Beautiful Lies.

Saturday, 27 June 2009

Today movie was ok.
Only problem is like very awkward to talk to yunling, angeline and jenisha.
After movie, by chance met ms mok and ms tan.
Ms mok avoided our question on her leaving.
Walked round plaza.
Then took train to AMK.
Angeline and Jenisha left first, yunling followed them.
Wei,navan me looking place eat, receive yunling call say wan join us.
Went eat at sumo house.
Food ok.
Took bus home.
BLablabla.
Tmr got YES.
Helping again.

6/27/2009 12:28:00 am

Thursday, 25 June 2009

I addicted to There For Tomorrow - Burn the Night Away.
LOL.
You got to get well hor.
School going to reopen liao.
If need help, can ask me.
Since miss mok leaving liao, I not sure I can get the notes for the other chapters I have learn.
As I still am holding that promise to you.
Looks like I got two promises to hold on to.
I dunno what to blog leh.
Cant sleep.

6/25/2009 01:06:00 am

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Never seen you online since Saturday.
Hope you're all right.
Later need chiong homework.
I want watch transformers.
Who want watch?

6/23/2009 12:15:00 am

Saturday, 20 June 2009

2nd post for the day.
After blogging early this morning, nose bleed.
So now, whole day have not slept.
I doubt sleep would clear my worries about you and troubles.
You got to get well.
Always come back from Indonesia, will fall sick.

There For Tomorrow - Deathbed

I'd hate to break it to you now
But that reoccurring sound
In your ear
Makes it perfect
Was it clear, my whole purpose?
I'm just fine with or without
Having this inner selfish doubt
I'll fall hard
You'll fall harder
I'm along
You're too startled

Break a sweat, desparate lover
Do you feel all alone?

I fell asleep on your deathbed
In a hole where your head rests
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I just close my eyes and
Fall asleep on your deathbed
Can we be resurrected?
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I'm your saint, will you be my savior?

I always hoped to bring this down
Words exchanging all around
You spoke quick, I spoke faster
Take your pick, take mine after
But the time went ticking
And hearts went missing
It's not what I waited on

Break a sweat, desparate lover
Do you feel all alone?

I fell asleep on your deathbed
In a hole where your head rests
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I just close my eyes and
Fall asleep on your deathbed
Can we be resurrected?
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I'm your saint, will you be my savior?
Will you be my savior?

We both agreed that this was best
But I can't risk to lose my rest
I closed my eyes now you're well on your way
I bend and fold at your request
Now it's my time to take a step
I closed my eyes now you're well on your way

I fell asleep on your deathbed
In a hole where your head rests
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I just close my eyes and
Fall asleep on your deathbed
Can we be resurrected?
I'm facing truth so unfamiliar
I'm your saint, will you be my savior?

The Arrival - Forget About The Forecast

You seem to know a thing
or two about keeping me away from
you
Now I'm afraid
you're in over your
head
This second guessing has got
to end

Are you ready to give up
everything

that we have?
Admit
you can't commit to me or
anything else
And don't
call it love if it scares you
away
So what are you waiting
for?

I can be your umbrella
baby, so get over yourself and get
under me
When you're
feeling under the weather,
I'll rescue you whenever
you're in need
I can be
your umbrella baby, so get over
yourself and get under me
When
you're feeling under the
weather, I'll shelter you
from any storm we see

You
thought this would be easy, but I
won't let you let me go
Run
into my arms or just run away
You
keep leading me on but girl your
feelings can change
Let this be
the beginning, or let this be the
end

Your lips tremble when they
brush against mine
Your breathing
quickens whenever I walk
by
There's something you
see in me that you've never
found before
So what's
keeping you away?

6/20/2009 10:04:00 am

Today is the day.
3months of you ignoring me.
Still got 1 year 4 months until your O level finish.
I'll wait for it.
Haiz. Idk whether u still angry over the tag box incident.
Hope u are no more angry.
If today you would talk to me again, it probably will make my day happy.
If it was still going on between us, yesterday would be 5months liao.
Haiz.
Miss the times we had.

There For Tomorrow - The World Calling

It's gonna get harder from here
We've gotta get smarter to make it out alive
Cause you say stop and we say go
Don't wanna be your tenth caller on the radio
So don't bother cutting me off short tonight
We let our words speak for themselves
Don't take it all so far
Don't make it that much harder
Than it already is for you to stand alone
For you, for you, for you

To wake up knowing you've got the day
To take on without feeling okay
To make yourself unwilling to sleep away
Sleep away the pain
Don't take off running without my say
Don't pay that price you thought you'd pay
You're got the choice you've got the time of day
Just don't sleep away the pain

Hold on tight to the things you're given
The camera caught it all
Aren't we all forgiven now?
Cause you say stop and we say go
The world outside is calling on the telephone
They need answers
So we'll let them know
Tonight, we let our words speak for themselves
But maybe I'm not right
We're so damaged by the sunlight
Can we make it through together
Cause honey I don't like this kind of weather
When I'm with you...

To wake up knowing you've got the day
To take on without feeling okay
To make yourself unwilling to sleep away
Sleep away the pain
Don't take off running without my say
Don't pay the price you thought you'd pay
You're got the choice you've got the time of day
Just don't sleep away the pain
Just don't sleep away the pain

It's gonna get harder from here
We've gotta get smarter to get this all in line
Cause you say stop and we say go
Oh

To wake up knowing you've got the day
To take on without feeling okay
To make yourself unwilling to sleep away
Sleep away the pain
Don't take off running without my say
Don't pay the price you thought you'd pay
You're got the choice you've got the time of day
Just don't sleep away the pain
Just don't sleep away the pain

6/20/2009 05:34:00 am

Friday, 19 June 2009

Cant sleep.
So blog.
Went to read blog about her.
Sad siah.
I miss you.
I want to talk to you again.
Don't ignore me.
Tomorrow would be 3 months u ignore me.
Haiz.
Life is just so sad.

6/19/2009 03:04:00 am

Thursday, 18 June 2009

So glad she is back in sg but sadly cant talk to her.
Miss you.

Afternoon went to Plaza Singapura.
Reach there, didn't see anyone.
I reach just nice on time.
15mins later ShuMei came and said she go meet Gloria first.
20mins later, Gloria came and went find ShuMei.
Later they came back and Gerald just nice arrived.
Waited awhile more for JianZhong who was lost in the MRT.
He lead us on a wild goose chase.
Found him at foodcourt then went eat.
While eating, Joan, Charissi and Cherelene came.
After eating, went to Minds Cafe.
At least can say it is like a make-up trip after class friend's one cancelled.
Reach there, it was still close.
Jon came then waited awhile.
Soon more people came, we thought we didn't book so won't have space.
Luckily there was.
Ordered drinks then Carmen and Jolene came.
11 of us played Taboo first then an animal game followed by Jaga and risk.
Jon left early, followed by Gloria and ShuMei.
The rest of us played till 5 then left.
Me, JianZhong and Gerald wanted split the GST amount but the remaining few said 80 cents is still money.
In end, all paid Gerald 80 cents.
We walked back to Plaza Singapura.
The boys and girls split up as JianZhong was going home, me and Gerald dun wan extra.
JianZhong sad siah cant follow someone.
In MRT talked about many things before going home.
Lazy blog liao. Gone and bye.

6/18/2009 12:10:00 am

Monday, 15 June 2009

Sometimes it is so hard to know what type of dreams you can have.
If it was the dream I had yesterday, I wished it would happen.
However even if it was possible, it would not be as perfect as it is in a dream.
No doubt that I do miss her and I'm told not to, I just cant help it.
Haiz, just hope you won't fall sick or have your sneezing problem.
Man, it is big mistake of playing maple.
Accidentally took a screenshot, wanted to delete it.
In end, found the pics of most of the time I playing maple with her.
Even Christmas countdown. Sad Sad Sad.
See that liao, made me feel like going in see audition.
Another big mistake.
Found out, got deleted from her buddy list and from school FAM.
Sad Sad Sad.
Freaking thing is later in day, my cousin just ask why so emo.
Lucky he joking niah.
Hmm just thought of something from the trick my cousin did.
Saying "I Love You" is something that is "Colorful"
If you think just cause of the words "I Love You" alone. then you are wrong.
It is the pronoun of it.
Just now watched last episode of one Korean drama.
Ending quite nice even though never watch front.
I like one part of the show.
One side says, I am waging war to protect my dreams.
The other side says, I am waging war to fulfill my dreams.
I see this, I think even if I want to, my dreams don't need to protect.
As it would just never happen.
In the drama also got one love relationship.
The girl like guy A and Guy A like the girl.
Guy B like the girl but the girl doesnt.
The girl was like passed as a parcel as they didn't want her implicated in the war.
In end Guy B pass the girl back because she said this.
"You are using violence to protect your dreams while I'm using violence to protect someone I care."
The Guy B heard this and said, " I would have to kill you too even if you are important to me and not sure hat become dead also because there is no her."
Before the girl left, She said "Even if I died, I hope the good man whom I knew would survive well."
I'm not going to reveal what happen later.
I really want to speak to you everyday even if we just friends.
I really miss those times talking to you and having fun.
Losing you is like losing my hope and purpose.
I guess I would never get the chance to say "I Love You" to you. =(

6/15/2009 01:01:00 am

Friday, 12 June 2009

Go and gone.
Probably she should be in Indonesia sleeping.
Haiz.
One thing for such, I not sure whether I did the right thing.
If you were to ask me last time to do, I probably would have done it.
However now, I'm not sure.
Haiz should have known that whatever I seemed to do seems wrong.
So today's thing probably another mistake in life.
Perhaps one thing so far done right was to apologize to xs.
The rest is like you can just forget about life la.
I'm going to wash my hands off helping to organize or organizing outings.
Ask me do is like not asking me do like that.
Rather let someone better to do this.
I miss you, I really want to talk to you again.

6/12/2009 01:09:00 am

Tuesday, 9 June 2009

I really am not sure what to blog.
I'm so confused.
It is like I been tolerating with it for so long.
And now it got worst.
Yushi don't be angry at those immature people.
Just continue to do your usual things, don't need close blog.
I'll try to settle it.
Really sorry for causing more trouble even though I didnt talk to you.
Dont get angry, your health more important.

6/09/2009 11:50:00 pm

Saturday, 6 June 2009

Miracle!!!
My wrist is almost completely healed.
Praise the Lord!
No more pain when typing. Wohoo..
I'm now a living testimony of God's power.
It's that cool.
It sure does increase my faith in God.
Today's sermon really does encourage people.
I can't wait to go to school to invite classmate to YES!
I wished I could invite you and that you would come.
That's all for today's post bah.
God is AWESOME!!!

6/06/2009 10:33:00 pm

Friday, 5 June 2009

Happy moments never seem to last while unhappy moments just stay for eternity.
If I were asked what was my last happy moment, I would be able to remember it well.
It is not my birthday but my birthday is probably my unhappy moment.
6 days passed and yet still nothing from you.
Many people told me to give up, most probably they don't know me well.
I'm glad your asthma attack has stop for the time being.
Hope it doesn't happen again.
My life really is empty.
Miss you.

6/05/2009 11:58:00 pm

Monday, 1 June 2009

I'm trying not to live negatively but I just cant help it.
Perhaps if I just went into a coma, it would be much better for all.
I'm not trying to gain sympathetic.
It is always said that a person's life is in his hands but I think oppositely of it.
I tried taking control of my life and it just brought misery to me.
I really want to let go of life, there's just no more point.
A person doesn't just change, circumstances changes a person.
If I were to see it that way, what ever actions I did doing that circumstances change your views of me, I really wished it didn't happen.
If I were to follow that, I shouldn't have confessed to you when you asked me.
The point where I really meant it ended up changing me.
I broke my promises to you and you broke my promise to me.
I guessed I really am better off dead.
No matter what I say now, wont changed that fact.
Yes, I do have to admit that at first, you did change me to something better.
I have fallen from that.
I really wish that it would be mended but I cant help but feel that it is like a mirror broken into pieces and no matter how hard,effort and time you spend into it, will it be repaired.
Even if it is pieced together, there would still be chipped parts and it is still incomplete.
I do admit that I am useless, within first game and my wrist is injured.
Study hard and lousy results I received.
I'm not trying to blame you, I just have to blame myself.
I should have believed such things like that is impossible to happen to me.
Yet, I believed it was possible, I'm such a fool.
You're right, I only have myself to blame in liking you.
Why do I always act hopeful and happy in front of others?
Why when I have so many friends but I don't really have one to confide with?
Why is there only hate, tears and pain in this world?
My birthday really showed me that many in fact doesn't know me at all.
I know I'm a total stranger.
Perhaps I should just stick with this.

Sorry, I really can't help but sms you.
I really want to speak to you everyday.
I know that no matter how much I say,
I can't make you change your mind.
I do mean what I said in front of your friend,
that I love you.

Simple Plan - No Love

Staring out at the world across the street.
You hate the way your life turned out to be.
He's pulling up the driveway and you don't make a sound.
Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say.
You're always gonna be afraid.
There's only hate.
There's only tears.
There's only pain.
There is no love here.
So what will you do?
There's only lies.
There's only fear.
There's only pain.
There is no love here.

Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces.
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile.
If these walls could talk, they would have so much to say.
Cause everytime you fight, the scars are gonna heal.
But they're never gonna go away.
You're falling.
You're screaming.

You're stuck in the same old nightmare.
He's lying.
You're crying.
There's nothing left to salvage.
Kick the door cause this is over.
Get me out of here!

Simple Plan - The End

I've been trying to tell you something
But you never understand
I feel like we've been going 'round in circles
You look at me like I've become
A stranger on the streets,
A skeleton that's been hiding in your closet

I see you next to me but you feel so far away
Where did we go wrong?
(Where did we go wrong?)
I guess this is the part where you look at me
And say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoaa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoaa
No it's not the end

I've been around the world
And I've seen so many things
I can't even tell you where I'm going
But no matter where I'm going
And no matter what I do
Something keeps me coming back to you

I see you next to me but you feel so far away
Where did we go wrong?
(Where did we go wrong?)
I guess this is the part where you look at me
And say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoaa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoaa
Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoaa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoaa
You know it's not the end

Boys Like Girls - Learning To Fall

Today is the day 
The worst day of my life 
You're so content it hurts me 
I don't know why 
The cost of misery 
Is at an all time high 
I keep it hidden 
Close to the surface in sight 

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair 
But I can't change your mind 
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now 

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me
Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me

6/01/2009 09:59:00 pm