Actually didn't want to blog today but as I just watched Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu, I think I should just blog about it since it is still fresh in my mind.
Well, this movie is from a manga.
It has many english titles,
I Give My First Love to You And this manga genre is romance, shojo and slice of life.
Weird right?
Me, reading and watching this type of manga and movie.
This story is about two people from young to young adults. Takuma and Mayu's story began when they were only 8 years old. During his childhood, Takuma was constantly hospitalised due to his heart condition. He soon became friends with Mayu, the daughter of the doctor in charge of his case. Day by day they grew closer and closer. However, the summer when Takuma was 8, he made a promise to Mayu that he couldn't keep... Their story unfolds as they grow older and their bond gets stronger...
I only have read the manga half way through but too bad, there is no more sub chapters of it.
So I just went to find the movie today.
I am not sure whether the ending of the movie follows the manga but earlier parts of the movie, it did not follow the manga.
All left is just to wait.
I like how the whole story unfolds and the ending music is really nice and meaningful.
Maybe if it is animated and its ost are done by Jun Maeda, it would really be the best anime for the year.
Yeah, from the summary of the story, it sounds like a tragic romance story.
Maybe that's what I like about it.
It is being realistic, portraying how these two characters grow, trying to overcome Takuma heart disease and the different struggles they have.
It is way different from other shojo mangas.
Anyway like I said, the music nice and meaningful, so here it is.



English
If my wishes came true,
Your sadness would fill me
Please throw away those feelings
I will endure them for you.

When future paintings and maps are lost,
I would still have seen a tiny part of you.

Goodbye, Thank You, I love you, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, Don't cry, Silly you,
Words that I want to convey are flowing endlessly,
No matter how many times, I fall in love with you.

Your dreams will come true,
As it could be said with all your dedications and with your heart

When I'm no longer here, I have not disappeared,
You will still find the threads of love of our hearts.

Goodbye, See you next time, I'm sorry, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, In this way, Silly you,
Painful Love, Endlessly loving,
No matter how many times, I fall in love with you.

The eyes of love and the pain of affection,
Long ago you gave to me an unforgettable radiance

Goodbye, Thank You, I love you, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, Don't cry, Silly you,
Words that I want to convey are flowing endlessly,
No matter how many times, I fall in love with you.

Goodbye, See you next time, I'm sorry, I love you,
Goodbye, Keep smiling, In this way, Silly you,
Painful Love, Endlessly loving,
No matter how many times, I will cry out “I love you”,
Goodbye...

Kanji
もしも願いがかなうなら　
君の悲しみを僕の胸の中に
注ぎ込んでくださいその痛みならば
僕は絶えられる

未来絵がく地図も無くしてしまう
ちっぽけな僕だけれど君を見つけた

さようなら、ありがとう、好きだよ、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、泣くなよ、バカだな
伝えたい言葉は止めどなく溢れる、
何度も、何度でも、僕は君に恋をする。

君の願いがかなうなら
全てささげると心から言える

僕がいなくなっても、消えることない、
恋色に染まる心、君と見つけた

さようなら、また会おう、御免ね、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、おこんなよ、バカだな、
恋しい苦しい、愛しいじゃたりない、
何度も、何度でも、僕は君と恋をする。

恋する瞳と愛する痛みを
君が僕にくれた輝き忘れない
ずっと

さようなら、ありがとう、好きだよ、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、泣くなよ、バカだな
伝えたい言葉は止めどなく溢れる、
何度も、何度でも、僕は君に恋をする。

さようなら、また会おう、御免ね、好きだよ、
さようなら、笑ってよ、おこんなよ、バカだな、
恋しい苦しい、愛しいじゃたりない、
何度も、何度でも、叫ぶよ　「好きだよ」、
さようなら

Romanji
moshi mo negai ga kanau nara kimi no kanashimi wo boku no mune no nakani
sosogi konde kudasai sono itami naraba boku wa tae rareru

mirai egaku chizu mo nakushite shimau
chippo kena boku dake redo kimi wo mitsuketa

sayonara , arigatou , suki dayo , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , naku nayo , baka dana
tsutae tai kotoba wa tome donaku afure ru
nando mo , nando demo boku wa kimi ni koi wo suru

kimi no negai ga kanau nara subetesa sageru to kokoro kara ieru

boku ga inaku nattemo kieru koto nai
koi itoni somaru kokoro kimi to mitsu keta

sayonara , mata aou , gomenne , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , okonnayo , baka dana
koishii kurushii , itoshii ja tari nai
nando mo , nando demo bokuha kimi to koi wosuru

koi suru hitomi to ai suru itami wo
kimi ga boku ni kureta kagayaki wasure nai zutto

sayonara , arigatou , suki dayo , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , naku nayo baka dana
tsutae tai kotoba wa tome do naku afureru
nando mo , nando demo boku wa kimi ni koi wosuru

sayonara , mata aou , gomenne , suki dayo
sayonara , waratte yo , okonnayo , baka dana
koishii kurushii , itoshii ja tari nai
nando mo , nando demo sakebu yo suki dayo
sayonara

