE READY TO RECEIVE THAT "HONOR" OF MEET THE PARENTS.
Love? There is no such thing.

2009-04-23T01:54:00.001+08:00

Hellish.
Today later got SPA O Level paper.
How nice.
Phone going confiscated T.T
There goes to listening to music during recess and mt period.
Hate this.
I in second shift so wont expect my phone so soon.
I want faint but cant faint tomorrow.
Yesterday the Bio test ok la.
The last period was ridiculous.
Senthil most blur.
Eat lunch liao, went back home.
On way, met someone's mother by accident.
I hope you wont think I purposely went find.
Also hope she wont cry leh.
-.-'' I post that and I feel like what.
Cant believe yet again another SPA O Level, wont have your support.
Today must be carefully for the Paper.
I confirm must sleep a little more than the past few days.
If not later I for sure cant take it.
It is not my sleep that is draining my life out of me.
It something so hard to explain.
Cant say, talk, communicate is like killing me everyday.
Only just pass 1month of her ignoring me and I cant take it.
How am I going to go through the rest of the year and so.
So hard to snap out of this.
I yesterday finally finish the whole twilight series.
2days of reading Breaking Dawn.
My whole new record.
Actually if time properly, less than 24 hours.
Which means less than 1 day.
Until now I still living in my own world.
Thinking is only last week or two weeks ago.
If you ask me what's in that world of mine, I would say there is nothing at all.
Maybe for a few exceptions like my true friends like J, my god-siblings, missed everyone of them and that someone that I shall not mention since I'm being hated by.
I really understand what it means when my world just comes crashing down.
Impact so sudden.
Is there someone that understands what I'm going through.
I think tomorrow SPA, going mess up like the previous.

Yes, I know I'll wait for you, I'll wait for you
Yes, I know I'll wait for you, I'll wait for you
til you get home

2009-04-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

HELL. Happened again.
Feel like dying.
Stupid vision thing.
If these keep up, I probably lose my vision.
Or there is something wrong with my health.
Who cares about it since I lost everything.
Losing more things doesn't change anything.
Thinking of asking people call me Markus better than now.
Hate this life.
What can I do?
Nothing except of worrying about her.
Damn useless I.
Already prepared tests to fail and meet-parents-session liao.
Have not been sleeping for nights.
Just started again.
Any moment, like going let go of myself.
Focusing myself awake.
At least got Breaking Dawn to keep me awake.
Won't be so much of a chore.
Everyday is so pain to go through.
Just mention something bad that might happened to her and I would have fallen in to the trap.
Fell into MingHao's trick today.
I'm like on a drug.
There is no cure.
Perhaps I'm just to suffer for eternity.

2009-04-21T03:00:00.003+08:00

TIRED.
PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED.
THIS WEEK SO MANY TESTS, NEXT WEEK EXAMS.
CAN DIE ALREADY.
I KNOW MY TEACHERS GOT THEIR WAY OF FINDING OUR BLOGS.
CANT BE BOTHERED IF THEY EVEN KNEW.
MY ONLY TRUE FRIEND SEEMS TO BE J.
CAN TALK ABOUT ANYTHING.
I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT I BECOME ANTI.
IS JUST THAT I GOT TOO MANY PROBLEMS TO HANDLE.
WORRY ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN I NOT SUPPOSE TO.
IT JUST SO HARD TO EXPRESS ONE'S SELF.
I DONE TOO MUCH WRONG IN THE BEGINNING OF YEAR.
SHIT THIS.
LOST FRIENDS. AND CRUSH.
LOST MOTIVATION, LOST MYSELF.
FROM A PERSON WHO PLANS AHEAD TO A PERSON WHO TRIES TO LIVE LIFE HAPPILY EACH DAY.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M ACTING IN FRONT OF SO MANY PEOPLE.
LYING THROUGH MY EXPRESSIONS.
I NOT LONGER THE SAME.
I AM NO LONGER AROUND.
I'M JUST A MESSED UP PERSON.
MESSED UP EVERYTHING.
HATE IS THE ONLY THING PEOPLE PROBABLY LOOK AT ME.
I'M SUCH A HYPOCRITE.
THERE IS NO WANTS BUT A NEED.
AND IT WONT HAPPEN.
I'M NOT COUNTING ON ANYTHING TO HAPPEN.
AS I KNOW SOMETHINGS ARE JUST IMPOSSIBLE.
TO HELL WITH LIFE.
AND WHATS THE OUTCOME?
BEEN WEAK!
FEELING FAINT, VISION CUT SHORT LIKE SHIT.
A LIFE WORST THAN DEATH.
VISION BLACKED OUT GETTING MORE OFTEN, WONT BE SURPRISED IF IT HAPPENS AGAIN.
PERHAPS I WONT BE AROUND SOON.

Conditions - Keeping Pace With Planes

I am drowning in dry land
Distance is swallowing me

This keeps my sanity close
But far from inside of my body

Complete lunacy…
I will no longer keep this within me

The closest thing to me at heart
Is the furthest thing away to touch
And all these undeservers take for granted
What we deserve so much

The world has been pulled to my feet
Closer than it's ever been
This is something to live for
The beautiful mess I am in

I know this feeling's heaven sent
And I am so confident
I will regain my sanity
When "goodbye" is a memory

The whole entire world
Is not enough to make my body still
And no matter of miles
Could make a mockery of iron will

2009-04-19T20:42:00.004+08:00

Yesterday night couldn't sleep as I had drank coffee.
Regret drinking it siah.
Not sure what time I slept but woke up at 7.
Played game then 11.3o went out to study with my new meimei.
While walking to bus-stop, saw my other mei, LiZi.
LOL. So coincident.
LiZi go liao then my other mei come.
LOL.
Went to CP with my new mei, PHY.
Go BK eat lunch then study for 6hours straight.
Due to some people saying they miss people.
Went to meet my bro, CZM.
At Hougang Point.
Paid for mei dinner, all eat liao.
Go home.
Feel so extra like light bulb.
Come home, rest.
Now blogging.
Oh ya, met a lot of my friends.
I nt sure what to say abt them.
Both each other like dun wan say.
Probably they know hard bah.
One chi shu another not.
Can envy them about their feelings for each other.
Wish my life it would happen now.
PHY was correct, I do envy.
Now just hope my mei wont get hurt again..

2009-04-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

Sianz.
Today had 2.4 run.
Sick still need run.
I just run la.
In end run, got 6th.
Not bad bah, for a sick person.
After that run, on way to class.
My vision just blanked out again.
Lucky didn't faint.
Was on the verge of fainting.
I guess I'm just putting more pressure on myself.
Class ended at 10.40.
Was sitting in canteen waiting for school gate open.
Open liao, went eat lunch with tmh, fishball, sk, navan, bp.
Eat like one hour plus.
Came home, took medicine.
Waited to play game with Navan, sk and bp.
In end I fell asleep.
Woke up liao, played the 2nd match.
Dunno what is going wrong for me this whole year.
Play half way, dc.
Damn sh!t.
I dc is like once in a lifetime.
Cant help but feel something is just missing in my life.
I think I know what is it but whats the point.
My life everyday go through same things.
This is so crap.

2009-04-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday MingHao.
Hope you have a great birthday.
Just wished I would have a birthday like that with my close friends.
Maybe falling in a swimming pool is much better than cake smashing.
Everyday just want to sms people that I want to sms to.
I think I don't have the guts.
Or probably I don't want to change anything anymore.
All I'm doing now is just living each day as it is.
Without planning, without thinking.
Can even predict at this time what I'm doing.
It just like an endless cycle.
Life just seems so different from past.

