Haiz, though it is a school night and I should be sleeping, I just cant sleep.
I really want to talk to you like last time.
Or should I say it is going to be a dream.
Time seems to move very slow when talking to you all stops.
I got no idea what am I doing la.
Everyday Play games like to escape reality like that.
Banning myself from Asiasoft games just cause scare will remind me of you.
But also not working.
I also not sure whether I wan to go on mission trip just to escape from here.
I already feeling out of place in class.
It just seems that way.

Trying to fit in with others, pretending not knowing who you are..
I AM DAMN HOPELESS..

22nd July, 222 post.
Yet it comes back down to this.
Again it just passes by.
I know the day will never come.

Rooftops - Lost Prophets

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

Haiz, one not very close senior from school pass away last week.
Life is so fragile.
School was rather boring.
Yesterday cell was ok.
Memorised memory verse.
So many verse.
Lucky I did well for it.
No sermon today for service but more like people experiences on missions.
Guess what?
I'm going on mission trip at the end year.
Like finally I'm going but then go for 5days, don't want leave things behind.
Details all not confirm.
Only confirm that I'm going.
Today would need rush through a lot of maths homework, study English vocab test.
Busy day it will be.
Yesterday also met my friend from ACS who was quarantine this week.
Hope tomorrow can go school.

As usual watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn.
Found one ending song lyrics nice.
Translated.

Mori Tsubasa - Suberidai

The dancing, fluttering

happiness The trembling warmth No matter how I struggled I couldn’t catch it, like always No matter how hard I sketched I couldn’t draw it, like always Yesterday, I understood that We can’t meet each other again I understood that I took two pieces of tissue home with me The dancing, fluttering happiness The trembling warmth “Someday, I promise to make you happy” The voice that day was just my imagination By knowing separation, it seems that we can become strong It’s fine even if we can’t become stronger than this It changed yesterday The bad things changed yesterday Just as you said, I’m a bad person The fluttering hand that was pressed against my hair tenderly The sparkling ring that was removed from your finger You laughed a little fakely, didn’t you? I saw it from further than usual I didn’t say anything The slide you saw When your teary eyes averted my gaze in the park I can’t remember if it was a giraffe or an elephant Even though I remember thinking “I want to protect you” The dancing, fluttering happiness The trembling warmth “Someday, I promise to make you happy” The voice that day was just my imagination

Ok got to go liao.

Keep wanting to blog but keep forgetting to blog.
Ok, shall blog about last week first followed by this week.
Last Saturday was YES - Bejeweled.
Reach Church there around 1.15
Quickly ate lunch then went meet up with the YES committee.
Helped with deco then went to blk 40A room 1 for prayer.
Had some briefing.
I was paired with Justin who was doing prophetic arts.
Went to my station.
First person was a sec 4 named Krystal.
She the only newcomer that I was able to relate to.
Jurong West Sec. Blablabla.
Talked about lots of things.
Next few were harder as they were NS, Poly or Uni.
Sermon was by Pastor Victor.
After service, ate with Josiah, Jon and Edmund.
Took bus with Josiah, trusting him that he could bring us to Bishan safely.
His motive of taking bus was to follow Joan.
Alight same bus stop as her, realised that Nicole was with her.
Suppose to take 156 to Bishan, in end we follow her taking another bus.
We talked to Joan and found out that she was not going Bishan.
Josiah was very ps, we alight and took bus that was heading to Bishan.
That night something happen but was rather sad la.
Monday, went school.
Boring.
Thursday, some had Chinese oral.
WeeLiang, Brandon, MingHao and me went lunch outside school while waiting for rest to come out.
They sad, oral question was hard.
Yesterday, I had RedHill Outreach.
2months since I last went there.
Reach RedHill Mrt Station, found Samuel there only.
Waited awhile then went to the block.
First activity was Samuel' s magic trick.
Ok la.
Next was Edmund and Josiah' s games.
Tried Polar Bear and blow wind blow with the kids but they don't understand.
Last resort was London Bridge is falling down. LOL.
Sianz lor, was asked to pair with Jolene.
After that game, one girl went ask her, is he your bf?
Then come ask me whether she my gf.
Crazy siah.
I know kids are innocent but woah can they think of such things.
After the whole outreach, bus to church.
Then rest as per normal.
Cant believe I took 3hrs+ just to blog this.
Now 1am. Better do more work.