Ok, first week was keep going out.
Second week now, is anime and manga with a little bit of studying.
Haiz.
Been using my itunes and for not sure what reason, it been playing the Clannad OST.
One of it is called presence.
It plays this slow, sad piece.
Listening to it, is like a piece for a flashback for a sad moment in life.
I cant remember which scene in Clannad After Story it was played in.
Another piece would be Sound of the Tide.
To me, it sounds like a piece played when a person has tough choices to make and would end up supposedly better for the other person but in end would hate his own feelings.
The next music piece would be Years and much.
Is like a final conclusion of everything but a slow and sooth piece.
There is still others but is like not sure how to explain it.
Surprisingly, these OST other than making me feel like re-watching the whole of Clannad and Clannad After Story, it is able to make me think of what the composer felt these pieces of music are for and how much impact it would put on.
Like I said, some is like for playing during a flashback.
Yeah, it does bring back things from last year.
Hopelessness, sorrow, unable to do thing just comes to mind for that first half of year.
Then for the second half, I am reminded by Angel Beats OST.
Unjust life.
Yes, it is another slow piece.
Hearing it, just like what its title is, reminds me of unfairness in life, perhaps maybe even anger?
Okok, enough of the OST.
Haha.
Now for music.
I like this music for the chorus.
Quite true and I think it is like perfect for a Angel Beats! AMV.

Better Life
Conditions

When I drive to fast and hit a wall
or drink myself to the hospital
I'm the only one to blame
and as sirens haunt my city streets
and though that sound is after me
calmly I await the change

So don't wait for the world to get better
You're gonna waste the time you have
And you won't get it back

When you fall,
When you break,
When you wish you didn't feel
Keep your head,
Don't forget,
It's the pain that makes us real
I know most of the time
It's hard to keep in mind,
From lessons learned
Comes better life

When I play too hard and break my bones
Depress myself to the lowest lows
I'm the only one to blame
Cause the choice is mine and mine alone, and I choose to learn as I go, clarity will come from pain

When you fall,
When you break,
When you wish you didn't feel
Keep your head,
Don't forget,
It's the pain that makes us real
I know most of the time
It's hard to keep in mind,
From lessons learned
Comes better life

My understanding of the world feels broken
and it's demanding my immediate attention
you're looking up, believing you will leave your problems below
Forget what you believe, use what you know

When you fall,
When you break,
When you wish you didn't feel
Keep your head,
Don't forget,
It's the pain that makes us real
I know most of the time
It's hard to keep in mind,
From lessons learned
Comes better life

Ohaiyo.
YOG holiday is here.
Yeah it is.
Anyway time to blog.
Yeah, at 2.40am in the morning. LOL.
On National Day, went out with Fedeline, Dian and Jenisha.
Met up Dian and Jenisha for lunch then talk and talk and talk then even walk around Marina square and raffles city.
Then headed to Somerset to look around.
Went to Dhoby Ghaut to find fedeline then head to Chinatown walk around.
LOL.
The places we go like super random.
Was around 6+ in the evening le, Jenisha got things to do so went off.
Then we just went to Novena to slack there.
I got no idea how long we were, sitting at the mac there, talking. Haha.
I think was like 8.
Then went toapayoh for fedeline dinner then I homed.
Is like super crazy, Dian all so theory theory theory.
Yesterday, had a small class outing.
Left house at like 3.30.
At first wanted to like leave at 3 then go look around.
In end never.
Went to bus-stop, so coincidentally met yunling.
At first thought saw wrong.
Then reach amk mrt bus-stop there, angeline there.
LOL
Train to cityhall, yangting already there.
Waited for navan, wei, ze, hong, mari and beverley then went pool.
We like took 3 tables.
Just keep switching partners to play.
Accidently hit wrong ball then black ball in, mari win. LOL.
Then against beverley even more tyco.
6balls in row in.
In end still lost. Haha.
Paired with yl against wei and angeline.
LOL. Super funny match.
After the pool, decided go bugis for steamboat/bbq.
Wah, we jaycross like no cars on the road.
Super dangerous.
Steamboat was like damn fun.
We like cleared all the peppered fish and chicken until they never refill.
Eat while joking and talking.
Say what cannot go home late coz 7 month and some more friday 13.
Makes it double unlucky.
LOL.
After eating, headed to bugjs junction walk through.
Went iluma, see arcade and play.
Train back to amk, half way, met viji.
Haha. She just dismiss from work.
Home like 11.15.
Great time of meeting ex-classmates.
Hopefully teachers' day can meet up, provided I study hard during this holiday so can just go to sgs see teachers and ex-classmates then go exam.
A bit siaosiao.

Fun Facts about yesterday.
1. Ze eat steamboat, until will sweat like heavy rain.
2. Mari able to eat more than ze.
3. Yunling and Angel never play pool before.
4. Ze is damn tall now.
5. Never ever, cross roads with them ever again.
6. Must find a nicer place to eat next time, something like the steamboat can pick food, but definitely not sakae.
7. Navan is as bastard as ever.
8. Everyone spend $25 except for ze who spend $20. Why? He never pay for pool.

Haha.
Really damn bored.
At this hour, 3.01am.
Haha.
And thats all I got to blog about.
And here the lyrics of a new song by There For Tomorrow.
Sayōnara. Oyasumi Nasai

There For Tomorrow
9 to 5

Out of touch with yourself as the lies keep building on your shelf
You can see the reflection of the things you do in me
Out of way for you to tell them to give me the time of day
And still you live for free making disbelief
Of the fortune in my name

Did it feel just like it should?

When you pushed us all away
Just to make sure your okay
Your honesty turned to a lie
When we became your 9 to 5

Out of sight for you to live and learn
You've got me thinking you're still sound asleep
Your best in written words, now they're down for all to see
Now you're way too tongue-in-cheek
To make the rest of them believe
Even the blind can see what you do to me
And the fortune in my name

Well, did it feel just like it should?

When you pushed us all away
Just to make sure your okay
Your honesty turned to a lie
When we became your 9 to 5
I won't go out of my way
To hear what you've got to say
We must be doing something right
When we became your 9 to 5

Did it do all the things that you thought it would do?
We're singing we're still alive
Will it do all the things that you thought it would do?
We're singing we're still alive

When you pushed us all away
Just to make sure your okay
Your honesty turned to a lie
When we became your 9 to 5
I won't go out of my way
To hear what you've got to say
We must be doing something right
When we became your 9 to 5

This whole week was like busy with project works.
In a way, it can be good, no need think about things.
In another, too many things to do and finish.
Lucky one project due date postponed to next tuesday.
Then onow finished writing reflections, tcs finish presentation (fun wearing formal.).
Now only need do a lot of ise work, proposal and presentation on monday.
Not sure why but after watching all those satursday's anime, was reading some random shojo manga.
In end both mangas were quite nice.
One was quite realistic, another was just like KIMI.
Both is under same genre. (Romance, drama and school life)
Finished reading the first one.
Realistic in the way how people feelings relate to one another and how people look at certain situations.
Know secrets > protect someone > all those drama parts.
Overall it was quite nice.
The "I'll Give You My First Love" like KIMI, not yet finished.
Can say I understand what the male main character is, on the other hand, can say I dont understand.
Why???
Coz he has heart disease and wont leave pass age of 20.
It is like those drama shows where the guy break up with the girl coz of some disease then dont want to make the girl cry, so he break up with her. But then the girl dont understand why, always go find him.
No need say any more, you can go guess the rest.
But the whole story quite predictable.
Hopefully tomorrow can do rest of my work.
Anyway here's another song by Tonight Alive.
Hopefully you will able to get over it better
than how I'm not getting over you.
I will just quietly support your decisions.
Gambateh!

Tonight Alive - Ten Times Better

I'll take you outside as the rain begins to fall
And you
You quiver inside at the thought of something new
I know this is a little oversaid that I
Can't help but think you do this everytime
And I knew by the way he moved
This is one trap that I could fall into

I am not ok now
But I'll find a way now
I've been here before
But you sure are more more more
Than I bargained for

Everything is ten times better when
When you are next to me
You get the best of me
This is not how I remembered
You go you go
But will we see the end of this?

You know its you my dear
But who does the chasing here?
You gotta get up
You gotta get up and go
You won't get anything if your too slow

So don't be let astray now
I'll show you the way now
I've been here before
But you sure are more more more
Than I bargained for

Everything is ten times better when
When you are next to me
You get the best of me
This is not how I remembered
You go you go

What do you do when you get that feeling?
What do you do when you can't control yourself now
Yourself now
Do you just let go let go let go
Of all your thoughts now
For just that one kiss
For just that one kiss

Everything is ten times better when
When you are next to me
You get the best of me
This is not how I remembered
You go you go
But will we see the end of this?

I'll take you outside as the rain begins to fall
And you
You quiver inside at the thought of something new