I have decided.
Going make my recess time into my daily quiet time.
I'm going to feed my spiritual body with his words.
Another thing is I been emotional unstable.
So if you see me, just don't come that close to me.
I'm also falling sick.
So just stay clear of me.
Woke up this morning, saw a sms.
Asking me change worship duties.
LOL. I dunno when is mine.
Yeah. Swapped.
Currently thinking of what worship song to do.
I really need go back to my this year motto.
Blessed to be a blessing.

Untitled lyrics

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’

No mood in school. Haiz.
Skipped food whole day.
Didnt feel like eating. Haiz.
It just so hard to act happy infront of my friends.
Whole night was thinking about it.
Anyway whats the use of blogging it here?
Like you will see like that.
My life is just filled with regret.
Maybe I just the type that wont experience this.

Simple Plan - Perfect World

I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
It seems like my world’s falling apart, Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, Yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way, Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go

Yeah
Yeah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
You feel nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing at all

LIFE IS JUST SO HOPELESS!
RATHER DIE THAN STAY AROUND ANYMORE.
THERE JUST NO MORE MEANING TO STICK AROUND.
BEEN COUGHING AND NOSE BLEEDING.
I DON'T WANT TO GET WELL, I WANT TO DIE FROM THESE.
NO REAL FRIENDS, NO CRUSH, NO NOTHING.
DEATH IS JUST THE ONLY PATH FOR ME RIGHT NOW.
WISHED I WAS NOT BORN AT ALL.
WHY EVERYTHING I DO MUST BE WRONG?
WHY?
WHY?

A Beautiful Lie lyrics

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?

Today first day of school.
Not sure whether to be happy or sad.
Just glad got to see her twice.
Fatigue just seem to have caught up with me.
Just feel so tired recently.
Gotten sick as well.
Was selected for some interview by MOE during next week.
Die. My voice so bad, how interview?
Not only that, my nose just bleed while smsing with her.
So strange.
Came across this Maple MV.
Dunno how I come across it again.



I go rest liao.
To stop the bleeding on the outside and inside.

Another whole day, didn't see you online.
You not around, life just seems so boring and dull.
Miss you
Tomorrow got sch, hope can see you.

Morning - Boring.
Hoping see you online but didn't see.
Went memorize memory verse.
13 verses. OMG.
Had memorized all by time for cell but then when tested for memory verse with Tina and Jon.
Last 2 verses forget.
Say it so hard remember but write out like so easy.
Youth Service, there was urban kidz batispm.
In end Youth Service so long, cant listen finish sermon need go liao.
Life seem so different without you.

Completely waste the whole of yesterday playing dota.
So today was studying for geog test.
Study until sian.
I don't like development, I want go study forest again.
LOL.
5+, dota with Navan.
Lose to him, played pub.
Own -.-''
I want go out.
Nobody ask me go -.-''
Bored to death at home.
At least tomorrow going church but got a long memory verse to memorize.

I feel as though we are not as close as we used to be.
Is like I'm losing you.
Like nothing I do can prevent that from happening

BackStreet Boys - Inconsolable

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling

Today is like freaking mixed feelings lor.
Happy thing is bought my new wallet and also so good siah Cathay.
Go watch Push with ChenWei and Navan just now.
Bought the popcorn combo, give wrong order.
Then get free cheese fries.
How lucky am I?
However, I won't consider this lucky.
I would consider it lucky if it was something else.
Miss you but cant say to you.
I really dun wan you to go.
But I cant force you not to.
Feel
Forum recently alot of Love story.
Here's old one.

Once a lady when having a conversation with her lover, asked:

Lady : Why do you like me? Why do you love me?

Man : I can’t tell you the reason but that’s how I feel towards you.

Lady : You can’t even tell me the reason… how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?

Man : I really don t know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.

Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend’s boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!

Man : Ok..ok !!! Erm… because you are beautiful,

because your voice is sweet,

because you are caring,

because you are loving,

because you are thoughtful,

because of your smile,

because of your every movements.

The lady felt very satisfied with the man s answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident
and went in comma.

The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the
content:

Darling,

Because of your sweet voice that I love you…

Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your care and concern that I like you..

Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.

Because of your smile,

because of your every movements that I love you..

Now can you smile? Now can you move?

No, therefore I cannot love you…

If love needs a reason, like now,

There is no reason for me to love you anymore.

Does love need a reason? NO!

Therefore, I still love you…

like dying again.

So sad.
She overseas liao.
Never mind still got 2 more days before back in Sg.
So the past 2 weeks been doing El project, EL project is a video.
I think we got our finalised product.
Enjoy.



