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Tuesday, 21 April 2009

TIRED.
PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED.
THIS WEEK SO MANY TESTS, NEXT WEEK EXAMS.
CAN DIE ALREADY.
I KNOW MY TEACHERS GOT THEIR WAY OF FINDING OUR BLOGS.
CANT BE BOTHERED IF THEY EVEN KNEW.
MY ONLY TRUE FRIEND SEEMS TO BE J.
CAN TALK ABOUT ANYTHING.
I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO THINK THAT I BECOME ANTI.
IS JUST THAT I GOT TOO MANY PROBLEMS TO HANDLE.
WORRY ABOUT PEOPLE WHEN I NOT SUPPOSE TO.
IT JUST SO HARD TO EXPRESS ONE'S SELF.
I DONE TOO MUCH WRONG IN THE BEGINNING OF YEAR.
SHIT THIS.
LOST FRIENDS. AND CRUSH.
LOST MOTIVATION, LOST MYSELF.
FROM A PERSON WHO PLANS AHEAD TO A PERSON WHO TRIES TO LIVE LIFE HAPPILY EACH DAY.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M ACTING IN FRONT OF SO MANY PEOPLE.
LYING THROUGH MY EXPRESSIONS.
I NOT LONGER THE SAME.
I AM NO LONGER AROUND.
I'M JUST A MESSED UP PERSON.
MESSED UP EVERYTHING.
HATE IS THE ONLY THING PEOPLE PROBABLY LOOK AT ME.
I'M SUCH A HYPOCRITE.
THERE IS NO WANTS BUT A NEED.
AND IT WONT HAPPEN.
I'M NOT COUNTING ON ANYTHING TO HAPPEN.
AS I KNOW SOMETHINGS ARE JUST IMPOSSIBLE.
TO HELL WITH LIFE.
AND WHATS THE OUTCOME?
BEEN WEAK!
FEELING FAINT, VISION CUT SHORT LIKE SHIT.
A LIFE WORST THAN DEATH.
VISION BLACKED OUT GETTING MORE OFTEN, WONT BE SURPRISED IF IT HAPPENS AGAIN.
PERHAPS I WONT BE AROUND SOON.

Conditions - Keeping Pace With Planes

I am drowning in dry land
Distance is swallowing me
This keeps my sanity close
But far from inside of my body

Complete lunacy…
I will no longer keep this within me

The closest thing to me at heart
Is the furthest thing away to touch
And all these undeservers take for granted
What we deserve so much

The world has been pulled to my feet
Closer than it's ever been
This is something to live for
The beautiful mess I am in

I know this feeling's heaven sent
And I am so confident
I will regain my sanity
When "goodbye" is a memory

The whole entire world
Is not enough to make my body still
And no matter of miles
Could make a mockery of iron will

4/21/2009 03:00:00 am