David Archuleta - My Hands

Accidentally, on purpose
I dropped my watch behind the tire
Threw my alarm clock inside the fireplace, yeah

And I put the parental control on
On the news and the weather channel
I'm outside in my robe, I'm looking for you, oh

If every thing'd stop, I'd listen for your heart
To lead me right to you, yeah
I tried every way I can

But it's harder to hold on to your hands
Than the hands of time, I need a hand, girl
I'm trying to hold on, losing strength
In these hands of mine, I need you here

I'm trying to hold on, standing here
Open hands and I know I can't do this alone
Hold on, oh, hold on, lemme hold on
(To my hands)

Hold on to my hands
(Don't let go of my hands)
Don't let go

I don't think this is working
Freezing so hard, my hands are hurting
Ought to let go in the first place

And I put the phone on the front lawn
Everything that shows time is gone
I'm outside in this cold still looking for you

If every thing'd stop, I'd listen for your heart
To lead me right to you, yeah
I tried every way I can

But it's harder to hold on to your hands
Than the hands of time, I need a hand, girl
I'm trying to hold on, losing strength
In these hands of mine, I need you here

I'm trying to hold on, standing here
Open hands and I know I can't do this alone
Hold on, oh hold on, baby hold on
(Hold on to my, my hands, yeah)
(Don't let go of my hands)

Don't ever let me go
(Hold on to my, my hands, yeah)
(Don't let go of my hands)

If every thing'd stop, I'd listen for your heart
To lead me right to you, yeah
I tried every way I can

But it's harder to hold on to your hands
Than the hands of time, I need a hand, girl
I'm trying to hold on, losing strength
In these hands of mine, I need you here

I'm trying to hold on, standing here
Open hands and I know I can't do this alone
Hold on, hold on, baby, hold on
(Hold on to my hands)

Can you hold on to my hands?
(Don't let go of my hands)
Don't let go
(Hold on to my hands)

Can you hold on to my hands?
(Don't let go of my hands)
Baby, hold on
(Hold on my hands)

2009-04-15T22:09:00.002+08:00

Went to school even though I got fever.
Took medicine in school
Lessons were pretty much boring.
A bit emo bah.
Dunno what's wrong with me.
Went eat lunch after school.
After eating had to rush home.
Sorry guys, had to go home to take medicine.
And also didn't really feel like staying there.
I really miss you.
I know nothing about can be done now.
Just concentrate on your studies pls?
Cant help but want to ask you how you are doing,
I'm so useless.

2009-04-14T20:01:00.004+08:00

Went as school as per normal.
Lucky today didn't faint.
Nothing much.
Only had a Emaths test.
Very difficult.
Had something soupy for recess.
Needed it.
Eat liao, go back class rest.
Rest of periods very slack.
Went eat lunch with bp,fishball, tmh, gauwei, chenwei after school.
Went home, then go see doctor.
On way, felt like got headache.
In end got fever.
After see doc, went back home.
Download show to watch.
Later take medicine bah.
By hook or crook tomorrow will still go school.
Also no MC. So need go.
Haiz. Sick still got things on my mind.
But it won't happen.
Just got something to concern about.
Anyone want go taka find breaking dawn?

2009-04-13T20:55:00.004+08:00

Guess what happen today?
I fainted in school.
Surprising right.
Must because I really sick.
My whole vision was blacked out.
I don't want black out.
Only regain back vision minutes later.
Must thank ZhenDao and Eric for helping me.
Continued to stay in school for lessons.
Jenisha so funny.
Ask is it cause somebody that's why I sick.
Didn't reply.
No point.
Went grab a burger to eat in case teacher find me ask me why never eat.
Sorry maybe for this week only.
Continued to have Chemistry test.
Class was pretty slack today.
Ate lunch with TMH, Fishball, Brandon, Bp, Junfa and Sylvester.
Went home, rest.
Later go study.
Watch TV first.
Bye.
Tomorrow go see Doctor.

Lucky you didn't see it.
I don't want you to think that you are the cause of it.
You just concentrate on your studies.
Don't audi anymore.

2009-04-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

Today quite slack.
Studied from 11-2.
2.30 went out to grandmother place.
7 went eat dinner.
8 Reach home, used com.
And now I'm sick.
Freak this.
Tomorrow got test.
How going revise for other tests.

A Little Too Not Over You is quite a nice song.
Like what I'm going through now. Haiz.

2009-04-12T00:05:00.003+08:00

Today very slack.
Did nothing for whole day.
Wished got something to do.
Changed blog song to A Little Too Not Over You.

David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You

Oohhhh oh, oh..

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

2009-04-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

I need break my odd day post as today there is something I want to blog about.
Today is Good Friday.
Was really ministered during the Inner-Court session.
Went to church at 11.
Had briefing of my duty.
Went do my duty.
Duty nothing much.
The more interesting thing is the whole Inner-Court experience.
Went for the feet washing first.
Earlier on, was on duty for this.
And now I am doing it.
The whole feet washing thing did not ministered to me.
All I know is God gave the person helping me a vision of a sunflower.
He explained it to me but when I hear, it like not really true for now.
Never mind, it doesn't hurts to fail.
Went for Holy Communion.
Since not many people, pastors prayed for us.
After that, went for Anointing & Prophecy.
The person praying for me asked me whether I like speed.
I just reply so so.
She said God wanted me to know that I been going too fast.
When I heard that, I just thought was the things that happened.
Was I that reckless?
Causing so much hurt?
Went for the station - At the Cross with Jesus.
Took a scroll, prayed the things on the booklet before reading the scroll.
This what the scroll said.
Genesis 15: 1
After these things the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision, saying, "Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your exceedingly great reward."
I saw this and just went into prayer.
It just reminds me of what I recently do.
Even if it is the best for us, I still can find refuge in God.
That is what I think God is telling me.
So I decided that tonight I going to have a long Quiet Time.

Ok done with Good Friday activities.
After church, went J8 to look for book but cant find.
In end bought next issue of my daily bread.
Dinner went to Hougang Mall.
Met Nich and Esther.
All Hougang Primary classmates.
I think done blogging.

2009-04-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

Haiz.
Still cant decide leh.
My heart want to do it but my mind tell me not to.
If I do, things wont be same liao.
Don't do, like very weird.
Been thinking it would be easy but it is way harder.
Everyday like not my normal self.
See or hear you, must act as if I don't know you.
Classmates joke about you, must act like I never hear the name.
Talk bad about you, I needed to tolerate.
I just not sure how long can I keep up with this.
People say that telling the truth is the best.
I don't really find that really true.
What would happen if I didn't even say?
Would it still be like last time?
Would it make a differences if I turn back the hands of time?
I should just been contented just being friends with you.
Rather than now, everything so mixed up.
Might even end you migrating.
I have become like a burden to all, including myself.
Everything I have done has consequences.
From the drop of results to me interacting with my friends.
I really wanted to tell you something but I just can't make my decision.
It reminds me of the relationship in the book Eclipse, Jacob and Bella.
Just that we two have to ignore each other.
Perhaps I really have to be like Jacob, just to watch you being happy.
And the need to run away from reality.
I really can't bear doing nothing.
Hear that you are sick or having a asthma attack.
Makes me worried and want to sms you to check on you.
But what's the point of asking when I know you won't reply me at all.
Was up whole of last 2 nights, thinking whether you are fine.
I'm not blaming you at all.
Just concern.
If want to blame, I should just blame myself for fall in so deeply.
I have really made my Quiet Time regularly.
Just to pray for school as well as for you.
Like you would bother what I do.
I'm still keeping my promise to you, but would you even remember?
It probably would be the last thing I would have done for you.
Other than what I am doing in school during recess.
What I wanted to say to you is that I really want ask for your forgiveness.
Been doing my Quiet Time and one of it was on asking forgiveness.
The first person I thought after I read the passage was you.
I brought to you so much trouble and pain.
Second thing is I already should have expected this from the start.
Earlier on in the year, I prayed that God would show me signs if I did the right thing of asking you.
2 signs appeared in front of me but I practically ignored them.
I guessed I deserved it after ignoring it.
Thirdly is yes, I really will give up this time since you requested it.
I don't want to bring any misery to you anymore.
Rather I suffer in silent since I'm the cause.
Just being able to see or to know that you are happy and well, I would be contented to know that.
I know this message would never reach you.
At least it is out of my heart.
Even if you did see this, I know there won't be a reply.

Hoping just to see you,
happy and well.