I know it's crap.
Home at least got even more peace.
Sister at Icamp 09.
I most probably go for End Year Camp.
Boring day.
Not sure when going watch Push.
Tomorrow got Phy class.

There For Tomorrow - No More Room To Breathe
You've got to know by now
that stepping in and out won't bring you down
until you make it definite
6:15 sacrifice your rest
I thought you said you're different?

End of Term 1.
In a few more months, O Levels. Everyday Missing You
Shit. But You Just Ignore Me
Need start revision liao.
Today competition is like shit.
Go also slack slack de.
No point in going.
Dug up some last year music.
Still quite nice.

The Reason lyrics

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD

Hell.
Trying stay away from computer but some how for sure will msn.
One thing for sure.
Been doing my homework.
No procrastination.
At least there is a slight improvement in school work.
Yesterday, went to Redhill MRT to meet my church friends for our outreach.
So monthly.
Reach there only got Samuel and Gloria.
Rest all late.
Went to Blk 89.
Me Jolene went call blk 90 kids down.
I really need learn other language siah.
Go there sibei hard understand.
Lucky I pro.
Went back to void deck.
Suppose to teach them about sharing.
Ok. At least they have fun.
Going there really helps me from wasting my time at computer waiting.
Got paired with a kid named Harry.
5year old. Make me feel old.
He dunno how spell yet.
Hmm.
Not in pre-school bah.
After that went church.
Went back home after church.
Staring at com as usual.

Stevie Hoang
Addicted

Since u went away it's been one year two months
But it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but

Whenever I think about the the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos u don't know what u got untill it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing u this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over u
Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged u to stay

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

If u ever lost someone u truely love
Let me hear u say yeah
And if u lost someone u truely need
Let me hear u say yeah

Do u still think of me like I think about u
Do u still dream of me cos I can't sleep without u
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to u

Boys Like Girls
The Only Way I Know How To Feel

Before you let me fall,
Kill me so I don't feel it at all
And Push my body up against the wall
And pick your poison
Cuz everything

Feel like I been delaying it forever.
I really think it is time that I close my blog or make my last post until dunno when.
Or more like closing my blog seem to be running away from my problems.
2009 have been a really rough start for me.
Maybe it is just not the year for me.
To have thought that 2009 would be the best year for me.
In the end, it just turns out to be wrong.
Day by day remorse just seem to be building within me.
There just no one for me to confide in.
Our whole world just seems to collapsed without a reason.
Till now I have no idea why am I still here.
January just seem to be the turning point of many things in my life.
Why can't things remain the same?
Is it too late to turn things back?
Seems like it is to you.
Beginning of the year was still ok but didn't expect it to go downhill.
Things were memorable.
Why must things change?
2months have past.
I really feel like not going school at all.
It just brings back bad memories.
Ever since you stop coming online and been avoiding me, everything I do, doesn't seem to be right.
It like back to its old, normal and boring routine.
Maybe my life is just like a robot.
Old and boring life.
Thrown away when it is no longer needed.
If teachers been reading your blog, won't they be reading mine?
They say yours is emo.
I think mine is more.
This is so hard to pretend that nothing has happen.
It is also so hard to act like I don't even know you.
All teachers say you are facing problems but while I'm not?
I am under so much great expectations for O levels.
I may look like I am perfectly fine in school.
No one seems to realise that not what I feel or think.
Is it so hard just for you to reply a simple sms?
My life seem to have nothing anymore.
What exactly are friends, feelings, emotions, someone close?
Teachers can save you from your stress.
Then who going save me from despair?
Starting to look down on myself.
The type of person I am, my feelings, my behaviour.
They say birds of a feather flock together.
I think I have found my "bird" group.
All going through the same things in life.
There is no longer a need for me to play games anymore.
All are lost along with you.
Just using the computer, msn and play games just make me think.
There really an emptiness when I am using the computer.
No one cares.
Life is just unfair.
So I blogging it for all to see.
Yes, I'm letting go.
Since it would make you feel better.
Better to have one, feeling down then both.
There still a chance to be friends right?

Empty - The Click Five

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty

I realised that I really don't know myself anymore.
Completely lost myself.
To think I "found" myself last year.
In fact I didn't.
Just got so much to think about.
Really who am I?
Crazy lyrics

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere

WestLife
My Love

An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(
Church today okok.
Caught in rain.
Falling sick.
Already sick before going church.
Today sermon abit weird.
Especially this sentence.
Some people smile even through they are unhappy.
Yes I am going OMGWTF.
Hooked to westlife again after 9years LOL.