Feel like I been delaying it forever.
I really think it is time that I close my blog or make my last post until dunno when.
Or more like closing my blog seem to be running away from my problems.
2009 have been a really rough start for me.
Maybe it is just not the year for me.
To have thought that 2009 would be the best year for me.
In the end, it just turns out to be wrong.
Day by day remorse just seem to be building within me.
There just no one for me to confide in.
Our whole world just seems to collapsed without a reason.
Till now I have no idea why am I still here.
January just seem to be the turning point of many things in my life.
Why can't things remain the same?
Is it too late to turn things back?
Seems like it is to you.
Beginning of the year was still ok but didn't expect it to go downhill.
Things were memorable.
Why must things change?
2months have past.
I really feel like not going school at all.
It just brings back bad memories.
Ever since you stop coming online and been avoiding me, everything I do, doesn't seem to be right.
It like back to its old, normal and boring routine.
Maybe my life is just like a robot.
Old and boring life.
Thrown away when it is no longer needed.
If teachers been reading your blog, won't they be reading mine?
They say yours is emo.
I think mine is more.
This is so hard to pretend that nothing has happen.
It is also so hard to act like I don't even know you.
All teachers say you are facing problems but while I'm not?
I am under so much great expectations for O levels.
I may look like I am perfectly fine in school.
No one seems to realise that not what I feel or think.
Is it so hard just for you to reply a simple sms?
My life seem to have nothing anymore.
What exactly are friends, feelings, emotions, someone close?
Teachers can save you from your stress.
Then who going save me from despair?
Starting to look down on myself.
The type of person I am, my feelings, my behaviour.
They say birds of a feather flock together.
I think I have found my "bird" group.
All going through the same things in life.
There is no longer a need for me to play games anymore.
All are lost along with you.
Just using the computer, msn and play games just make me think.
There really an emptiness when I am using the computer.
No one cares.
Life is just unfair.
So I blogging it for all to see.
Yes, I'm letting go.
Since it would make you feel better.
Better to have one, feeling down then both.
There still a chance to be friends right?

Empty - The Click Five

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty