Today, went see doctor to get back my x-ray.
Everything is fine, bone just need 2weeks - 2months to heal.
Ok now that's boring.
You really gave me a fright with that pm.
"Almost die. Asthma attack again."
I am not sure whether you accidentally reply me or you really did.
I really hope you really did do that.
I was glad when you replied me but was more worried of your health.
Thursday when I saw you twice, I didn't want to ignore you.
Today at church, Cell gave me a card for birthday.
Thanks for the well wishes.
Really miss you.
Hope those things you said weren't empty promise.
I'm not placing much hope on it.
Just want to talk to you again.

Birthday Wish is just for you to be healed of asthma, that you''ll be well, results improve and you''ll be happy is all I just ask for.

I guess I was wrong.
2009 is not a lucky year but an unlucky year for me.
I don't want to believe in this but some consequences just have to happen.
Lost my friendship with the girl I like.
Nearly got knocked down by a car.
Results in a big mess.
Now wrist need an x-ray.
I wish you were by my side but it wont happen.
Life just seem to want bad things to happen to me.
I not cursing myself but nothing good has happen ever since that day.
All I want you is you be happy like from what I heard from my friend.
My birthday wish seem to be coming true even when it have not reach.

Day by day, all I can say is that I'm tired and bored.
School is boring like shit.
Go school also slack.
No fun at all.
Hope you have fun at AEM and today pep-rocket.
If my pm has disturbed you, I will take it away.
Even if you dont, I still would.
Not calling you heartless.

Kris Allen - Heartless

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talking to me yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me yo
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know some things you things that you aint told me
Ayo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna pay me back
You gon' show me
So you walk round like you don't me
You got them new friends
Well I got homeys
But at the end it's still so lonely
In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of
Me that I don't know,
I decided we wasn't gonna speak so why are up 3 a.m. on the phone,
Why does she be so mad at me for, homey I don't know she hot and cold,
I won't stop and mess my groove up cause I already know how this thing goes,
You run and tell you're friends that you're leavin' me,
They say that they don't see what you see in me,
You wait a couple months then you gone' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby lets just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul.
To a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless? oh... how could you be so heartless.

Damn Tired.
Even just going church already exhausted.
Now Val know what going now.
Forget it, I'm going sleep.

2 months has past and nothing has changed.
You don't want to speak to me while I am not sure what to say to you.
Hope your results were much better than mine.
My results is like damn crap.
4 border line passes, El, Combine Sci, Combine Human and Pure Chem.
Life is pretty F'up for me.
Ok, come to certain point I got to admit it, I struggling with life.
You probably did the right thing after all.
I said I could handle it and now I cant.
I don't want to say I'm useless or what but I cant be bothered to do anything in life now.
I'm back to the start of last year or even worst.
Haiz, dont really have any mood to blog everything.
People say if you're tired, you rest but I don't feel like resting.

Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

Tomorrow last day of exams.
Not sure whether it is something to be glad about.
Of coz, would be glad no more exams but is the results would be freaking bad.
I think I'm screwing up most of my subjects.
Well, another meet-parents session for me probably.
Today Chemistry paper is so screwed.
Study so long in end still like cannot make it.
Exhausted la.
Now I even think my English Composition, write out of point.
Finally found the lyrics for the 我知道 lyrics.
Below of post.
I think I'll just post like that.
There's nothing to post about.

BY2 - 我知道 / Wo Zhi Dao / I Know

从来没想过　不能再和你牵手
cong lai mei xiang guo bu neng zai he ni qian shou
Never thought that I would no longer be able to hold your hand
委屈时候　没有你　陪着我心痛
wei qu shi hou mei you ni pei zhu wo xin tong
During troubled times, you are not there to accompany me in heartache
一切都是我太过骄纵　以为你会懂
yi qie dou shi wo tai guo jiao zong yi wei ni hui dong
It was all because I was too arrogant, I thought you would understand

一直忘了说　我有多感动
yi zhi wang le shuo wo you duo gan dong
Kept forgetting to tell you how much I was moved
　
我知道你还是爱着我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
I know you still love me
虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
sui ran fen kai de li you wo men dou yi jie shou
Despite both of us already accepting the reasons for separation
你知道我会有多难过
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
You knew that I would have a very hard time dealing (devastated)
所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you
So even until the end, you kept smiling wanting me to 'keep fighting'
　
我知道你还放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
I know you still can't let me go
才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
cai hui zai li kai shi bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
That's why when you left you had to close your eyes and not look back
我们都知道彼此心中
wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xin zhong
We both know each others inner thoughts
其实　这份爱没停过
qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo
Actually, this love has never once stopped
　
从来没想过　不能再和你牵手
cong lai mei xiang guo bu neng zai he ni qian shou
Never thought that I would no longer be able to hold your hand
委屈时候　没有你　陪着我心痛
wei qu shi hou mei you ni pei zhu wo xin tong
During troubled times, you are not there to accompany me in heartache
一切都是我太过骄纵　以为你会懂
yi qie dou shi wo tai guo jiao zong yi wei ni hui dong
It was all because I was too arrogant, I thought you would understand
一直忘了说　我有多感动
yi zhi wang le shuo wo you duo gan dong
Kept forgetting to tell you how much I was moved
　
我知道你还是爱着我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
I know you still love me
虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
sui ran fen kai de li you wo men dou yi jie shou
Despite both of us already accepting the reasons for separation
你知道我会有多难过
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
You knew that I would have a very hard time dealing (devastated)
所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you
So even until the end, you kept smiling wanting me to 'keep fighting'
　
我知道你还放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
I know you still can't let me go
才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
cai hui zai li kai shi bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
That's why when you left you had to close your eyes and not look back
我们都知道彼此心中
wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xin zhong
We both know each others inner thoughts
其实　这份爱没停过
qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo
Actually, this love has never once stopped
　
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
ceng jing wan zheng xing fu de meng zai mao hai li tou
In my mind, the dream that was once full of happiness
我多希望你还在我左右
wo duo xi wang ni hai zai wo zuo you
How I wish you were still by my side
　
我知道你还是爱着我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
I know you still love me
虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
sui ran fen kai de li you wo men dou yi jie shou
Despite both of us already accepting the reasons for separation
你知道我会有多难过
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
You knew that I would have a very hard time dealing (devastated)
所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you
So even until the end, you kept smiling wanting me to 'keep fighting'
　
我知道你还放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
I know you still can't let me go
才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
cai hui zai li kai shi bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
That's why when you left you had to close your eyes and not look back
答应你　我会好好过
da ying ni wo hui hao hao guo
I promised you that I would happily continue on
不让　这些眼泪白流
bu rang zhe xie yan lei bai liu
Or else these tears would have flowed in vain

Answer this 100 questions if you were tagged
then tag other ppl after you're done. :)

[1] What hair color would you like to have?
I think brown.

[2] What is your middle name?
I think it is Markus.

[3] What is your current relationship status?
Single.

[4] What makes you happy?
Not sure. Probably wasn't recently.

[5] What is your current mood?
Ok?

[6] What color underwear are you wearing?
Hmm, are you a sicko? Ask this type of questions.

[7] What is your eye colour?
Not sure, let me check my eye.

[8] What song is stuck in your head?
Remember When - There For Tomorrow

[9] What are you eating/drinking at the moment?
None.

[10] What color are your bed sheets?
White.

[11] What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
3718.

[12] What is the most important part of your life?
Friends and God.

[13] What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Listening to music.

[14] What should you be doing?
Studying Chemistry.

[15] What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
Some random wallpaper.

[16] What were you doing at 8 a.m. this morning?
Sleeping.

[17] What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Facebooking.

[18] What is the best ice cream flavor?
Mint.

[19] What are you wearing right now?
Germany Jersey and shorts.

[20] What is your birthstone?
Not sure.

FIVE WHERE’S:

[21] Where is your profile picture taken?
School library.

[22] Where are you right now?
My room.

[23] Where is your favorite vacation spot?
Perth, Australia.

[24] Where is one place you want to visit before you die?
Perth, Australia?

[25] Where were you born?
Singapore.

THIRTY DO’S

[26] Do you act differently around your crush?
No crush since confessed. If refer to person confess, yes.

[27] Do you speak any other language?
Chinese.

[28] Do you still watch kiddy tv shows?
Digimon?

[29] Do you like to travel by plane?
Sure, why not?

[30] Do you know the muffin man?
Nope, but I do know the dark knight.

[31] Do you hate anyone right now?
No.

32] Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Is characters from shows counted? If it is, I wish I was Sylar.

[33] Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
No, but I want to. However, I am being ignored. Life is a pity.

[34] Do you celebrate your half birthday?
Half birthday???

[35] Do you think you are a good person?
No, I am a sinner.

[36] Do you have a tan line?
No.

[37] Do you eat healthy?
Of coz, eating healthy is a must.

[38] Do you like someone right now?
Of coz, didnt u like asked something similar.

[39] Do you have a dog?
Nope, I wished I have.

[40] Do you have plans tonight?
Yes, study Chemistry and Additional Maths.

[41] Do you have any friends on facebook that you actually hate?
No.

[42] Do you miss your past?
Yes, I miss it a lot.

[43] Do you want children?
1 Boy & 1 Girl.

[44] Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
I walk in.

[45] Do you try to blend in with the crowd, or prefer to stand out?
Blend in. Who wants to get spotted.

[46] Do you have any old calendars in your room?
No.

[47] Do you miss anyone?
Yes.

[48] Do you play an instrument?
I thinking of learning the drums or guitar.

[49] Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Sometimes.

[50] Do you like the snow?
I'm fine with it.

[51] Do you need to pee?
You're off topic.

[52] Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yes. Even if we are not ____, I want be friends with you.

[53] Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Chocolate milk FTW.

[54] Do you get nervous in front of crowds?
Depends on what I'm doing.

[55] Do you get good grades?
Sometimes but recently not so.

FIVE IF’S:

[56] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
Dog.

[57] If you could have one superpower what would it be?
Space-Time manipulation.

[58] If you could cheat on a test, would you?
Why ask when I have already done so.

[59] If you could have one wish, what would it be for?
It would be for me to relive what I lived through last December to now.

[60] If you could go back in time and change the past, would you?
Yes. I got a lot of things I want to prevent myself from doing, causing pain, suffering onto others (someone) that I care about.

TEN HAVE’S:

[61] Have you ever had a near death experience?
Yes.

[62] Have you ever fired a gun?
No, but I will, soon.

[63] Have you ever had your heart broken?
If you mean it literally, I did not.
If you mean it the other way, I did.

[64] Have you ever been out of the country?
What do you think?

[65] Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Even if I did, I probably cant remember.

[66] Have you felt sad in the past week?
Sad? No, but I misses.

[67] Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Yes.

[68] Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
No.

69] Have you ever completely flunked a test?
Yes, a lot for MT.

[70] Have you ever gotten a detention?
Detention? I know what it means but I don't.

FIFTEEN MISCELLANEOUS:

[71] Why did you get a facebook?
Quote someone, "For fun, laughter, peace, joy."

[72] Why did your parents give you the name you have?
All I know it suppose to mean blessings but I don't seem to be blessing people.

[73] Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
I want to but like I said, I would be ignored.

[74] Are you any good at math?
Emaths yes, amaths okok.

[75] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Shangari's father.

[76] Name someone who made you smile today?
No one =(

[77] Name something you don’t leave the house without?
Wallet, phone, earpiece.

[78] Name the person that you have been friends with the longest?
Amanda Jie. 10 Years. OMG that's long.

[79] Is anyone jealous of you?
No.

[80] Does the future scare you?
No.

[81] Does your crush like you back?
I do not want to comment.

[82] How did you get one of your scars?
Pri 4, when it was raining, someone ran into me, spec cut my face just below eye.

[83] Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night.

[84] Is your phone close to you?
In front of me.

[85] Can you curl your tongue?
Yes.

FIFTEEN: THE LAST

[86] Movie you watched?
Not sure.

[87] Person you hugged?
No one.

[88] Person you talked to on the phone?
Fedeline.

[89] Person you texted?
Aunty Pauline.

[90] Person you kissed?
No one.

[91] Person you sent a comment/message on facebook?
Sheng Yang.

[92] Song you listened to?
LOL. So funny, just now is think song, just so happen song playing is Remember When - There For Tomorrow.

[93] Time you cried?
Few weeks back? Miss people la.

[94] Time you were on a plane?
A few years back.

[95] Place you went out to eat?
On Friday, 107 for lunch.

[96] Person who worried about you?
I am not sure.

[97] Time you were told you were beautiful/handsome/good looking?
I am not sure, but in school, people say that to me to act gay.

[98] Time you were sick?
Since March till now.

[99] Thing you drank?
Coke.

[100] Thing you ate?
My dinner.

Ok finally done.
Half of exams are done.
Her exams just started.
Hope everything goes out fine.
I'm just glad she has unblock me on msn.

Me, You And My Medication - Boys Like Girls

Found my way to the highway I don't wanna tell you the state Im in
I've had too much to smoke too much to drink where have I been
It feels like the stars are getting closer and the sky is closing in
And I don't know where to begin

We're all looking for something
To take away the pain

Me and you and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me you and my medication

The way back to the right track maybe you can help me find the door
Is it too much to ask, too much too fast, too much to ignore
It feels like your bodys getting closer but you seem so far away
Medicine make it ok

We're all looking for someone
To take away the pain

Me and you and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me you and my medication

Can you feel it?
Do you feel it?
Coming down
You gotta get up
Can you get up
Off the ground
Can you hear it?
Can you hear me screaming?
Can you feel it?
Do you feel it?
Coming down
You gotta get up
Can you get up
Off the ground
I wanna hear it
Wanna hear you breathing

Were all addicted to something
That takes away the pain

Me and you and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me you and my medication

Haiz, tomorrow SS exam.
How great is that?
Only Sec4 and Sec5 taking exams tomorrow.
Now I'm studying for SS but when I'm studying, somehow will go into a daze.
This is crap, MYE cmi.
Haiz.
However, I know God is our provider, everything has been planned by him.
Sometimes, I wonder if that time if I didn't ask God for advise, would things turn out differently?
I'm struggling to go through each day.
I wonder how you are.
How life have been for you?
Is your family problem settled?
Ok. I go study again.
Short post. =)

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours